Current Song Playing: "Numb/Encore" by Jay-Z Linkin Park collaboration
current quote of the day: "Happiness is a choice that requires effort at times." ---Aeschylus (a greek playwright. i learned of him in my classics class. check out wiki http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aeschylus)
hey guys. just wanted to say wussup. things have been great for me lately. i am happy. really. im not lying. i really do enjoy and love my life rite now.
today i got to play tennis with my kuya and JR at Cerritos. it was really fun. i think it was mostly because of the fact that i felt like i was playing really good tennis. like... for a second. i felt like i was in my High School prime kinda tennis. lol but it was only for a sec. lol. but i always hoped that i'd improve my game and not get rusty. maybe even go above and beyond my HS tennis skills and get better. haha. fat chance but i can dream can't i?
So tennis was great today, and super fun. but chirstmas was something else. i luuuuved spending time with my fam and frenz and the FOOOD! woot. and i didn't even get started talking about presents. lol but i felt like what i gave out this xmas was super cool and what i recieved was totally awesome. :-D
so i spent some time with at my sisters in Colton (near riverside) and we had some drinks and played nerdy games and rock band. lol but yeah. it was such a fun nite and hung out with my future brother in law. it was great times. and of course, great food. cuz wen u roll with the Enriquez's it's only the prime select choice meats and produce u grub down on. ;-) rofl. it's kinda true tho.
My eldest sister Ate Ann, said this today. "i love and hate the holidays, but what i hate the most is the eating, cuz it just totally messes up my eating pattern" and it's sooo true. i totally agree with what she said. wen ur at home, with lots of family, lots of good company, and lots of good food (home cooked food made with love frm my mom lol) you can't really tell if your hungry, or just craving to eat/taste the food from the smell of it all. lol
speaking of which, my dad got a home ice cream maker. it is freaking awesome! i luv it. lol so far, we made some vanilla, super sour lemon sherbert, and coffee ice cream. it was great stuff man. i hope i don't gain weight over the break. lol. : )
so im pretty happy where i stand as of now. i really am, but for some reason... i can't help but feel like im still incomplete and somewhat empyt inside. i have this strong feeling of being empty rite now. and i am no quite sure why. i always ask myself if im living life to it's fullest, and i know i shouldn't really compare my life to other ppl's lives. and i should really consider all the wonderful blessing that i have today. i shouldn't take things for granted. i mean, i got a wonderful and supportive family, certain talents and characterisitcs. tennis is also fun. i have some great friends. I'm on deccent terms with God. but i just don't know... i just feel like there's so many more things i can do and want to do that i feel like will make my life more meaningful somehow or more fulfilling. but what? i just don't know. i'd like to say that i want to experiment and try new things but i admit, im kinda scared. im ussually one that keeps the status quo. maybe i shud really change that huh? im not too sure anymore.
i can really see how ppl. have addictions. because once ppl. try something and like it, it becomes their world and it makes them feel alive. i can see how ppl. can get addicted to drugs, or pornography, or addicted to food and become obease. i can see how ppl can be obsessed with a certain thought/action becuase it makes them feel "complete" but how do we decipher "completeness" with "false complacency" ? why do i feel this way in the first place? haha, i don't know. i want to try other things... some things that i will not mention in this blog cuz it'll probably shock u what i want to try. hahah it's kinda like... i wanna try it once, and see how it is, but what im afriad of the most is messing up my life... becoming addicted to it, or even liking it and wanting to do it more even tho i know it's "false complacency" i always felt like it was best to neve try things just so that there is no way for me to become addicted. but i can't help it that im curious can't i? iono... i kinda don't know wut to do. who says that by trying/do these things that i have in mind will make my life that much better and more fulfilling?
in any case, i shud just enjoy life now and take things step by step rite? hehe. mkay i think i've had my brain dump of the day. lol hope everyone is doin well and is safe these hollidays. new years is coming up. next blog will be about new year's resolutions. : D have fun all bye
End time: 12:54 Am
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Am i Living Life? (are you?)
Current Song of the day. "Weekend Warriors" by A Change in Pace (Kudos to Mr. Forton once again for introducing me to this song)
Current Quote of the day: "Weekends are for Warriors... This can't last forever, raise our glass together... It doesn't get much better. no better than this." from the quote song above
So i dont' mean to be a jockerr or n e ting, but charlene had this on her blogspot and i wanted to try it out. it was some crzy color quiz thing that supposedly tells you about ur personality. reassure me guys! tell me if you think wat this quiz says it dead on right about me and what isn't i wanna know! lol.
Your Existing Situation
Attracted by anything new, modern, or intriguing. Liable to the bored by the humdrum, the ordinary, or the traditional
Your Stress Sources
Delights in the tasteful, the gracious, and the sensitive, but maintains his attitude of critical appraisal and refuses to be swept off his feet unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore keeps a strict and watchful control on his emotional relationships as he must know exactly where he stands. Demands complete sincerity as a protection against his own tendency to be too trusting.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels that he cannot do much about his existing problems and difficulties and that he must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.
Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left him listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied him.
Circumstances force him to compromise and to forgo some pleasures for the time being. Capable of achieving physical satisfaction from sexual activity.
Your Desired Objective
Feels exhausted by conflict and quarreling and desires protection from them. Needs peaceful conditions and a tranquil environment in which to relax and recover.
Your Actual Problem
Needs to protect himself against his tendency to be too trusting, as he finds it is liable to be misunderstood or exploited by others. As a result, he adopts a critical and stand-offish attitude, being willing to participate only where he can be assured of sincerity and trustworthiness.
Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left him listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied him.Circumstances force him to compromise and to forgo some pleasures for the time being. Capable of achieving physical satisfaction from sexual activity."
you can take this quiz @ colorquiz.com
interesting huh? i never really saw myself as too trusting. i am trusting... but not too trusting. but yeah, i found it kinda interestings. hehe
so i really felt that the above quote and song accurately reflected my past weekend. : ]
i had a really great weekend. to sum it all up in the most short and concise way possible, ima say this
i met up with sum HS frenz and we ate out to celebrate a friends bday on the eigth of this month. we ate at this seafood place in irvine, afterwards, we got some drinks at my frenz pad in irvine, had some fun. stayed out late and got home to bp at 5 am. i slept at six and woke up the following morn. at 7:30 so i can go to work with my brother. i slept throughout the inspections (so i ended up getting a deccent amt. of sleep) my brother did and we ate at morongo buffet for lunch. played rockband frm 3-6 at a coworkers place, xmas shopping afterward, and then kiked it at home. there were many more tiring details in between, but it was crzy fun weekend. my xmas break is still going and i hope to keep up this pace. lol
mad shoutouts to all my HS frens that i havne't seen/talked to for a while now. i am trying me best to budget all my time here in BP to see and keep in touch with all the homies frm HS. i really do wanna kik it with all yall. haha. tha'ts another thing for me to look forward to in the holidays.
so as i look back at what i've done in the past, and what im doin now. i cna't help but ask if i've really living life. i mean... there is like. so many things that ihavent' done yet and want to do. i just can't help but feel like i've wasted a part of my youth not doin stuff. like taking up a martial arts, being more musically inclinded, snowboarding, reading various types of books, dancing, other sports, travelling the country, experiencing new things. a part of me feels like i've wasted a bit of my youth even tho i am still at a young age. i shud b more optimistic and say htat i hav a looooong ways to go wtih plenty of more time to explore and learn mroe and do more.
As of late, life is treating me well, and im loving the holidays. i remember what xmas was like last year and what i was going thru and stuff, and this year... totally different. hahaha. it's like.. waaaay more fun and more exciting. is it a change in times? or a change within myself that makes this year's holiday's more fun. i hav no idea, but lets hope it stays that way.
i hope i don't gain too much weight over this break, a part of me feels like i already did. (lol) but yeah, lack of excercise and lots of good food around me is a bad combination for myself. but i'll make do somehow.
im tired yall. let's blow this joint. happy holidays! xmas is in 2 days! hopefully i get to see u sometime during the break. :-) peaCe!
end time 3:10 am
Current Quote of the day: "Weekends are for Warriors... This can't last forever, raise our glass together... It doesn't get much better. no better than this." from the quote song above
So i dont' mean to be a jockerr or n e ting, but charlene had this on her blogspot and i wanted to try it out. it was some crzy color quiz thing that supposedly tells you about ur personality. reassure me guys! tell me if you think wat this quiz says it dead on right about me and what isn't i wanna know! lol.
Your Existing Situation
Attracted by anything new, modern, or intriguing. Liable to the bored by the humdrum, the ordinary, or the traditional
Your Stress Sources
Delights in the tasteful, the gracious, and the sensitive, but maintains his attitude of critical appraisal and refuses to be swept off his feet unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore keeps a strict and watchful control on his emotional relationships as he must know exactly where he stands. Demands complete sincerity as a protection against his own tendency to be too trusting.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Feels that he cannot do much about his existing problems and difficulties and that he must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity.
Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left him listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied him.
Circumstances force him to compromise and to forgo some pleasures for the time being. Capable of achieving physical satisfaction from sexual activity.
Your Desired Objective
Feels exhausted by conflict and quarreling and desires protection from them. Needs peaceful conditions and a tranquil environment in which to relax and recover.
Your Actual Problem
Needs to protect himself against his tendency to be too trusting, as he finds it is liable to be misunderstood or exploited by others. As a result, he adopts a critical and stand-offish attitude, being willing to participate only where he can be assured of sincerity and trustworthiness.
Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left him listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied him.Circumstances force him to compromise and to forgo some pleasures for the time being. Capable of achieving physical satisfaction from sexual activity."
you can take this quiz @ colorquiz.com
interesting huh? i never really saw myself as too trusting. i am trusting... but not too trusting. but yeah, i found it kinda interestings. hehe
so i really felt that the above quote and song accurately reflected my past weekend. : ]
i had a really great weekend. to sum it all up in the most short and concise way possible, ima say this
i met up with sum HS frenz and we ate out to celebrate a friends bday on the eigth of this month. we ate at this seafood place in irvine, afterwards, we got some drinks at my frenz pad in irvine, had some fun. stayed out late and got home to bp at 5 am. i slept at six and woke up the following morn. at 7:30 so i can go to work with my brother. i slept throughout the inspections (so i ended up getting a deccent amt. of sleep) my brother did and we ate at morongo buffet for lunch. played rockband frm 3-6 at a coworkers place, xmas shopping afterward, and then kiked it at home. there were many more tiring details in between, but it was crzy fun weekend. my xmas break is still going and i hope to keep up this pace. lol
mad shoutouts to all my HS frens that i havne't seen/talked to for a while now. i am trying me best to budget all my time here in BP to see and keep in touch with all the homies frm HS. i really do wanna kik it with all yall. haha. tha'ts another thing for me to look forward to in the holidays.
so as i look back at what i've done in the past, and what im doin now. i cna't help but ask if i've really living life. i mean... there is like. so many things that ihavent' done yet and want to do. i just can't help but feel like i've wasted a part of my youth not doin stuff. like taking up a martial arts, being more musically inclinded, snowboarding, reading various types of books, dancing, other sports, travelling the country, experiencing new things. a part of me feels like i've wasted a bit of my youth even tho i am still at a young age. i shud b more optimistic and say htat i hav a looooong ways to go wtih plenty of more time to explore and learn mroe and do more.
As of late, life is treating me well, and im loving the holidays. i remember what xmas was like last year and what i was going thru and stuff, and this year... totally different. hahaha. it's like.. waaaay more fun and more exciting. is it a change in times? or a change within myself that makes this year's holiday's more fun. i hav no idea, but lets hope it stays that way.
i hope i don't gain too much weight over this break, a part of me feels like i already did. (lol) but yeah, lack of excercise and lots of good food around me is a bad combination for myself. but i'll make do somehow.
im tired yall. let's blow this joint. happy holidays! xmas is in 2 days! hopefully i get to see u sometime during the break. :-) peaCe!
end time 3:10 am
Friday, December 19, 2008
Post Skyrie
Current Song of the day: "Insurance" by The Higher (compliments to Mr. Forton for introducing me to this song/band)
Current Quote of the Day: "I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."
---Thomas Edison
1. So chain reaction was hella tite man. i luved it. sooo much fun. Steve Forton hosted the event and bought tix in advance. The great thing about Mr. Forton is that he's a do-er. he doens't wait around for something to happen, he makes it happen. and i wish i could do that. he knows how to bring ppl. together, plan fun events, and how to have a good time (responsibly of course lol) so he set up the whole chain reaction event in anaheim. it was really cool. Charlene, Charmaine, Mark Sescon, Jerrick, Steve, one of Steve's friends, and I all went.
we saw 3 bands. The Morning of, Danger Radio, and My American Heart. (each band went after the other in that order) Each band had their own strengths that i liked. i felt like the Morning of would had great variation in each of their songs so that not every sone they played all sounded similar or the same. it also has a girl and guy singer, which sounds really nice. altho they didn't bring much crowd energy nor did the Girl vocalist sing loud enuf. (maybe her mic volume was too low?)
Danger Radio was pretty solid all around. they kinda remind of of a cross between Maroon 5 and Hello Goodbye. they're pretty legit. charlene and Charmaine bought their cd and i like their style. i kinda felt like thier songs started sounding all every similar after a while, but they still produce good music. esp. their acoustic stuff. i'll post one of their songs in my next blog of sumtin.
and My American Heart had filipinos in their band. like... real talented filipinos! rofl jk. but yeah. they definitely brought in most of the crowd energy and ppl. got crzy with the moshing and crowd surfing. i wanted to get in the moshing, but i had my glasses on and i was somewhat concerned about Charlene and Charmaine with the ppl. around us moshing it up. i didn't wanna see them squashed like pancakes at the end of the nite. lol
and on another note about moshing... i kinda felt like what they were doing was hella stupid. like... i mean what steve and the rest of the crowd was moshing up and down was acceptable and cool cuz htey were just jumping up and down with the pushing here and there. but some guys next to us and charlene and charmaine was like... extreme moshing in a crzy deranged manner that just kinda made him look stupid. it was like... kicking around and elbowing the air in a wanna be punk manner. it could really hurt someone by doin that. and whats the point? just so u can look cool cuz ur too into the moment of the song? it was like... really dumb in my opinion. it looked like they were fighting with the invisible person next to them or like... they were trying to elbow thier own face or sumtin. iono man, it was pretty dumb in my opinion. but yeah. all in all Charin reaction was an excellent nite.
2. so the afterparty of Charin reaction was tite. Mark had to go meet up with the other older LOG ppl. to go drink it up. and charlene, Charmaine, and i exchanged presents with Steve. so that was pretty cool. so then the Platon's and i hit up a party that was walking distance frm their place. it was a lotta fun. we got to meet and socialize with a lotta cool ppl. it's always great to meet new facebook frenz ya know? lol we met this guy who was really good at beer pong, this one guy that cud take any punch in the stomache cuz the mofo had some crzy hard abs. it was kinda scary lol. and we met this one guy frm USC who was half Inidian and half Filipino. he was super cool. and just a heads up. the Platon's are redickulous wen it comes to beer pong. it was like their first time playing, and they totally dominated. it was scary. on thier second match, they were down like... 8 cups and they totaly came bak and won. so im telling u guys, watch out for them.
now we stayed up till four am that nite. it was kinda scary cuz there was a security guard that kept on threatening to call the cops on the house party. lol. and someguy had too much to drink and he puked. and there was connect four and i owned charlene. (lol sry, i had to brag about that : P) but the best part of that night was seeing the Platon's buzzed. ROFL. sooo much fun just watching them man. Charmaine was like... a giggly drunk on helium. she kept on talking like a 7 year old. it was sooo funny! omb. and like... she would laff at everything and anything. lol. she just wouldnt' stop giggling. and she was a bit off balance. as for Charlene, she was like... doin kartwheels in the parking structure. and then i had a few drinks so i felt like dancing and getting hyphy and Charlene tried to get hyphy with me! and charmaine was just ROFL. daym man.... those were good times. we were hella loud too. i got kinda worried that some of the neighbors would wake up cuz charmaine woulnd't stop giggling. lol. we tried watching a movie afterwards but we failed miserably cuz it was hella late. lol
3. but spending some good quality time with the Platons was just a great way to start my winter break. seriously... i had just finished my last 2 finals on friday, and i went over their pad and just kiked it and hung out with them till saturday. it was soo much fun just hanging out and chilling with them. Good time and good memories. cheers. i felt like my finals went okay. i did well in my ESS1 final. i thought i did deccent in my soc 2 final. and my ESS7 class had a final a bit more difficult than the midterm. and my soc 63 final was easier cuz i studied more for it and i just felt like it was easier than the mditerm in which i scored poorly on.
4. After my mini side-quest (yes, i know im nerdy) with the Platon's i went off to Skyrie. i went to mammoth with Kyrie. it was really fun. lots of bonding and fellowship. not very much God or reflection time, but at least i got to grow closer with this Kyrie group and learn more about the ppl. within the group. that part was really cool. i felt like many of the things i did could have been done here at socal, but it's all good. I'm not too sure if i got my money's worth is all. we had cramped sleeping areas. the drive up was uncomfortable cuz of a packed car. since i didnt' snowboard, we just watched movies, ate, ate out, took pictures, played in the snow a bit. i was kinda scared at some times cuz the weather was pretty extreme man. i think i have very poor blood circulation to my feet, cuz my feet got cold very easily, even with 3 layers of socks. i think it was cuz i was wearing regular sneakers and water got in easily with the snowmelt and the cold relentless wind. there were other expenses that i din't take into acount like buying clothes for the weather, eating out, and other things. there was also the incident going back home...
the drive down was even worse than the ride up. we were suppose to come home wednesday afternoon or night. we drive about 2 hrs and were forced to stop at a burger king due to weather conditions. the snow wouldn't stop falling. from what we hear, the freeways home are all closed down due to the weather. from what i heard, this was the first time in 15years that it snowd in that area. so ppl. were not prepared for the weather and the police couldn't do much. the burgerking we were at (that was suppose to be 24 hrs) closed on us around 6 due to the weather conditions. we were forced to move to a neighboring restaurant called "the roadhouse diner and restaurant" or something like that. we were only suppose to be at burger king for an hour until the snow plow came, but it never did come. we switched over to the 24hr restarant hoping it wouldn't close on us. we just played more cards to pass the time. we stayed at the same spot for about 6-8 hours not making any progress going home. we realized that we were gonna spend the nite. around 3 am someone said that the freeways were open again cuz the snow had stopped falling. we continue to drive out. about less than an hour later, we are stuck in traffic, the freeways are closed and none of the cars are moving. we were forced to sleep in the cold in the middle of the freeway in a packed 5 seated car. i sat int he back right that night. it was soo hard to sleep. i went outside to stretch my legs and i switched spots with my friend cuz he said it was hard to sleep in the middle seat. when i went outside to stretch my legs, the whole freeway was covered in ice and i sliped and got a bruise. so i sat there sandwhiched between Jerome, who is a 6foot3 inch korean guy with long legs, and dean, a semi-buff guy. i was cramped and uncomfortable and had a hard time sleeping. it suxed. the funny part. the skinniest guy int he car was the driver, and jerome's girlfirend (who was skinny too) took shotgun, so i was pretty much stuck there in the middle of a cold freeway not going anywhere. i didn't get home till the next day in the afternoon.
people got cranky too (which was natural in times of adversity) and it was just hard overall. i mean... i did my best to be optimistic and happy, but when ppl. around u are negative, it's really tuff.
but lookin on the bright side of things. i feel like i really did get closer to ppl. i learned sooo much about the korean culture and i learned a few korean words. hahah. so that was coool. i got to talk to ppl. in kyrie more. those who i wouldnt' normally talk to and those who i got to know on a better level. i ate some good food in mammoth(at the expense of my wallet of course) see snowfall and make snow angel for the first time in my life. I really made some good memories this past few days. I made some new friends and i realized a different side of ppl. i never really saw before. Jerome was really funny. i was kinda glad that i rode in that car tho, cuz he was just really funny thruout the whole ride and he's just great entertainment and a really rebelious, but cool person. i liked my passengers a lot. shout out to Justin the driver, who tuffed it out, Dean who was a really cool and chillax person, and Stephanie who kept Jerome on check wen he got to crzy for everyone. lol. i also played a lotta cards, learned new card games, and i played some poker, and i also managed to learn how to shuffle a stack of real clay poker chips. It was also the last event for Hyemi because she is going back to Korea so we surprised her on the last nite of Mamoth with cookies and a candle and cider. so i guess... reflecting back on it all, i had a great time, but i just wish i spent less money. lol but other than that. Skyrie was great, and i really do love all the ppl. in kyrie. it was great. = D
5. so today was a very productive day. i liked it a lot cuz i went with Val to go to the Spectrum and did some xmas shopping. im glad i got a few presents here and there. it felt good cuz i got to hang out iwth my roomie, i listened to her problems and we got to talk a bit. i knocked out some ppl. frm my xmas list, and i bought a new blazer at Urban Outfitters for only 10 bux dude!!! 10 bux! it was a total steal man. i was sooo excited and happy. i really didn't plan on buying anything for myself, only for other ppl. but serioulsy. i coudlnt' let that type of deal pass me by. i'd b crzy to let something like that pass me up. so that was totally cool.
6. what im looking forward to is buying the rest of my xmas goods for the rest of my fam and going shopping with my best friend tomorrow. and possibly meeting up with the Platon's. i really can't wait for some good quality fam. time. i miss my fam bam. and it was swt that they called and txted me today to see how i was doing during my skyrie trip. i can't wait to giv the presents i bought for ppl. im really excited for that. and i can't wait to eat my mom's homecooked meals. they're sooo bomb. i want some kare-kare (one of my mom's speciality) and some brocolli caserrole. daym that's some good stuff. i also am excited for new years. it'll be really fun banging pots and pans around the house. i'll describe more about that later in another blog. sry guys, im hella tired rite now. this was a long blog. lol
good nite everyone. you're all in my prayers.
end time 3:00am
Current Quote of the Day: "I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."
---Thomas Edison
- chain reaction
- after party
- quality time with the Platon's :-D
- Skyrie
- xmas shopping tomorrow and today
- what im looking forward to for the break.
1. So chain reaction was hella tite man. i luved it. sooo much fun. Steve Forton hosted the event and bought tix in advance. The great thing about Mr. Forton is that he's a do-er. he doens't wait around for something to happen, he makes it happen. and i wish i could do that. he knows how to bring ppl. together, plan fun events, and how to have a good time (responsibly of course lol) so he set up the whole chain reaction event in anaheim. it was really cool. Charlene, Charmaine, Mark Sescon, Jerrick, Steve, one of Steve's friends, and I all went.
we saw 3 bands. The Morning of, Danger Radio, and My American Heart. (each band went after the other in that order) Each band had their own strengths that i liked. i felt like the Morning of would had great variation in each of their songs so that not every sone they played all sounded similar or the same. it also has a girl and guy singer, which sounds really nice. altho they didn't bring much crowd energy nor did the Girl vocalist sing loud enuf. (maybe her mic volume was too low?)
Danger Radio was pretty solid all around. they kinda remind of of a cross between Maroon 5 and Hello Goodbye. they're pretty legit. charlene and Charmaine bought their cd and i like their style. i kinda felt like thier songs started sounding all every similar after a while, but they still produce good music. esp. their acoustic stuff. i'll post one of their songs in my next blog of sumtin.
and My American Heart had filipinos in their band. like... real talented filipinos! rofl jk. but yeah. they definitely brought in most of the crowd energy and ppl. got crzy with the moshing and crowd surfing. i wanted to get in the moshing, but i had my glasses on and i was somewhat concerned about Charlene and Charmaine with the ppl. around us moshing it up. i didn't wanna see them squashed like pancakes at the end of the nite. lol
and on another note about moshing... i kinda felt like what they were doing was hella stupid. like... i mean what steve and the rest of the crowd was moshing up and down was acceptable and cool cuz htey were just jumping up and down with the pushing here and there. but some guys next to us and charlene and charmaine was like... extreme moshing in a crzy deranged manner that just kinda made him look stupid. it was like... kicking around and elbowing the air in a wanna be punk manner. it could really hurt someone by doin that. and whats the point? just so u can look cool cuz ur too into the moment of the song? it was like... really dumb in my opinion. it looked like they were fighting with the invisible person next to them or like... they were trying to elbow thier own face or sumtin. iono man, it was pretty dumb in my opinion. but yeah. all in all Charin reaction was an excellent nite.
2. so the afterparty of Charin reaction was tite. Mark had to go meet up with the other older LOG ppl. to go drink it up. and charlene, Charmaine, and i exchanged presents with Steve. so that was pretty cool. so then the Platon's and i hit up a party that was walking distance frm their place. it was a lotta fun. we got to meet and socialize with a lotta cool ppl. it's always great to meet new facebook frenz ya know? lol we met this guy who was really good at beer pong, this one guy that cud take any punch in the stomache cuz the mofo had some crzy hard abs. it was kinda scary lol. and we met this one guy frm USC who was half Inidian and half Filipino. he was super cool. and just a heads up. the Platon's are redickulous wen it comes to beer pong. it was like their first time playing, and they totally dominated. it was scary. on thier second match, they were down like... 8 cups and they totaly came bak and won. so im telling u guys, watch out for them.
now we stayed up till four am that nite. it was kinda scary cuz there was a security guard that kept on threatening to call the cops on the house party. lol. and someguy had too much to drink and he puked. and there was connect four and i owned charlene. (lol sry, i had to brag about that : P) but the best part of that night was seeing the Platon's buzzed. ROFL. sooo much fun just watching them man. Charmaine was like... a giggly drunk on helium. she kept on talking like a 7 year old. it was sooo funny! omb. and like... she would laff at everything and anything. lol. she just wouldnt' stop giggling. and she was a bit off balance. as for Charlene, she was like... doin kartwheels in the parking structure. and then i had a few drinks so i felt like dancing and getting hyphy and Charlene tried to get hyphy with me! and charmaine was just ROFL. daym man.... those were good times. we were hella loud too. i got kinda worried that some of the neighbors would wake up cuz charmaine woulnd't stop giggling. lol. we tried watching a movie afterwards but we failed miserably cuz it was hella late. lol
3. but spending some good quality time with the Platons was just a great way to start my winter break. seriously... i had just finished my last 2 finals on friday, and i went over their pad and just kiked it and hung out with them till saturday. it was soo much fun just hanging out and chilling with them. Good time and good memories. cheers. i felt like my finals went okay. i did well in my ESS1 final. i thought i did deccent in my soc 2 final. and my ESS7 class had a final a bit more difficult than the midterm. and my soc 63 final was easier cuz i studied more for it and i just felt like it was easier than the mditerm in which i scored poorly on.
4. After my mini side-quest (yes, i know im nerdy) with the Platon's i went off to Skyrie. i went to mammoth with Kyrie. it was really fun. lots of bonding and fellowship. not very much God or reflection time, but at least i got to grow closer with this Kyrie group and learn more about the ppl. within the group. that part was really cool. i felt like many of the things i did could have been done here at socal, but it's all good. I'm not too sure if i got my money's worth is all. we had cramped sleeping areas. the drive up was uncomfortable cuz of a packed car. since i didnt' snowboard, we just watched movies, ate, ate out, took pictures, played in the snow a bit. i was kinda scared at some times cuz the weather was pretty extreme man. i think i have very poor blood circulation to my feet, cuz my feet got cold very easily, even with 3 layers of socks. i think it was cuz i was wearing regular sneakers and water got in easily with the snowmelt and the cold relentless wind. there were other expenses that i din't take into acount like buying clothes for the weather, eating out, and other things. there was also the incident going back home...
the drive down was even worse than the ride up. we were suppose to come home wednesday afternoon or night. we drive about 2 hrs and were forced to stop at a burger king due to weather conditions. the snow wouldn't stop falling. from what we hear, the freeways home are all closed down due to the weather. from what i heard, this was the first time in 15years that it snowd in that area. so ppl. were not prepared for the weather and the police couldn't do much. the burgerking we were at (that was suppose to be 24 hrs) closed on us around 6 due to the weather conditions. we were forced to move to a neighboring restaurant called "the roadhouse diner and restaurant" or something like that. we were only suppose to be at burger king for an hour until the snow plow came, but it never did come. we switched over to the 24hr restarant hoping it wouldn't close on us. we just played more cards to pass the time. we stayed at the same spot for about 6-8 hours not making any progress going home. we realized that we were gonna spend the nite. around 3 am someone said that the freeways were open again cuz the snow had stopped falling. we continue to drive out. about less than an hour later, we are stuck in traffic, the freeways are closed and none of the cars are moving. we were forced to sleep in the cold in the middle of the freeway in a packed 5 seated car. i sat int he back right that night. it was soo hard to sleep. i went outside to stretch my legs and i switched spots with my friend cuz he said it was hard to sleep in the middle seat. when i went outside to stretch my legs, the whole freeway was covered in ice and i sliped and got a bruise. so i sat there sandwhiched between Jerome, who is a 6foot3 inch korean guy with long legs, and dean, a semi-buff guy. i was cramped and uncomfortable and had a hard time sleeping. it suxed. the funny part. the skinniest guy int he car was the driver, and jerome's girlfirend (who was skinny too) took shotgun, so i was pretty much stuck there in the middle of a cold freeway not going anywhere. i didn't get home till the next day in the afternoon.
people got cranky too (which was natural in times of adversity) and it was just hard overall. i mean... i did my best to be optimistic and happy, but when ppl. around u are negative, it's really tuff.
but lookin on the bright side of things. i feel like i really did get closer to ppl. i learned sooo much about the korean culture and i learned a few korean words. hahah. so that was coool. i got to talk to ppl. in kyrie more. those who i wouldnt' normally talk to and those who i got to know on a better level. i ate some good food in mammoth(at the expense of my wallet of course) see snowfall and make snow angel for the first time in my life. I really made some good memories this past few days. I made some new friends and i realized a different side of ppl. i never really saw before. Jerome was really funny. i was kinda glad that i rode in that car tho, cuz he was just really funny thruout the whole ride and he's just great entertainment and a really rebelious, but cool person. i liked my passengers a lot. shout out to Justin the driver, who tuffed it out, Dean who was a really cool and chillax person, and Stephanie who kept Jerome on check wen he got to crzy for everyone. lol. i also played a lotta cards, learned new card games, and i played some poker, and i also managed to learn how to shuffle a stack of real clay poker chips. It was also the last event for Hyemi because she is going back to Korea so we surprised her on the last nite of Mamoth with cookies and a candle and cider. so i guess... reflecting back on it all, i had a great time, but i just wish i spent less money. lol but other than that. Skyrie was great, and i really do love all the ppl. in kyrie. it was great. = D
5. so today was a very productive day. i liked it a lot cuz i went with Val to go to the Spectrum and did some xmas shopping. im glad i got a few presents here and there. it felt good cuz i got to hang out iwth my roomie, i listened to her problems and we got to talk a bit. i knocked out some ppl. frm my xmas list, and i bought a new blazer at Urban Outfitters for only 10 bux dude!!! 10 bux! it was a total steal man. i was sooo excited and happy. i really didn't plan on buying anything for myself, only for other ppl. but serioulsy. i coudlnt' let that type of deal pass me by. i'd b crzy to let something like that pass me up. so that was totally cool.
6. what im looking forward to is buying the rest of my xmas goods for the rest of my fam and going shopping with my best friend tomorrow. and possibly meeting up with the Platon's. i really can't wait for some good quality fam. time. i miss my fam bam. and it was swt that they called and txted me today to see how i was doing during my skyrie trip. i can't wait to giv the presents i bought for ppl. im really excited for that. and i can't wait to eat my mom's homecooked meals. they're sooo bomb. i want some kare-kare (one of my mom's speciality) and some brocolli caserrole. daym that's some good stuff. i also am excited for new years. it'll be really fun banging pots and pans around the house. i'll describe more about that later in another blog. sry guys, im hella tired rite now. this was a long blog. lol
good nite everyone. you're all in my prayers.
end time 3:00am
Sunday, December 14, 2008
a post that will be cont at a later date...
Surrent Song: "Slow Dance with a Stranger" ---Danger Radio
Current Quote of the Day:
"At a certain age you're always uncertain how other people will take you."
---Al Purdy
daym man... i saw these foos live. and they were sick dude. they're pretty tite. some of their songs reminds me of old skool Maroon 5 but better (in my opinion of course)
so... i gotta wake up hella early tomorrow so i can go to skyrie. so that kinda sux. i don't hav much time to write cuz i shud really b sleeping rite now. lol. but im kinda full cuz i just ate some mexican food.
i have some things to write about cuz since my winter break just started. things seem like it's gonna be a lotta fun.
i was just talking with Kirst and how the start of my break started off with a BANG. here's wut i needa blog about wen i get bak on Wednesday from skyrie.
alrite then, i'll post more later. hope everyone enjoy's their break and is safe traveling this weekend. Please pray for the safety of our Kyrie group that's going to be driving tomorrow. please keep us in ur prayers k? thx guys! : )
end time: 1:40 am
Current Quote of the Day:
"At a certain age you're always uncertain how other people will take you."
---Al Purdy
daym man... i saw these foos live. and they were sick dude. they're pretty tite. some of their songs reminds me of old skool Maroon 5 but better (in my opinion of course)
so... i gotta wake up hella early tomorrow so i can go to skyrie. so that kinda sux. i don't hav much time to write cuz i shud really b sleeping rite now. lol. but im kinda full cuz i just ate some mexican food.
i have some things to write about cuz since my winter break just started. things seem like it's gonna be a lotta fun.
i was just talking with Kirst and how the start of my break started off with a BANG. here's wut i needa blog about wen i get bak on Wednesday from skyrie.
- chain reaction
- after party
- quality time with the Platon's :-D
- Skyrie
- what im looking forward to for the break.
alrite then, i'll post more later. hope everyone enjoy's their break and is safe traveling this weekend. Please pray for the safety of our Kyrie group that's going to be driving tomorrow. please keep us in ur prayers k? thx guys! : )
end time: 1:40 am
Friday, December 12, 2008
i missed blogspot!
Current song: "Leave Out all the rest" by Linkin Park
Current Quote of the day: "You can't depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus." ---Mark Twain
dang man... i feel like it's been forever since i last blogged. i really did miss blogspot, facebook, and aim. i disciplined myself not to sign on either of them for finals week.
I hated the fact that i had finals all the way till friday. but i guess it's karma cuz i had all late start classes this quarter. my earliest class was at ten a.m. and i somehow still missed those discussion sections... lol. What can i say? i luv my sleep. haha
Um... i had so much to write in my blog to catch everyone up but i either forgot or im feeling really lazy rite now... sry guys. i semi hav a headache, i didn't have enuf sleep last nite cuz i had an 8 am final. daym im tired. lol. but i got a concert to head to tonite. Chain Reaction in Anaheim. and prolly hit up a party with some frenz and my siblings.
i think my finals went okay. my first two finals i felt like i did well on, my thrid final was much harder than the midterm. and my last final went alrite. i still needa go christmas shopping. anyone down to go with me? i needa couple of more stuff to get. : )
alrite, i think im dun. later guys!
end time: 4:57
Current Quote of the day: "You can't depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus." ---Mark Twain
dang man... i feel like it's been forever since i last blogged. i really did miss blogspot, facebook, and aim. i disciplined myself not to sign on either of them for finals week.
I hated the fact that i had finals all the way till friday. but i guess it's karma cuz i had all late start classes this quarter. my earliest class was at ten a.m. and i somehow still missed those discussion sections... lol. What can i say? i luv my sleep. haha
Um... i had so much to write in my blog to catch everyone up but i either forgot or im feeling really lazy rite now... sry guys. i semi hav a headache, i didn't have enuf sleep last nite cuz i had an 8 am final. daym im tired. lol. but i got a concert to head to tonite. Chain Reaction in Anaheim. and prolly hit up a party with some frenz and my siblings.
i think my finals went okay. my first two finals i felt like i did well on, my thrid final was much harder than the midterm. and my last final went alrite. i still needa go christmas shopping. anyone down to go with me? i needa couple of more stuff to get. : )
alrite, i think im dun. later guys!
end time: 4:57
Sunday, November 30, 2008
an interesting day...
Current Song playing: "Love Lock Down" by Kanye West
Current Quote of the day: "Is the juice worth the squeeze?"
So today, i woke up hella late, which was nice, and Charlene always is always nagging me about "getting a life" and "waking up earlier" and etc. but hey man! i luv to sleep! lol.
Later in the day, i visited the Platon residence (Charlene and Charmaine's house) in Diamond Bar today, their house is ginormous man. It's like... 3/4 times bigger than my backyard and their house is super nice. (What else would u expect from D-bar rite? lol rich ass houses)
But Charlene and Charmaine's backyard disgusted me! ewww! so i walk to the backyard without my shoes cuz i took them off wen i entered the door. i took a few steps and i stepped into a small puddle, it was a perfectly sunny day! and im like... why is there a small puddle of water here? *i peer over and notice a small yellow stain below my feet on my right foot* (gross huh?) i hate wet socks lol. i just hate the feeling. so after inspecting the yard and making sure i dont' walk ont he grass, only the cemented part of their backyard, i notice i keep stepping on this very tiny pebble while i was talking with them. annoyed after stepping on it for the fourth time, i pick up this spherical object about 1/3 of the size of a penny with my hand and toss it in the grass. Charmaine: "ew! no aCe! don't touch that!" Charlene: "it could be poop!" I'm like... wut? i touch my nose and sniff my fingers in disbelief, and my fingers didn't smell like anything.(thankfuly they didn't smell like poop) but they explained that they have wild rabbits in their backyard and they poop all over the place, i quickly glanced at the surrounding floor and realize all these small black circular pellets all over the ground. a shiver of disgust went down my spine. i quickly ran to their faucet and washed my hands. pretty gross huh?
you would think Charmaine or Charlene would warn me about their backyard, or tell me to put on shoes BEFORE! i entered their backyard they themselves knowing that there is rabbit poop in all up in their backyard. rofl. i touched my nose rite after too! argh! Why!!!!! ROFL.
N E wayz....i got to see their backyard, and a lil bit of their house, their COCKatoo's yes, their cute lil pet bird cockatoos. (or at least i think they are cockatoos) They're hella cute, except that they bite, and i wasn't ballsy enuf to try to pet/hold them. (yeah, i know, i needa Man up rite? haha) And Charmaine was playing the piano and doing all these kool things on the piano, and she busted out Simple and Clean frm Kingdom hearts, and then i was like oh snapz! and then we practically had a concert goin in their house. mad skillz man. and then Charlene shoved Charmaine outta the way and started playing Aplogize by Juan(One) Republic. lol But the highlight of my visit was seeing Charmaine and Charlene's baby pics and when they were younger, they had pics of them hangin on their wall and stuff. they looked soooo cute! (makes you wonder what happened to them now rite? ROFL soooo just kidding lol. total joke. kay? haha) but it was really cool, seeing them in the past, and now. hahaha. i won't describe the pics cuz i feel like i might embarass them, but it was really cool visiting them. they got really cool haircuts too! it suits them well and it looks really great!
So i played rockband with my kuya once i got home, and then we went out to further celebrate my Kuya's birthday, we ate at Salo-Salo in Cerritos, went to Babies R us after (we have our reasons for visiting there... lol) and then instead of my kuya going to a strip club or bowling like we planned, we went to go watch Bolt with some Ben and Jerry's/starbux. it was really kool movie. i expected it to be more funny, but all in all, it had a really great storyline and it was entertaining to watch, but i feel like it's one of those movies that after you watch it once, and try to watch it again, it greatly looses it's appeal and significance. hahaha. iono if i'd be down to watch that movie again. (maybe in a couple of years frm now wen i don't remember wut happens lol) But yeah man. my kuya's 27 on Wednesday and we cont. to party it up till today. it was a great day/ birthday week for my fam. and esp for my kuya.
My black friday was really cool. I somehow managed to control myself and not but anything for me and instead, i got some early christmas shopping done. so that was really cool! it feels good to get stuff like that outta the way. = ) the next part is just getting presents for my Fam. that's always the hard part. esp. shopping for my Parents. sooo HARD. (that's what she said. *wink* rofl ) but yeah man... xmas shopping cud be considered one of the most tedious things to do, but in the end. it's all worth it. i was just talking to Charlene about shopping for girls and how hard it is. lol I'm glad i have my Ate's and cool home gurls to go shopping with so that way, they can give me good advice, and where to start to look for stuff. for example. on black friday, i was like... hey ate, where wud u find ____ and ____ in this store? (we're and jc penny, a very big one with 2 stories in the local mall) "oh! that's in the accessories, it's over here!" *less than 2 min. later* "here u go!" is it my poor sense of direction or do i just sux at shopping? lol it's like, girls are natural at this kinda shit. lol.
I don't want my break to end yet... but it's time to face reality and hit the books. : /
well, i think that's all i have to write about. hope you are all doing well.
End time: 1:31 am
Current Quote of the day: "Is the juice worth the squeeze?"
So today, i woke up hella late, which was nice, and Charlene always is always nagging me about "getting a life" and "waking up earlier" and etc. but hey man! i luv to sleep! lol.
Later in the day, i visited the Platon residence (Charlene and Charmaine's house) in Diamond Bar today, their house is ginormous man. It's like... 3/4 times bigger than my backyard and their house is super nice. (What else would u expect from D-bar rite? lol rich ass houses)
But Charlene and Charmaine's backyard disgusted me! ewww! so i walk to the backyard without my shoes cuz i took them off wen i entered the door. i took a few steps and i stepped into a small puddle, it was a perfectly sunny day! and im like... why is there a small puddle of water here? *i peer over and notice a small yellow stain below my feet on my right foot* (gross huh?) i hate wet socks lol. i just hate the feeling. so after inspecting the yard and making sure i dont' walk ont he grass, only the cemented part of their backyard, i notice i keep stepping on this very tiny pebble while i was talking with them. annoyed after stepping on it for the fourth time, i pick up this spherical object about 1/3 of the size of a penny with my hand and toss it in the grass. Charmaine: "ew! no aCe! don't touch that!" Charlene: "it could be poop!" I'm like... wut? i touch my nose and sniff my fingers in disbelief, and my fingers didn't smell like anything.(thankfuly they didn't smell like poop) but they explained that they have wild rabbits in their backyard and they poop all over the place, i quickly glanced at the surrounding floor and realize all these small black circular pellets all over the ground. a shiver of disgust went down my spine. i quickly ran to their faucet and washed my hands. pretty gross huh?
you would think Charmaine or Charlene would warn me about their backyard, or tell me to put on shoes BEFORE! i entered their backyard they themselves knowing that there is rabbit poop in all up in their backyard. rofl. i touched my nose rite after too! argh! Why!!!!! ROFL.
N E wayz....i got to see their backyard, and a lil bit of their house, their COCKatoo's yes, their cute lil pet bird cockatoos. (or at least i think they are cockatoos) They're hella cute, except that they bite, and i wasn't ballsy enuf to try to pet/hold them. (yeah, i know, i needa Man up rite? haha) And Charmaine was playing the piano and doing all these kool things on the piano, and she busted out Simple and Clean frm Kingdom hearts, and then i was like oh snapz! and then we practically had a concert goin in their house. mad skillz man. and then Charlene shoved Charmaine outta the way and started playing Aplogize by Juan(One) Republic. lol But the highlight of my visit was seeing Charmaine and Charlene's baby pics and when they were younger, they had pics of them hangin on their wall and stuff. they looked soooo cute! (makes you wonder what happened to them now rite? ROFL soooo just kidding lol. total joke. kay? haha) but it was really cool, seeing them in the past, and now. hahaha. i won't describe the pics cuz i feel like i might embarass them, but it was really cool visiting them. they got really cool haircuts too! it suits them well and it looks really great!
So i played rockband with my kuya once i got home, and then we went out to further celebrate my Kuya's birthday, we ate at Salo-Salo in Cerritos, went to Babies R us after (we have our reasons for visiting there... lol) and then instead of my kuya going to a strip club or bowling like we planned, we went to go watch Bolt with some Ben and Jerry's/starbux. it was really kool movie. i expected it to be more funny, but all in all, it had a really great storyline and it was entertaining to watch, but i feel like it's one of those movies that after you watch it once, and try to watch it again, it greatly looses it's appeal and significance. hahaha. iono if i'd be down to watch that movie again. (maybe in a couple of years frm now wen i don't remember wut happens lol) But yeah man. my kuya's 27 on Wednesday and we cont. to party it up till today. it was a great day/ birthday week for my fam. and esp for my kuya.
My black friday was really cool. I somehow managed to control myself and not but anything for me and instead, i got some early christmas shopping done. so that was really cool! it feels good to get stuff like that outta the way. = ) the next part is just getting presents for my Fam. that's always the hard part. esp. shopping for my Parents. sooo HARD. (that's what she said. *wink* rofl ) but yeah man... xmas shopping cud be considered one of the most tedious things to do, but in the end. it's all worth it. i was just talking to Charlene about shopping for girls and how hard it is. lol I'm glad i have my Ate's and cool home gurls to go shopping with so that way, they can give me good advice, and where to start to look for stuff. for example. on black friday, i was like... hey ate, where wud u find ____ and ____ in this store? (we're and jc penny, a very big one with 2 stories in the local mall) "oh! that's in the accessories, it's over here!" *less than 2 min. later* "here u go!" is it my poor sense of direction or do i just sux at shopping? lol it's like, girls are natural at this kinda shit. lol.
I don't want my break to end yet... but it's time to face reality and hit the books. : /
well, i think that's all i have to write about. hope you are all doing well.
End time: 1:31 am
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
thinking impulsively or stupidly?
Current Song: "We Match" by Gabe Bundoc
Current Quote : "i saw it coming, but not this soon..."
i sometimes wonder if im slacking off too much on my hw. i feel like i've been prioritizing socializing over schoolwork, but for some reason, im not as nervous as i normally would be. is that a sign that i shouldn't worry too much about me socializing? am i still balancing my time well with school and friends? How do i tell? i guess i'll find out when i see my end of the quarter grades... haha. i beleive in myself, but i jsut gotta make sure i don't get hella cocky and fail stuff. I'm not too sure what to think anymore. hehe.
i learned a new LOG tradition today from the GREAT DUMO, lol. it's called cressent bay. and charlene and i and Dumo took a stroll around the area of newport and checked out the outside of a museum and ate at panera bread. today was a great day with no hw accomplished. haha the normal aCe last year would probably b trippin out and hella nervous, but i want to escape frm that anxiety of being bound to my studies so much, but at the same time, i don't want to stop socializing and all at the same time, i dont' want my grades to slip. took much to ask? am i being greedy? hehe. well, we'll see what happens.
i got my window open for classes in about 7 hrs from now (8:15 to be precise) and i really hope i get the classes i want. hehe. i got really annoyed last year for my crappy pick in classes and was forced to be a late person for signing up for classes. i guess i didn't have enuf units under my belt, but now that i got an additional 8 units on me from summer school, i hope that did something with my registration day. hehe.
i daydreamed/felt like kissing you on the cheek today... weird huh? i'm not normally the one to be so brash and act upon such impulsive desires, but a part of me didn't really care if there were others around of watching. i ended up restraining myself, and not doing so nor trying to do so, but the point is that I'm not normally like this. It's kinda weird how im feeling rite now. would u call it, being stuck in an awk position? i wonder if i woulda got slapped in the face for kissing u on the cheek or trying to do so. Could i have thought/felt like doing this act because i thought u looked really cute today? or maybe because u are just a friend that i hardly know, and would like to learn more? Maybe you are just a friend that i want to show that i care for? or maybe it's because u intrigue me and perk my interest? or maybe it's just the fact that i actually have developed something more for u? lol. what really is it aCe?(maybe it's the question i bolded. lol) i don't really know. hahaa. interesting huh? i don't really know wut my heart is telling me. Am i just feeling stupid things? do i like this feeling? hard to answer that Q. i kinda do i guess. hehe.
enuf talk, im done for the nite, hope i get the classes tomorrow, and i hope i get better, and i hope that ppl. don't get sick frm me. i wish my kuya sonny a happy birthday. :-) Shout out to mr. Steve Forton for setting up another great comedy Improv nite. Thx to Ronneza Penalba for helping me out wiht finding my laptop and puttin it in nancy's black cabinet. thx a lot. and to all the alums who came downt this weekend and for your safety for the drive back home. it was great seeing all of you and spending time with everyone. u all make me smile. i hope everyone is doin well with all the rain, maybe it'll help with the forrest fires and such. alrite, i think ima go check other's blogs.
good nite all.
end time: 1:31am
Current Quote : "i saw it coming, but not this soon..."
i sometimes wonder if im slacking off too much on my hw. i feel like i've been prioritizing socializing over schoolwork, but for some reason, im not as nervous as i normally would be. is that a sign that i shouldn't worry too much about me socializing? am i still balancing my time well with school and friends? How do i tell? i guess i'll find out when i see my end of the quarter grades... haha. i beleive in myself, but i jsut gotta make sure i don't get hella cocky and fail stuff. I'm not too sure what to think anymore. hehe.
i learned a new LOG tradition today from the GREAT DUMO, lol. it's called cressent bay. and charlene and i and Dumo took a stroll around the area of newport and checked out the outside of a museum and ate at panera bread. today was a great day with no hw accomplished. haha the normal aCe last year would probably b trippin out and hella nervous, but i want to escape frm that anxiety of being bound to my studies so much, but at the same time, i don't want to stop socializing and all at the same time, i dont' want my grades to slip. took much to ask? am i being greedy? hehe. well, we'll see what happens.
i got my window open for classes in about 7 hrs from now (8:15 to be precise) and i really hope i get the classes i want. hehe. i got really annoyed last year for my crappy pick in classes and was forced to be a late person for signing up for classes. i guess i didn't have enuf units under my belt, but now that i got an additional 8 units on me from summer school, i hope that did something with my registration day. hehe.
i daydreamed/felt like kissing you on the cheek today... weird huh? i'm not normally the one to be so brash and act upon such impulsive desires, but a part of me didn't really care if there were others around of watching. i ended up restraining myself, and not doing so nor trying to do so, but the point is that I'm not normally like this. It's kinda weird how im feeling rite now. would u call it, being stuck in an awk position? i wonder if i woulda got slapped in the face for kissing u on the cheek or trying to do so. Could i have thought/felt like doing this act because i thought u looked really cute today? or maybe because u are just a friend that i hardly know, and would like to learn more? Maybe you are just a friend that i want to show that i care for? or maybe it's because u intrigue me and perk my interest? or maybe it's just the fact that i actually have developed something more for u? lol. what really is it aCe?(maybe it's the question i bolded. lol) i don't really know. hahaa. interesting huh? i don't really know wut my heart is telling me. Am i just feeling stupid things? do i like this feeling? hard to answer that Q. i kinda do i guess. hehe.
enuf talk, im done for the nite, hope i get the classes tomorrow, and i hope i get better, and i hope that ppl. don't get sick frm me. i wish my kuya sonny a happy birthday. :-) Shout out to mr. Steve Forton for setting up another great comedy Improv nite. Thx to Ronneza Penalba for helping me out wiht finding my laptop and puttin it in nancy's black cabinet. thx a lot. and to all the alums who came downt this weekend and for your safety for the drive back home. it was great seeing all of you and spending time with everyone. u all make me smile. i hope everyone is doin well with all the rain, maybe it'll help with the forrest fires and such. alrite, i think ima go check other's blogs.
good nite all.
end time: 1:31am
Monday, November 24, 2008
lazy blog
daym, i got so much to write about, such a great weekend, but im feeling hella lazy. sry guys. lol i know, im coppin out once again, but hey! i did a shizz load on my previous blog. so don't complain. Lol. well, here it goes.
current song playing: "Breathing" by Yellowcard
Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold
And even though you're next to me I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything for you to call your own
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a weight
Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you but it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of they have filled me up with doubt
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?My heart's sinking like a weight
I can feel you breathing (your breathing)It's keeping (keeping) me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating (its beating)
Sinking (sinking) like a weight
How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done?I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you things will never be the same
The only love I ever knew I threw it all away
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?My heart's sinking like a weight
I can feel you breathing (your breathing)It's keeping (keeping) me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating (its beating)Sinking (sinking) like a weight
i bolded the lines with what i felt like stood out to me and it somewhat mirrored what i was feeling, but the other lines don't really mean much to me. lol. i know, i pick and choose what i like, not a good habit. haha. but anyways. yeah, don't analyze this too much if u do analyze this. it's not meant to be very deep anyway.
alrite, im tired. but all in all, i had an awesome weekend. Kyrie V-ball tounament, kyrie fam. hang out tomorrow, Benecon!, Shawshank hangout, Platon Residence, and the good times with the LOG alum. (and once again, it was all a joke with the can and LOG stole. lolz Truth or Dare at teh Platon residence was Redick! but sooooo much fun, probably the highlight and one of the most memorable thing this month. :-D Im not sure if some of the things i said in truth will have a lasting effect on ppl. and i hope i didn't offend ppl. cuz i do feel guilty, but i hope that u know that i care, even tho i can be inconsiderate sometimes, u know how u just wish u could have said things in a better light? iono, i think im just confusing ppl. even more. haha anyways. it was a great weekend. g'nite everbody!
---aCe
end time 1:12 am
current song playing: "Breathing" by Yellowcard
Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold
And even though you're next to me I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything for you to call your own
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a weight
Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you but it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of they have filled me up with doubt
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?My heart's sinking like a weight
I can feel you breathing (your breathing)It's keeping (keeping) me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating (its beating)
Sinking (sinking) like a weight
How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done?I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you things will never be the same
The only love I ever knew I threw it all away
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?My heart's sinking like a weight
I can feel you breathing (your breathing)It's keeping (keeping) me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating (its beating)Sinking (sinking) like a weight
i bolded the lines with what i felt like stood out to me and it somewhat mirrored what i was feeling, but the other lines don't really mean much to me. lol. i know, i pick and choose what i like, not a good habit. haha. but anyways. yeah, don't analyze this too much if u do analyze this. it's not meant to be very deep anyway.
alrite, im tired. but all in all, i had an awesome weekend. Kyrie V-ball tounament, kyrie fam. hang out tomorrow, Benecon!, Shawshank hangout, Platon Residence, and the good times with the LOG alum. (and once again, it was all a joke with the can and LOG stole. lolz Truth or Dare at teh Platon residence was Redick! but sooooo much fun, probably the highlight and one of the most memorable thing this month. :-D Im not sure if some of the things i said in truth will have a lasting effect on ppl. and i hope i didn't offend ppl. cuz i do feel guilty, but i hope that u know that i care, even tho i can be inconsiderate sometimes, u know how u just wish u could have said things in a better light? iono, i think im just confusing ppl. even more. haha anyways. it was a great weekend. g'nite everbody!
---aCe
end time 1:12 am
Friday, November 21, 2008
Another Long blog
Current Song playing: "My First Love" by Passion (Accoustic)
Current Quote of the blog: "You can't depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus." ---Mark Twain
yo guys, this is what i hav to write, check the list out. haha. i guess it's been a few days that i've last blogged, so i thought i'd catch you all up with everything.
1. Benecon is gonna be really tite dude... at first, i was a bit nervous, but now, im sooo totally pumped, i can see it really coming together and everyone is just gonna rock! we're gonna praise God tomorrow for sure. I really hope that one or more of my family members are able to see me and come out to Benecon. i kinda wanted them to come to Spirit Rally last year when i did my talk, but it's all good, they were busy and had their own thing to do. does anybody have that on rec. btw? i never told my family about that talk, and i just want to show them the talk i did and i would think they would want to know what happened. but then again, i wouldnt' want to worry them, maybe that's why i haven't told my siblings about my talk and what i talked about. haha. did i confuse u? sry guys. lol
But yeah, working with Janice has been really fun and she's such a great coMC to work with. woot! i just know that this Benecon is gonna be great, and it's a really great chance to praise Him with our open hearts and minds. hehe and i plus, i can't wait to see all the alums and stuff. and Brentz is gonna be sleeping over at my pad. and if all goes well, brentz and i will bet to sleep over charlene and Charmaine's place with Dumo. DOUBLE PRIZES! haha. n e way. yep. NORMS too. im excited and hungry just thinking about it. and i wanna see the look on DUMO's face. don't worry DUMO, u'll find out soon enuf. Muwahahaha! LOL
2. so, i know this might sound crzy, but i really want your honest opinion. just tell me bluntly what you think, i'd appreciate the feedback from anyone that knows me. haha. I've considered a facial piercing before. and i want to know wut u guys think. i've heard many different stuff about me getting a facial piercing.
I would want it on my left eyebrow. i want it off center, but closer to my ear, not my nose bridge. kinda like this pic here. http://www.nuclearcrayon.com/images/eyebrow.jpg
so tell me what you think, should i get it or not? would i even look good with it? can i rock it? i already know wut my siblings said about it. hehe
im not sure what my motivation is for such a thing. but i guess i just wanna do something cool and adventurous while im young, kind of like something that represents my youth, wen i was young and "in my prime" so to speak of my college years. cuz realistically, when ima start working and hitting up the business world, i can't have somethign like that, so i wud just want to be able to look bak and be like, man, i used to have that piercing there. haha. iono, maybe im being too simplistic and thinking too ideally (which i generally do in my daydreams and aspirations)
so feedback plz! i wanna know wut u think. kay? ur opinion is important to me. whoever u are. if you can take the time and are willing to read this blog, it prolly means that u are important to me and i would value ur opinion.
3. So... do you guys have a lotta time to kill rite now? (obviously, u would have time on ur hands cuz ur reading my long ass blog. lol) i was kikin' it with my awesome roomate Val. she's so dope, we baked cookies and dino cookies the other nite, and then she showed me one of the coolest vids i've ever seen on youtube. you gotta check it out; if you're really into the hip hop scence or even interested in cool dancing, check this out....(i put the vids in order for you and everything!)
THE BIGGEST ONLINE DANCE BATTLE EVER!!! It's about dance battles and stuff, but it's big time no holds bar, and on a macro level. get the big picture. haha check it out kay?
4. Shout out to Ronneza Penalba for making me Adobo the other day, it was bomb, and she used her mom's secret ingredient that she told me. i really appreciate it Ronneza! woot. i at some of it for dinner today. hehe
5. so today, before i went to my soc 63 class with O'Connell (race and ethnicity) i got to eat out with Steve (oh yeah, that's rite ladies, don't get jealous... lol) but yea, we ate at Taco Bell (good call steve! a meal under 3 bux! woot, i was full too! haha) and it was some good food, we got to catch up a lil bit even tho it wasn't a full hang out. but i will see him tomorrow, so im excited for that. hopefully we can get to hang out soon.
6. i saw Charmaine take off her contacts today, and somehow, the convo topic was switched to "what if you put on someone elses contacts, would you feel gross?" lol knowing that someone else's eye juices are in you eye frm wearing someone elses contacts (just hypothetically assume that u had the same eye grade as the other persons, and you needed to see so you can drive or somehting. lol ) i got creeped out a bit wen i thought about having eye solution that came out of someone else's eyes and not mind and putting that into my eyes.
speaking of which, how do u think i'd look like with contacts? do u think i look better with glasses? i'm considering contacts as well, but im hella scared to touch my eye. lol
7. my saliva story. lol it's kinda gross. so i was telling Anna, Ray, and Bellamee(Bellamay) about what Janice and i had planned out, i guess i was speaking so fast and so excitedly, that i happend to spit on my laptop and i didn't even notice. lol and it was a huge! droplet of saliva. lolz. so i didnt' notice rite... and Anna didn' wanna say n e ting to embarass me. lol so as eventually typed on my lappy, i was like... dude, i feel something wet on my laptop, wut the hell is this? LOL and then they both told me wut happend and i felt hella embarassed. lol pretty gross eh? be careful wen i spit mad rhymes or else salaiva just might shoot ur face. lolz
8. LOL i like this story too. so i was paying for my Kyrie T-shirt rite... and i took out my wallet to pay Helen (the kyrie president this year) and as i pulled out of my wallet, there was a KFC hot sauce packet. and she was like... uh... that's hella random man. LOL "It's like one of those games that goes like, guess wuts in my pocket!" (just to explaing myself, wen i went to go eat at taco bell today, it was the joint taco bell and kfc and i got hotsauce frm there and i put one in my pocket cuz i didn't wanna throw it away. lol)
9. as i've said before, the fewest words can really make my day. the smallest things really count in life that we somtimes over look, and take for granted. today, i let charlene and charmaine use my laptop for a bit, even tho i had hw to do on my laptop, i let them use it anyway cuz i felt like my hw wasn't too important at the time. lol. so yeah...we socialized watched a few youtube vids and laffed for a while and stuff. Charmaine with her threats like "ima bust your butt ace!" and Charlene with her even scarier threats. "you know wut.... ima kill you man..." (no lie, they really said this rofl) and after they were done with my laptop and i stopped making them irritated and they stopped threatening me and left for the museum, i found a cute lil note on my laptop that they wrote.
"NOVEMBER 20, 2008
BETTAH WATCH YO' BACK.
JKAY.
SEE YOU IN CLASS TOMORROW. ALONG WITH YOU-KNOW-WHO.
YEAH.
THAT IS ALL.
BYE BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
-- Charlene
P.S. THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME USE YOUR COMPUTER REPEATEDLY.Your computer is hard to type with. :)---------------------------------------------------
THESE SHOES ARE MINEZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
-Charmaine"
haha cute huh? it was much apprciated. u see, it's kinda the small stuff that i really appreciate and enjoy life that just puts a smile on my face and makes me happy. :-)
10. OMB, i think i melted a bit today. hahaha so... i was saying my byes in Kyrie, i was leaving and stuff and i was in a great rush so i can talk to anna and let them know and help out with pre-benecon stuff. so i only said my goodbyes to the ppl. i was walking past and knew. and i skipped many ppl. just as i was about to leave the interfaith doors, i see this one girl (whom i happen to find very attractive...) say "oh! ur leaving? Bye ace! *she waved and smiled at me*" i smiled realy big and said bye, i felt like i kinda melted a lil bit there. *aCe bites knuckles to help control emtion he's feeling rite now*LOL. sry, i just had to write that part in my blog today. and there i s a major part that you are missing, ther is a major reason why i melted. it's the way she said it, ask me about it later why i melted. there's a reason why, i just won't melt that easily. lol :-P and for some of you, who think u know who im talking about, you are mistaken, it was someone else. i think the only person i told this story to was Anna Olivares so far. lol.
n e wayz. i think this blog entry has gone on long enuf. i guess it's time for some good nites rest, i'll need it for tomorrow's Benecon. hope to see you there!
End Time: 2:21 am
Current Quote of the blog: "You can't depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus." ---Mark Twain
yo guys, this is what i hav to write, check the list out. haha. i guess it's been a few days that i've last blogged, so i thought i'd catch you all up with everything.
- hella excited for benecon
- piercing
- dance battle on youtube
- Ronneza made adobo for me yest.
- got to hang out with steve today
- eye liquids switch in contacts
- saliva
- storyhot sauce in a pocket
- note left on lappy
- i think i melted today...
1. Benecon is gonna be really tite dude... at first, i was a bit nervous, but now, im sooo totally pumped, i can see it really coming together and everyone is just gonna rock! we're gonna praise God tomorrow for sure. I really hope that one or more of my family members are able to see me and come out to Benecon. i kinda wanted them to come to Spirit Rally last year when i did my talk, but it's all good, they were busy and had their own thing to do. does anybody have that on rec. btw? i never told my family about that talk, and i just want to show them the talk i did and i would think they would want to know what happened. but then again, i wouldnt' want to worry them, maybe that's why i haven't told my siblings about my talk and what i talked about. haha. did i confuse u? sry guys. lol
But yeah, working with Janice has been really fun and she's such a great coMC to work with. woot! i just know that this Benecon is gonna be great, and it's a really great chance to praise Him with our open hearts and minds. hehe and i plus, i can't wait to see all the alums and stuff. and Brentz is gonna be sleeping over at my pad. and if all goes well, brentz and i will bet to sleep over charlene and Charmaine's place with Dumo. DOUBLE PRIZES! haha. n e way. yep. NORMS too. im excited and hungry just thinking about it. and i wanna see the look on DUMO's face. don't worry DUMO, u'll find out soon enuf. Muwahahaha! LOL
2. so, i know this might sound crzy, but i really want your honest opinion. just tell me bluntly what you think, i'd appreciate the feedback from anyone that knows me. haha. I've considered a facial piercing before. and i want to know wut u guys think. i've heard many different stuff about me getting a facial piercing.
I would want it on my left eyebrow. i want it off center, but closer to my ear, not my nose bridge. kinda like this pic here. http://www.nuclearcrayon.com/images/eyebrow.jpg
so tell me what you think, should i get it or not? would i even look good with it? can i rock it? i already know wut my siblings said about it. hehe
im not sure what my motivation is for such a thing. but i guess i just wanna do something cool and adventurous while im young, kind of like something that represents my youth, wen i was young and "in my prime" so to speak of my college years. cuz realistically, when ima start working and hitting up the business world, i can't have somethign like that, so i wud just want to be able to look bak and be like, man, i used to have that piercing there. haha. iono, maybe im being too simplistic and thinking too ideally (which i generally do in my daydreams and aspirations)
so feedback plz! i wanna know wut u think. kay? ur opinion is important to me. whoever u are. if you can take the time and are willing to read this blog, it prolly means that u are important to me and i would value ur opinion.
3. So... do you guys have a lotta time to kill rite now? (obviously, u would have time on ur hands cuz ur reading my long ass blog. lol) i was kikin' it with my awesome roomate Val. she's so dope, we baked cookies and dino cookies the other nite, and then she showed me one of the coolest vids i've ever seen on youtube. you gotta check it out; if you're really into the hip hop scence or even interested in cool dancing, check this out....(i put the vids in order for you and everything!)
THE BIGGEST ONLINE DANCE BATTLE EVER!!! It's about dance battles and stuff, but it's big time no holds bar, and on a macro level. get the big picture. haha check it out kay?
- the challenge http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8a-FBSEFqcM
- the response http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9-GJHr5W-J4
- battle 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UA7dEWKAT7Y
- battle 2 response http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NECNIKmMgS8
- so sick... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KJYm7d2M070
- the conclusion... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnXlJFobvAU
4. Shout out to Ronneza Penalba for making me Adobo the other day, it was bomb, and she used her mom's secret ingredient that she told me. i really appreciate it Ronneza! woot. i at some of it for dinner today. hehe
5. so today, before i went to my soc 63 class with O'Connell (race and ethnicity) i got to eat out with Steve (oh yeah, that's rite ladies, don't get jealous... lol) but yea, we ate at Taco Bell (good call steve! a meal under 3 bux! woot, i was full too! haha) and it was some good food, we got to catch up a lil bit even tho it wasn't a full hang out. but i will see him tomorrow, so im excited for that. hopefully we can get to hang out soon.
6. i saw Charmaine take off her contacts today, and somehow, the convo topic was switched to "what if you put on someone elses contacts, would you feel gross?" lol knowing that someone else's eye juices are in you eye frm wearing someone elses contacts (just hypothetically assume that u had the same eye grade as the other persons, and you needed to see so you can drive or somehting. lol ) i got creeped out a bit wen i thought about having eye solution that came out of someone else's eyes and not mind and putting that into my eyes.
speaking of which, how do u think i'd look like with contacts? do u think i look better with glasses? i'm considering contacts as well, but im hella scared to touch my eye. lol
7. my saliva story. lol it's kinda gross. so i was telling Anna, Ray, and Bellamee(Bellamay) about what Janice and i had planned out, i guess i was speaking so fast and so excitedly, that i happend to spit on my laptop and i didn't even notice. lol and it was a huge! droplet of saliva. lolz. so i didnt' notice rite... and Anna didn' wanna say n e ting to embarass me. lol so as eventually typed on my lappy, i was like... dude, i feel something wet on my laptop, wut the hell is this? LOL and then they both told me wut happend and i felt hella embarassed. lol pretty gross eh? be careful wen i spit mad rhymes or else salaiva just might shoot ur face. lolz
8. LOL i like this story too. so i was paying for my Kyrie T-shirt rite... and i took out my wallet to pay Helen (the kyrie president this year) and as i pulled out of my wallet, there was a KFC hot sauce packet. and she was like... uh... that's hella random man. LOL "It's like one of those games that goes like, guess wuts in my pocket!" (just to explaing myself, wen i went to go eat at taco bell today, it was the joint taco bell and kfc and i got hotsauce frm there and i put one in my pocket cuz i didn't wanna throw it away. lol)
9. as i've said before, the fewest words can really make my day. the smallest things really count in life that we somtimes over look, and take for granted. today, i let charlene and charmaine use my laptop for a bit, even tho i had hw to do on my laptop, i let them use it anyway cuz i felt like my hw wasn't too important at the time. lol. so yeah...we socialized watched a few youtube vids and laffed for a while and stuff. Charmaine with her threats like "ima bust your butt ace!" and Charlene with her even scarier threats. "you know wut.... ima kill you man..." (no lie, they really said this rofl) and after they were done with my laptop and i stopped making them irritated and they stopped threatening me and left for the museum, i found a cute lil note on my laptop that they wrote.
"NOVEMBER 20, 2008
BETTAH WATCH YO' BACK.
JKAY.
SEE YOU IN CLASS TOMORROW. ALONG WITH YOU-KNOW-WHO.
YEAH.
THAT IS ALL.
BYE BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
-- Charlene
P.S. THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME USE YOUR COMPUTER REPEATEDLY.Your computer is hard to type with. :)---------------------------------------------------
THESE SHOES ARE MINEZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
-Charmaine"
haha cute huh? it was much apprciated. u see, it's kinda the small stuff that i really appreciate and enjoy life that just puts a smile on my face and makes me happy. :-)
10. OMB, i think i melted a bit today. hahaha so... i was saying my byes in Kyrie, i was leaving and stuff and i was in a great rush so i can talk to anna and let them know and help out with pre-benecon stuff. so i only said my goodbyes to the ppl. i was walking past and knew. and i skipped many ppl. just as i was about to leave the interfaith doors, i see this one girl (whom i happen to find very attractive...) say "oh! ur leaving? Bye ace! *she waved and smiled at me*" i smiled realy big and said bye, i felt like i kinda melted a lil bit there. *aCe bites knuckles to help control emtion he's feeling rite now*LOL. sry, i just had to write that part in my blog today. and there i s a major part that you are missing, ther is a major reason why i melted. it's the way she said it, ask me about it later why i melted. there's a reason why, i just won't melt that easily. lol :-P and for some of you, who think u know who im talking about, you are mistaken, it was someone else. i think the only person i told this story to was Anna Olivares so far. lol.
n e wayz. i think this blog entry has gone on long enuf. i guess it's time for some good nites rest, i'll need it for tomorrow's Benecon. hope to see you there!
End Time: 2:21 am
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
fast blog
sry guys, i can't do the regular blog tonite, im really lame. lol. i left my battery charger for my laptop in ICS where i was studying. Charlene was kind enuf to giv me bak my charger in LOG. but i left it in Interfaith before i left. lol. sux eh?
well yeah, i just wanted to write something that i felt was important. Im not too sure if you guys ever saw the movie "Run Fat Boy Run" with Simon Pegg (from sean of the dead and hot fuzz) but yeah... i felt like his character today. it is kinda funny how i just reccently watched this movie with my fam. outting last week, and then today, i am totally in his shoes as he is portrayed in the movie, but in real life, i don't think i can explain it all in my blog, but u can talk to me in person or call me up if ur intersted in hearing the story. lol. just remind me.
i think im my next blog, ima talk about something that i've considered that i've heard multiple opinions about. in my next blog, i'll def. appreciate comments/feedback. more next time wen i actually have my charger! : D hahaha
nite all
end time : 11:50
well yeah, i just wanted to write something that i felt was important. Im not too sure if you guys ever saw the movie "Run Fat Boy Run" with Simon Pegg (from sean of the dead and hot fuzz) but yeah... i felt like his character today. it is kinda funny how i just reccently watched this movie with my fam. outting last week, and then today, i am totally in his shoes as he is portrayed in the movie, but in real life, i don't think i can explain it all in my blog, but u can talk to me in person or call me up if ur intersted in hearing the story. lol. just remind me.
i think im my next blog, ima talk about something that i've considered that i've heard multiple opinions about. in my next blog, i'll def. appreciate comments/feedback. more next time wen i actually have my charger! : D hahaha
nite all
end time : 11:50
Monday, November 17, 2008
New Tradition???: Sunday Shout Outz
Current Song: "Don't Trust Me" by 3Oh!3
Current Quote of the Day: "Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught." ---Oscar Wilde
I really like to agree with the quote above. i sometimes feel like a good amount of the material of what i learn in college will have no relevance to me and my future eneavors. It is favorable to obtain the power of knowledge in general, but how will that affect me and my workplace or my career? I often question this sometimes, but i think what my main reason that keeps me motivated not to fail is that im paying a good chunk of money to be here, and i would hate myself if i let my parents down, and that the experience of the college life in general is just wonderful.
In any case... i was debating about weather or not i should start this new tradition. I want to have every sunday blog(even tho it is technically monday rite now) dedicated to the people who really affected my life this past week or who i really saw the light of God in them or really helped me out when i was in a pinch. etc. I'd have a list of the people who helped me out and thank them on my blog. unfortunately, im hella tired, and i don't think i can remember or write down all the people's names who have helped me out this week. but from today on, i think i might start this next week sunday or something. i feel like i'd be a good tradition. what say you? hehe
erm... that 3Oh!3 song was really cool that i heard it on the radio. the music vid. is kinda funnie too. so check it out.
i feel like im kinda behind with the school work (aren't we all? haha) but i gotta keep trying to do better. maybe i shud ease up slightly on the social aspects of my life even tho i felt like i was making extrememly good progress. hrm... lol. well, we'll find out what i end up doin and how i end up doing.
My sister's birthday was awesome! happy birhtday ate ann! and UCC Park day was great too! erm... more details on that later (or i might not write about it at all >.<)
i wanna just end this blog now... yep... nite all. : D
End time: 1:00AM
Current Quote of the Day: "Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught." ---Oscar Wilde
I really like to agree with the quote above. i sometimes feel like a good amount of the material of what i learn in college will have no relevance to me and my future eneavors. It is favorable to obtain the power of knowledge in general, but how will that affect me and my workplace or my career? I often question this sometimes, but i think what my main reason that keeps me motivated not to fail is that im paying a good chunk of money to be here, and i would hate myself if i let my parents down, and that the experience of the college life in general is just wonderful.
In any case... i was debating about weather or not i should start this new tradition. I want to have every sunday blog(even tho it is technically monday rite now) dedicated to the people who really affected my life this past week or who i really saw the light of God in them or really helped me out when i was in a pinch. etc. I'd have a list of the people who helped me out and thank them on my blog. unfortunately, im hella tired, and i don't think i can remember or write down all the people's names who have helped me out this week. but from today on, i think i might start this next week sunday or something. i feel like i'd be a good tradition. what say you? hehe
erm... that 3Oh!3 song was really cool that i heard it on the radio. the music vid. is kinda funnie too. so check it out.
i feel like im kinda behind with the school work (aren't we all? haha) but i gotta keep trying to do better. maybe i shud ease up slightly on the social aspects of my life even tho i felt like i was making extrememly good progress. hrm... lol. well, we'll find out what i end up doin and how i end up doing.
My sister's birthday was awesome! happy birhtday ate ann! and UCC Park day was great too! erm... more details on that later (or i might not write about it at all >.<)
i wanna just end this blog now... yep... nite all. : D
End time: 1:00AM
Friday, November 14, 2008
Shopping and School
Current Song of the moment: Feather by Nujabes (i've been feeling in the mood for Nujabes or a lil jazzy feel lately)
Current Quote of the Day: "The United States is a nation of laws: badly written and randomly enforced." ---Frank Zappa (i have no idea who this guy is. lol)
today was a chill day. just had one class, went to the dermatologist, and went shopping for my siblings' birthdays this month. I got Ate Ann and Kuya Son some really cool stuff. u know that feeling wen u get a present for someone and you get excited to giv it to them? ahha and Charlene accompanied me today and it was really cool. she really helped me out a lot with her advice/opinion with what i buy. haha.
I'm pretty excited to celebrate my Ate's Bday coming up this Sat. i can't wait.
somebody kool really made me feel important and luved today. and it was really cool and outta nowhere too. i was shopping for Ate Ann's gift, and Aubrey (this really cool guy who is in my fam. that just joined LOG) asked me if i wanted to hang out with him cuz he was goin with some of his friends to D&B's. but he asked if i was 21+. :/ lol so i said no, so i didn't end up going. but i really did appreicate the invite. it made me feel special and wanted u know? even tho to some ppl. it seemed kinda small; to me, it felt really cool. haha. iono... it was just cool in my opinion. thx Aubrey!
i reccently found out that i didn't do so hot in one of my midterms. (ten pts. below the mean) so yeah... i don't feel like i'm having too much fun, and i thought i did okay on that midterm too... : / i guess i really needa "aCe" the final so to speak. i needa work harder. I can do better, i know it. >: l (that's suppose to b my determined face, lol)
my bak hurts a lil bit
well, i intended this blog to b semi-short, hope u are all doin well. ask me for prayers if u need them. : D
End time: 12:08
Current Quote of the Day: "The United States is a nation of laws: badly written and randomly enforced." ---Frank Zappa (i have no idea who this guy is. lol)
today was a chill day. just had one class, went to the dermatologist, and went shopping for my siblings' birthdays this month. I got Ate Ann and Kuya Son some really cool stuff. u know that feeling wen u get a present for someone and you get excited to giv it to them? ahha and Charlene accompanied me today and it was really cool. she really helped me out a lot with her advice/opinion with what i buy. haha.
I'm pretty excited to celebrate my Ate's Bday coming up this Sat. i can't wait.
somebody kool really made me feel important and luved today. and it was really cool and outta nowhere too. i was shopping for Ate Ann's gift, and Aubrey (this really cool guy who is in my fam. that just joined LOG) asked me if i wanted to hang out with him cuz he was goin with some of his friends to D&B's. but he asked if i was 21+. :/ lol so i said no, so i didn't end up going. but i really did appreicate the invite. it made me feel special and wanted u know? even tho to some ppl. it seemed kinda small; to me, it felt really cool. haha. iono... it was just cool in my opinion. thx Aubrey!
i reccently found out that i didn't do so hot in one of my midterms. (ten pts. below the mean) so yeah... i don't feel like i'm having too much fun, and i thought i did okay on that midterm too... : / i guess i really needa "aCe" the final so to speak. i needa work harder. I can do better, i know it. >: l (that's suppose to b my determined face, lol)
my bak hurts a lil bit
well, i intended this blog to b semi-short, hope u are all doin well. ask me for prayers if u need them. : D
End time: 12:08
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
How i currently feel
Current song playing: Digital Love by Daft Punk (they're my favorite techno/deephouse artist btw!)
Current Quote of the day: "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." ---Mother Teresa
(just a lil background info, this is an excerpt from Daft Punk's movie called Interstellar 5555. It was an animated movie that they made that shows a story this group in outer space and something bad happens to their band members, and the story gets really sci fi. there is now talking and it is pretty much a musical of their cd with aided animation. kind of like a modern day Gorillaz kinda thing. i reccoment u watch the movie. u can find it on youtube. the whole thing. i havent' seen the movie since Jr. High. it's kinda nostalgic to see this clip again. haha i really like this vid. clip, esp. where he daydreams about the girl and they're in the medow and stuff. i kinda do wut that guy does, except without hte girly meadow shit. rofl.)
"Digital Love"
Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long
Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long
The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun Before I knew it this dream was all gone
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true
Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?
It's all a balancing act in my opinion. and i honestly don't know wut to do...
There's the girl that i constantly think about, and considered (note the past tense) or pursuing. i am not sure if i should or not. (she is ridiculously beautiful... but is there really more to her than just physcial attraction?)
There is my friends that i have tried really hard to grow closer with and want to pursue closer relationships with those friends. am i really willing to trade my efforts for my friends for a woman?
And there is/are the girl(s) that might have a crush on me. (this is purely speculation and just my guess. i have no idea if i am right at all. i could be totally wrong and bending things outta shape)
Now what do i do? let's not joke ourselves, women take up much effort, time and money. lol. do i really have that rite now. can i afford that rite now? This girl i have in mind doens't seem like a longterm relationship... but why do i still think about her?
i really wanted and think im leaning more towards growing closer with a small groups of friends. i really wanted to focus on that for the time being and not worry about the time, and effort, and money spent on girls. but why is it that i still constnatly think of that one girl? why? why? lol why is that? iono man. something tells me that i shouldn't pursue her... and i can keep my options open with a select few, but what do i really wanna do? More importantly...what does God want me to do?
i feel like i really sux at hearing God's will for me. rite now, i think i shud just concentrate on some really good friendships, i feel like it'll take me a long way. cuz if i try to go for one girl... i might end up slipping all the time and effort i've been working so hard to open up and earn new friendships and ppl.'s trusts. etc.
but then again... i still kinda don't know wut to do. *sigh* lol.
I think im starting to learn how to balance my life tho. and that's something new and good for me. im tryin to balance (or learn how to balance) my social, school, and family, and religious time. I feel like im getting better at it. What God has in store for me, i hav no idea. but yes...i'll be patient, and wait. maybe i shud just keep things the way they are, keepin the status quo son. I like where i am now and the direction im facing in life. why not go with the flow eh?
all in all... :-D Life is good. Seize the day people!
end time: 12:16
Current Quote of the day: "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." ---Mother Teresa
(just a lil background info, this is an excerpt from Daft Punk's movie called Interstellar 5555. It was an animated movie that they made that shows a story this group in outer space and something bad happens to their band members, and the story gets really sci fi. there is now talking and it is pretty much a musical of their cd with aided animation. kind of like a modern day Gorillaz kinda thing. i reccoment u watch the movie. u can find it on youtube. the whole thing. i havent' seen the movie since Jr. High. it's kinda nostalgic to see this clip again. haha i really like this vid. clip, esp. where he daydreams about the girl and they're in the medow and stuff. i kinda do wut that guy does, except without hte girly meadow shit. rofl.)
"Digital Love"
Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long
Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long
The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun Before I knew it this dream was all gone
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true
Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?
It's all a balancing act in my opinion. and i honestly don't know wut to do...
There's the girl that i constantly think about, and considered (note the past tense) or pursuing. i am not sure if i should or not. (she is ridiculously beautiful... but is there really more to her than just physcial attraction?)
There is my friends that i have tried really hard to grow closer with and want to pursue closer relationships with those friends. am i really willing to trade my efforts for my friends for a woman?
And there is/are the girl(s) that might have a crush on me. (this is purely speculation and just my guess. i have no idea if i am right at all. i could be totally wrong and bending things outta shape)
Now what do i do? let's not joke ourselves, women take up much effort, time and money. lol. do i really have that rite now. can i afford that rite now? This girl i have in mind doens't seem like a longterm relationship... but why do i still think about her?
i really wanted and think im leaning more towards growing closer with a small groups of friends. i really wanted to focus on that for the time being and not worry about the time, and effort, and money spent on girls. but why is it that i still constnatly think of that one girl? why? why? lol why is that? iono man. something tells me that i shouldn't pursue her... and i can keep my options open with a select few, but what do i really wanna do? More importantly...what does God want me to do?
i feel like i really sux at hearing God's will for me. rite now, i think i shud just concentrate on some really good friendships, i feel like it'll take me a long way. cuz if i try to go for one girl... i might end up slipping all the time and effort i've been working so hard to open up and earn new friendships and ppl.'s trusts. etc.
but then again... i still kinda don't know wut to do. *sigh* lol.
I think im starting to learn how to balance my life tho. and that's something new and good for me. im tryin to balance (or learn how to balance) my social, school, and family, and religious time. I feel like im getting better at it. What God has in store for me, i hav no idea. but yes...i'll be patient, and wait. maybe i shud just keep things the way they are, keepin the status quo son. I like where i am now and the direction im facing in life. why not go with the flow eh?
all in all... :-D Life is good. Seize the day people!
end time: 12:16
Sunday, November 9, 2008
My view on Politics
Current song: "Sincerely" by Tsutchie (a group who work with Nujabes who are known for doing the intro music for the popularized anime Samurai Champloo)
Current Quote: "Politics, it seems to me, for years, or all too long, has been concerned with right or left instead of right or wrong. ---Richard Armour
So i hav reccently been updating myself with other ppl's blogs, and it looks like the hot topic of the week is all about politics. lol and i feel like i shud do wut the cool thing is... "what everyone else is doing." lol jk doin wut everyone else is doing is not always the cool thing. but n e ways. moving on, i felt like i couldn't leave a deccent comment on ppl's blogs cuz i have nothing to say about politics. What also prompted me to write this blog was because i just reccently discussed this matter with Ronezza. we had a pretty good chat about it. haha.
But in case most of you don't know... I have a very strong dislike towards politics.
but it's not like, if ur all passionate about politics and such, i won't hate you at all, in fact, i totally respect that and think it's cool that you are very knowledgable about the way our nation operates and are up to date with what's going on.
but the following are my reasons for not liking politics:
another thing before i wrap up this blog, i really like Kirst.'s quote on her status. "I'm looking at you and my heart likes the view." lol. i think that's a really cool quote.
I love my family and freinds. i had a really good weekend. i got to hang with my family, see some friends that i haven't talked to or seen for such a long time (some years, others months) and i got to celebrate a good friends' birthday who's birthday was oct. 16. lol so im totally a month late, but i still took her out to lunch, so it was all gewd. i luved my weekend. :-D
Maybe my next blog will be about my parents and how i feel about them and some current news that i heard is happening. Tune in next time! lol
end time 1:52
Current Quote: "Politics, it seems to me, for years, or all too long, has been concerned with right or left instead of right or wrong. ---Richard Armour
So i hav reccently been updating myself with other ppl's blogs, and it looks like the hot topic of the week is all about politics. lol and i feel like i shud do wut the cool thing is... "what everyone else is doing." lol jk doin wut everyone else is doing is not always the cool thing. but n e ways. moving on, i felt like i couldn't leave a deccent comment on ppl's blogs cuz i have nothing to say about politics. What also prompted me to write this blog was because i just reccently discussed this matter with Ronezza. we had a pretty good chat about it. haha.
But in case most of you don't know... I have a very strong dislike towards politics.
but it's not like, if ur all passionate about politics and such, i won't hate you at all, in fact, i totally respect that and think it's cool that you are very knowledgable about the way our nation operates and are up to date with what's going on.
but the following are my reasons for not liking politics:
- It is such an easy way to get yourself into an argument with someone else: and things can get heated in just under a minute. I'm not sure if that makes me a wussy, (cuz i like to avoid confrontation) but that's what i do. so many arguments and rebutles, it's like... who do i believe? it really gets to much for me to handle and process. u know? number two ties in well with number one.
- You really have to do sooo much reasearch in order to find out what's what and who stands for what opinion. etc.: if you are making an argument with someone, you really have to be super knowledgeable to hold your own wen defending your position. it is just too much work! seriously. and how credible are your sources? are you sure you know exactly what you are saying is 100% fact and true?
- Who's to say that who i vote for will acutally follow through with what he/she is saying?: i honestly think that ppl. will say anything to be where they want to be. Kind of like ppl who are willing to do sum crzy shit just to be on TV. ya know? lol. it's like... dude.. calm down. hahaa. but seriously, some presidential candidate could say the best things in the most eloquent manner, but he could probably act like the next Hitler. all im saying is, if America votes for the most popular and seems like the best choice by landslide, and he becomes some crzy dictator, at least i could say that i didn't vote. : P actions defintely speak louder than words. ALWAYS.
- You don't get sucked into Jury duty: i don't know about u, but i dun wanna wait 3 hrs and dive somewhere to hear someone sueing and complaining about some random crap just to earn profit. "America is a place where you can sue anyone for anything and get away with it!" ---unknown, i forgot where i got that quote from, but i heard it from somewhere and it said something along those lines. i feel like jury duty is just another distraction in life where you have to stop your current daily life and activities and handle someone else's problem. sry, iono if that came out as too harsh, but that's how i feel about it. i also think like the less my name doesn't make it to some govt. related list of names, the better it will be for me in the long run. as in getting drafted(i really pray there is no drafts ever again), or jury duty, or wutever the hell it is. the more my name isn't associated with the govt, i feel like it'll b better int he long run.
- God's will. I don't know how God and politics really fit well with each other. How sure are we that God will's a certain candidate to win and lead a nation instead of another candidate. It's crzy stuff to think about man. It's always been separate... and i honestly don't think i can draw the line between this prop and that prop, or this person is better than that person. It sux to compare ppl. i honestly feel like comparing yourself to others is a bad measurement. Always compare yourself to your own abilities. And it sux to compare a person you don't know to another person. Who is to say that one person is a much better role model than the other.
- "I have enough faith in humanity, that they will research and vote properly enough for me to thrive and prosper well." im not sure if i have an overly strong indiference and i am just too stubborn, but this is the way i feel. Unless i feel like something really bothers me to a personal level, then i'll probably do sumthing about it, such as vote or petition, or rally up ppl. and protest, or speak on it. etc. Im not sure if my strong indifference is a sin or not... i sometimes wonder. but all in all, i see voting kind of like Wikipedia. people will check upon sources and research and like, everything will work itself out and the best answer will come upon the masses. Why shud i put in my two cents when i know absolutely nothing about the subject, haha.
another thing before i wrap up this blog, i really like Kirst.'s quote on her status. "I'm looking at you and my heart likes the view." lol. i think that's a really cool quote.
I love my family and freinds. i had a really good weekend. i got to hang with my family, see some friends that i haven't talked to or seen for such a long time (some years, others months) and i got to celebrate a good friends' birthday who's birthday was oct. 16. lol so im totally a month late, but i still took her out to lunch, so it was all gewd. i luved my weekend. :-D
Maybe my next blog will be about my parents and how i feel about them and some current news that i heard is happening. Tune in next time! lol
end time 1:52
Friday, November 7, 2008
i shud really b asleep
Current song playing: Ice Box by Omarion
Current Quote of the day: "Decisions... Decisions... Decisions..." (what to do?)
so i know i shud really b sleeping rite now considering the fact that i hav class at 11 tomorrow, but i think i've just realized that i have a newfound addiction, blogging and reading other's blogs. lol. there is on person's blog in particular that i'd like to read before i sleep after i write this up. well... i went to kyrie today and the afterevent was a movie at Grace's place, she lives pretty cloes to me, and we watched iron man. i luv that movie. hahah. well.... i kinda wanna do this blog differenty this time. take a look at the lyrics i've pasted. i want some feedbacks, you can comment me, or find me on aim, or even email me or sumtin, facebook, iono, but i just want u guys to tell me what you think. i wanna hear ur opinions.
im not sure if you guys knew this about me, but one of my favorite passtimes is to read and analyze song lyrics. (most esp. the emo ones! >.<) The Academy Is... (one of my top 20 fav. bands) and i just want u to kinda analyze the song a bit. i wanna know wut u think about it. lol i hav an interpretation of it, but i don't wanna say it yet and let it get in the way of ur interpreation of the song. just tell me what u think about it, esp. the parts i bold. i really like this song, i all encourage you to find this song and listen to it. lol
here it goes:
Lyrics to Down And Out :
Out of the box, Out of the KitchenOut of the world shes grown so fearful of
So fearful ofI don't ever want to see you again.
I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again, my friend.
This is the end.
Out of the house, she grabs the keys, runs for the hills and doesn't leave a letter that way the inbox will be much better
Away from the man that shes grown so fearfull of so fearfull ofI don't ever want to see you again.
I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.
O why o why you wear sunglasses in the home when the sun went down about an hour ago
O why o why you wear sunglasses in the home when the sun went down about an hour ago
Life should not be that wayAlways up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep
That Make you stutter when you speakAlways up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep
That Make you stutter when you speak
Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.
Now that I'm grown, I've seen marriages fall to piecesNow that I'm grown, I've seen friendships fall to pieces
Weekend warriors and our best friends the writers weren't kidding about how all good things must end then again somethings then again somethings are far too good somethings are far too good to go away- Let go.
Always up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep That Make you stutter when you speak
Always up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep That Make you stutter when you speak
Speak now or forever hold your peace.
We won't forget Tony or Johnny, oh, oh.No matter how they miss us they still wish us the best on the road.Garrett took a plane to Paris, France.Now he's cooking up entrees for the pretty, pretty French girls.Bookends, Blue and Clarity, to The Wall and Grace.Darkside, Wish and a toast to the late Figure 8.
Weekend warriors and our best friends.The writers weren't kidding, but the good things will live in our hearts.
Always up or down, never down and out.You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak.Always up or down, never down and out.
You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. Always up or down, never down and out.You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. Always up or down, never down and out.
You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak.Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.
http://www.lyricsmania.com/lyrics/academy_is_the_lyrics_3995/from_the_carpet_[ep]_lyrics_24935/down_and_out_lyrics_287932.html
well, i think that's all for tonite, and u don't hav to analyze this if u don't want to of course, i just happen to find it fun i guess. :-P iono. i promise that in my next blog, i will talk about my views on politics. ahhaa. now time to read that person's blog. lol Nite all! : D
"sleep now or forever hold you peaCe in pieces..."
end time: 2:05 am
Current Quote of the day: "Decisions... Decisions... Decisions..." (what to do?)
so i know i shud really b sleeping rite now considering the fact that i hav class at 11 tomorrow, but i think i've just realized that i have a newfound addiction, blogging and reading other's blogs. lol. there is on person's blog in particular that i'd like to read before i sleep after i write this up. well... i went to kyrie today and the afterevent was a movie at Grace's place, she lives pretty cloes to me, and we watched iron man. i luv that movie. hahah. well.... i kinda wanna do this blog differenty this time. take a look at the lyrics i've pasted. i want some feedbacks, you can comment me, or find me on aim, or even email me or sumtin, facebook, iono, but i just want u guys to tell me what you think. i wanna hear ur opinions.
im not sure if you guys knew this about me, but one of my favorite passtimes is to read and analyze song lyrics. (most esp. the emo ones! >.<) The Academy Is... (one of my top 20 fav. bands) and i just want u to kinda analyze the song a bit. i wanna know wut u think about it. lol i hav an interpretation of it, but i don't wanna say it yet and let it get in the way of ur interpreation of the song. just tell me what u think about it, esp. the parts i bold. i really like this song, i all encourage you to find this song and listen to it. lol
here it goes:
Lyrics to Down And Out :
Out of the box, Out of the KitchenOut of the world shes grown so fearful of
So fearful ofI don't ever want to see you again.
I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again, my friend.
This is the end.
Out of the house, she grabs the keys, runs for the hills and doesn't leave a letter that way the inbox will be much better
Away from the man that shes grown so fearfull of so fearfull ofI don't ever want to see you again.
I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.
O why o why you wear sunglasses in the home when the sun went down about an hour ago
O why o why you wear sunglasses in the home when the sun went down about an hour ago
Life should not be that wayAlways up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep
That Make you stutter when you speakAlways up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep
That Make you stutter when you speak
Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.
Now that I'm grown, I've seen marriages fall to piecesNow that I'm grown, I've seen friendships fall to pieces
Weekend warriors and our best friends the writers weren't kidding about how all good things must end then again somethings then again somethings are far too good somethings are far too good to go away- Let go.
Always up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep That Make you stutter when you speak
Always up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep That Make you stutter when you speak
Speak now or forever hold your peace.
We won't forget Tony or Johnny, oh, oh.No matter how they miss us they still wish us the best on the road.Garrett took a plane to Paris, France.Now he's cooking up entrees for the pretty, pretty French girls.Bookends, Blue and Clarity, to The Wall and Grace.Darkside, Wish and a toast to the late Figure 8.
Weekend warriors and our best friends.The writers weren't kidding, but the good things will live in our hearts.
Always up or down, never down and out.You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak.Always up or down, never down and out.
You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. Always up or down, never down and out.You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. Always up or down, never down and out.
You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak.Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.
http://www.lyricsmania.com/lyrics/academy_is_the_lyrics_3995/from_the_carpet_[ep]_lyrics_24935/down_and_out_lyrics_287932.html
well, i think that's all for tonite, and u don't hav to analyze this if u don't want to of course, i just happen to find it fun i guess. :-P iono. i promise that in my next blog, i will talk about my views on politics. ahhaa. now time to read that person's blog. lol Nite all! : D
"sleep now or forever hold you peaCe in pieces..."
end time: 2:05 am
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
The Window of Opporunity
Current Song Playing: "We've got a Big Mess on Our Hands" by The Academy Is...
Current Quote: "Speak Now or forever Hold your Peace in Pieces..." by The Academy Is... in the song Down and Out (i know, the quotes hella emo, but i felt like it applied.lol)
do you guys ever get the feeling that your window of opportunity has just closed. have you guys ever experienced that or felt that way? and you just realize it? hahah. like u had ur ipod blasting in ur ears when opportunity was knocking in the front door.
anyways, i felt like the above has just slipped past me. i don't know, is it due to my lack of exp.? or my poor choice of words? my nervousness? i feel like a fool sumtimes. but it's okay. im not gonna beat myself up over it u know? haha. it's all good. im just gonna learn frm my experience and further grow as an individual. As William Hung once said, "...and I have no regrets..." : ) ate may and i talked about regret once, maybe that's another subject topic for another time. but i'll blog about it eventually.
i still have so many graces and blessings in my life. i am doing well, and i am strong. : D things are still looking up.
I want to be able to support those around me, but sumtimes i feel a lil useless and powerless. the most i can do is pray... i hope my prayers work and are answered. i see so many of my fellow brother's and sister's in christ who are struggling, i want to help, i really do. if there is anything i can do, i want to be a part of it and i want to help you be your crutch. i just need to be stronger in order to support those around me. two letters... I.T.
well, i think im dun for today. g'nite all. : )
Current Quote: "Speak Now or forever Hold your Peace in Pieces..." by The Academy Is... in the song Down and Out (i know, the quotes hella emo, but i felt like it applied.lol)
do you guys ever get the feeling that your window of opportunity has just closed. have you guys ever experienced that or felt that way? and you just realize it? hahah. like u had ur ipod blasting in ur ears when opportunity was knocking in the front door.
anyways, i felt like the above has just slipped past me. i don't know, is it due to my lack of exp.? or my poor choice of words? my nervousness? i feel like a fool sumtimes. but it's okay. im not gonna beat myself up over it u know? haha. it's all good. im just gonna learn frm my experience and further grow as an individual. As William Hung once said, "...and I have no regrets..." : ) ate may and i talked about regret once, maybe that's another subject topic for another time. but i'll blog about it eventually.
i still have so many graces and blessings in my life. i am doing well, and i am strong. : D things are still looking up.
I want to be able to support those around me, but sumtimes i feel a lil useless and powerless. the most i can do is pray... i hope my prayers work and are answered. i see so many of my fellow brother's and sister's in christ who are struggling, i want to help, i really do. if there is anything i can do, i want to be a part of it and i want to help you be your crutch. i just need to be stronger in order to support those around me. two letters... I.T.
well, i think im dun for today. g'nite all. : )
Today is a good day.
Current song: D.A.N.C.E. by Justice
Current Quote: "You are such a P.Y.T." ---from the song mentioned above (i know im copping out with the quotes... lol but it's hella late and i dun wanna look for a quote that reflects my current mood. :-P) does n e one remember this micheal jackson reference? lol
i just wanted to make this a really quick blog, i had such an eventful day. so much sharing with people. Each day is a new day. I luve every minute of it. I really lik to thank joyce for helpin me out. whatever she told me is working and i have a better and more pos. attitude.
Today i shared with my LOG fam a bit and it really helped and i felt genuine and luved bak. I luv LOG. i had a lot of one on one convo's and i really liked all of them. Today was just a great day in general and i feel like im getting closer and feelings a sense of belonging somehow. lol i even talked to FJF (father john francis) about this problem, and he is just such a wise man. there was a talk with Bellameeeee, charlene, steve, charmaine, janice, and FJF. i can't thank God enuf for all my wonderful blessings today and all the beautiful people in my life and all the sharing and caring and laffs and... just everything. im in a great mood! are you? hehe. take care everyone. i think i'll sleep now.
p.s. sry i didn't get into the details and specifics in my blog today, but just know that i am praying for all of you that confronted me about your problems, if you need prayers, just ask me. no problem. ;-)
i luv life and this world. good nite God and all. : D
Current Quote: "You are such a P.Y.T." ---from the song mentioned above (i know im copping out with the quotes... lol but it's hella late and i dun wanna look for a quote that reflects my current mood. :-P) does n e one remember this micheal jackson reference? lol
i just wanted to make this a really quick blog, i had such an eventful day. so much sharing with people. Each day is a new day. I luve every minute of it. I really lik to thank joyce for helpin me out. whatever she told me is working and i have a better and more pos. attitude.
Today i shared with my LOG fam a bit and it really helped and i felt genuine and luved bak. I luv LOG. i had a lot of one on one convo's and i really liked all of them. Today was just a great day in general and i feel like im getting closer and feelings a sense of belonging somehow. lol i even talked to FJF (father john francis) about this problem, and he is just such a wise man. there was a talk with Bellameeeee, charlene, steve, charmaine, janice, and FJF. i can't thank God enuf for all my wonderful blessings today and all the beautiful people in my life and all the sharing and caring and laffs and... just everything. im in a great mood! are you? hehe. take care everyone. i think i'll sleep now.
p.s. sry i didn't get into the details and specifics in my blog today, but just know that i am praying for all of you that confronted me about your problems, if you need prayers, just ask me. no problem. ;-)
i luv life and this world. good nite God and all. : D
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Current song playing: Bruised by Jack's Mannequin
blog quote of the day: "We stood like statue's at the gate (...) I had to give it away... I had to give you away..." ---from the current song above
I really like the song above playing. For some reason, it makes me happy even tho the lyrics are hella emo. lol.
Today's mass sermon with FJF(father john francis) was quite exeptional.(remember, this was the feast of all souls day mass) i luved it. he told this story of when he was still studying and how he liked to study in a cemetery. Almost every day... he saw this one man come to the same grave with a boquet of beautifuul flowers and a basket full of food. and after a few hours, he would take everything back into his car and just leave. FJF observed this for a couple of days and eventually asked him. "Who is it that you are visiting?"
the man responds. "this is my wife who died a while back. about ten years ago... she meant so much to me. and i miss her dearly. She would cook food for me, and prepare it for my family everynight and the smell would consume the whole house, she would sometimes even put it into a nice basket like this. i would even complaing about the food sometimes! complaining about the taste. and now... i miss the smell of her cooking and her smell and cooking the filled the entire house. And now, it is too late to let her know how much i truly appreciated and loved her..."
I think this was one of the rare moments where i felt like a tear could come down during a mass. lol. and father told it so much better and with more emotion. but dang man... it really made me think of how much i take things for granted and how easy it is to take so many things for granted.
I don't know about u guys, but i seriously feel like i can do better in my life, in all aspects of my life as i try to balance my time and days for the rest of my life. i can be a better friend, better son/sibling, a better student, a better everything. i needa learn how to just... i just needa grow more. i know it won't happen over nite, but i just needa try. i needa put more effort in everything i do. and i have to stop being so self centered. i shud really be more considerate... *sigh* so many things i needa work on and so little time! >.< lol. be patient with me guys. mkay?
Thanks joyce, ur always a good listener : D
P.S. if steve forton is reading this, i just wanted to say thanks for inspiring me to blog again, but i just wanna say "Eff ur trunk Steve Forton! u jacked up my glasses!" lol jk
(i took a long time cuz of aim. haha) End time 12:01
blog quote of the day: "We stood like statue's at the gate (...) I had to give it away... I had to give you away..." ---from the current song above
I really like the song above playing. For some reason, it makes me happy even tho the lyrics are hella emo. lol.
Today's mass sermon with FJF(father john francis) was quite exeptional.(remember, this was the feast of all souls day mass) i luved it. he told this story of when he was still studying and how he liked to study in a cemetery. Almost every day... he saw this one man come to the same grave with a boquet of beautifuul flowers and a basket full of food. and after a few hours, he would take everything back into his car and just leave. FJF observed this for a couple of days and eventually asked him. "Who is it that you are visiting?"
the man responds. "this is my wife who died a while back. about ten years ago... she meant so much to me. and i miss her dearly. She would cook food for me, and prepare it for my family everynight and the smell would consume the whole house, she would sometimes even put it into a nice basket like this. i would even complaing about the food sometimes! complaining about the taste. and now... i miss the smell of her cooking and her smell and cooking the filled the entire house. And now, it is too late to let her know how much i truly appreciated and loved her..."
I think this was one of the rare moments where i felt like a tear could come down during a mass. lol. and father told it so much better and with more emotion. but dang man... it really made me think of how much i take things for granted and how easy it is to take so many things for granted.
I don't know about u guys, but i seriously feel like i can do better in my life, in all aspects of my life as i try to balance my time and days for the rest of my life. i can be a better friend, better son/sibling, a better student, a better everything. i needa learn how to just... i just needa grow more. i know it won't happen over nite, but i just needa try. i needa put more effort in everything i do. and i have to stop being so self centered. i shud really be more considerate... *sigh* so many things i needa work on and so little time! >.< lol. be patient with me guys. mkay?
Thanks joyce, ur always a good listener : D
P.S. if steve forton is reading this, i just wanted to say thanks for inspiring me to blog again, but i just wanna say "Eff ur trunk Steve Forton! u jacked up my glasses!" lol jk
(i took a long time cuz of aim. haha) End time 12:01
The back of your head is ridiculous!
so i want to create some traditions everytime i blog. what i've been doing is putting the end time i stop writing every time i finish a blog. i also wanna start putting the song im listening to when i start bloggin and a quote. so here starts the tradition. this is history in the making folks! (haha okay... maybenot, but who cares rite?)
Song listening to as i started blog: Jason Mraz "I'm Yours"
Quote of the day blog: "The language of friendship is not words but meanings" ---Henry David Thoreau
So i've had a pretty shitty week this week. lol. i mean... if i think about it, things could always be worse, but yeah, my week didn't start off with a band, lets put it that way. haha. i recieved some bad news early on in the week from a few of my closest friends and that kinda go me downer. I got into another heated argument with a close friend of mine at UCI on wednesday. and then 2 midterms Thursday Friday to follow that up. so things have been kinda interesting lately.
but i mean... i honestly don't know wut i'd do without my friends, the advice of all the people i talked to, and just... the mad support from so many varying ppl. i can't thank God enuf for blessing me this week despite all the bad things that went down this week.
on the plus side of things, my week really turned over a new leaf by the time i finished my midterms. My Halloween was effing awesome man! the best halloween i've ever had. I dressed up as a frenchie for LOG. and i was a wannabe Filipino Kanye West on Halloween. it was a lotta fun man. i helped out for mass on friday(eve mass for all saints day) and chilled with Mustard Seeds for a bit at interfaith. i really like the fact that im trying to broaden my horizons with the varying catholic clubs on campus. I'm not sure how great of an impact being on UCC CORE has had on me, but as of rite now, im not really complaining. hehe...
but anyway! my halloween was friggin awesome man. i chilled at interfaith for a bit, ate, i didn't get to see my sister, but that's cool. and i headed over to sherry and Jen's place... and i seriously love they're place. but it's more about company than anything. Steve Forton came over and so did Myk Bareto. Joyce Charmaine, and Charlene and I just kiked it there and we really had a good time even tho we didn't even really do anything Halloween and scary looking, we all still enjoyed ourselves, and each other's company. afterall, isn't that what the spirit of halloween is all about? friendship and happiness? lol.
we freaking played duck hunt man! how more halloween can u get than that man. hahhah. duck hunt, cards, a lot of conversing. eating candy and food. connect for. more and more conversing. lots of one on one bonding. i don't mean to sound sappy or anything, but it was really cool and i felt like it was the major highlight my week.(that turned frm crap to cool). we stayed up till 6 am practically seeing the sunrise come up. i talked to Sherry about a lot of stuff... and man, it's like we never get tired of talking to each other. haha. like, we always have something to say or listen about,and it's like we can just talk for hours and still not get bored u know? u know how rare that is? it's crzy man. and hanging out with a bunch of really cool and close friends, it's just awesome man. i mean... around 4:30am i think, we got into story telling i think. (Charmine has some good stories) haha. and then somehow, we bridged our convo into a debate of marriage and the importance of marrying out of love or economic status and how valuable/important certain factors apply to happiness and lasting marriages. Everyone put in their own two cents here and there. I had my own views, Charlene had her own views, Steve was looking at it and pointing out thigns he learned from some of the classes he's taken. and it's crzy how we can discuss somehting like that so early in the morn without sleep and we are all still tite and good frenz. u know?
we also busted out some books with Interview Questions. lol... iono why that happend, but i asked Sherry if i could borrow those books for a bit, and next thing u know, we're all in a big circle asking each other Interview Questions. lol. crzy huh? we could either answer the Question just to make everyone laff, or answer it as if it were a real interview, then we'd critique each person's answer. Steve came up with some awesome answers. lol! and charmaine was sooo harsh when she was pretending to interview Charlene. it was ridiculous man. it was good times tho.
Hrm... maybe i'm going into too much detail with this blog. lol. but yeah... just in a nutshell, steve told sum good stories, we all talked, and did stuff that was very unhalloween related, and we had a blast, we slept over, and the next day, we got some in n out. I played tennis the following day, and just chilled. The days after my friday midterms have been great so far. i wonder wuts gonna happen next...
im feeling pretty tired man. i think i'll just stop rite here. another very long blog entry huh? i needa learn how to condense and shorten my thoughts into a concise manner. daym i sux at writing. haha. nite ya'll
hope everyone's safe and doing fine.
---end time 1:58
Song listening to as i started blog: Jason Mraz "I'm Yours"
Quote of the day blog: "The language of friendship is not words but meanings" ---Henry David Thoreau
So i've had a pretty shitty week this week. lol. i mean... if i think about it, things could always be worse, but yeah, my week didn't start off with a band, lets put it that way. haha. i recieved some bad news early on in the week from a few of my closest friends and that kinda go me downer. I got into another heated argument with a close friend of mine at UCI on wednesday. and then 2 midterms Thursday Friday to follow that up. so things have been kinda interesting lately.
but i mean... i honestly don't know wut i'd do without my friends, the advice of all the people i talked to, and just... the mad support from so many varying ppl. i can't thank God enuf for blessing me this week despite all the bad things that went down this week.
on the plus side of things, my week really turned over a new leaf by the time i finished my midterms. My Halloween was effing awesome man! the best halloween i've ever had. I dressed up as a frenchie for LOG. and i was a wannabe Filipino Kanye West on Halloween. it was a lotta fun man. i helped out for mass on friday(eve mass for all saints day) and chilled with Mustard Seeds for a bit at interfaith. i really like the fact that im trying to broaden my horizons with the varying catholic clubs on campus. I'm not sure how great of an impact being on UCC CORE has had on me, but as of rite now, im not really complaining. hehe...
but anyway! my halloween was friggin awesome man. i chilled at interfaith for a bit, ate, i didn't get to see my sister, but that's cool. and i headed over to sherry and Jen's place... and i seriously love they're place. but it's more about company than anything. Steve Forton came over and so did Myk Bareto. Joyce Charmaine, and Charlene and I just kiked it there and we really had a good time even tho we didn't even really do anything Halloween and scary looking, we all still enjoyed ourselves, and each other's company. afterall, isn't that what the spirit of halloween is all about? friendship and happiness? lol.
we freaking played duck hunt man! how more halloween can u get than that man. hahhah. duck hunt, cards, a lot of conversing. eating candy and food. connect for. more and more conversing. lots of one on one bonding. i don't mean to sound sappy or anything, but it was really cool and i felt like it was the major highlight my week.(that turned frm crap to cool). we stayed up till 6 am practically seeing the sunrise come up. i talked to Sherry about a lot of stuff... and man, it's like we never get tired of talking to each other. haha. like, we always have something to say or listen about,and it's like we can just talk for hours and still not get bored u know? u know how rare that is? it's crzy man. and hanging out with a bunch of really cool and close friends, it's just awesome man. i mean... around 4:30am i think, we got into story telling i think. (Charmine has some good stories) haha. and then somehow, we bridged our convo into a debate of marriage and the importance of marrying out of love or economic status and how valuable/important certain factors apply to happiness and lasting marriages. Everyone put in their own two cents here and there. I had my own views, Charlene had her own views, Steve was looking at it and pointing out thigns he learned from some of the classes he's taken. and it's crzy how we can discuss somehting like that so early in the morn without sleep and we are all still tite and good frenz. u know?
we also busted out some books with Interview Questions. lol... iono why that happend, but i asked Sherry if i could borrow those books for a bit, and next thing u know, we're all in a big circle asking each other Interview Questions. lol. crzy huh? we could either answer the Question just to make everyone laff, or answer it as if it were a real interview, then we'd critique each person's answer. Steve came up with some awesome answers. lol! and charmaine was sooo harsh when she was pretending to interview Charlene. it was ridiculous man. it was good times tho.
Hrm... maybe i'm going into too much detail with this blog. lol. but yeah... just in a nutshell, steve told sum good stories, we all talked, and did stuff that was very unhalloween related, and we had a blast, we slept over, and the next day, we got some in n out. I played tennis the following day, and just chilled. The days after my friday midterms have been great so far. i wonder wuts gonna happen next...
im feeling pretty tired man. i think i'll just stop rite here. another very long blog entry huh? i needa learn how to condense and shorten my thoughts into a concise manner. daym i sux at writing. haha. nite ya'll
hope everyone's safe and doing fine.
---end time 1:58
Thursday, October 30, 2008
midterm tomorrow
even tho i hav a midterm tomorrow(technically today) and friday, i still manage to find the time to blog. funnie isn't it? i just wanted to vent a bit of my thoughts with the electronic online paper which is the internet.
I am learning a lot, and asking advice from various people, and i appreciate everything. but i feel so discouraged somtimes. i need to be more confident. i keep telling myself. i think my main course of action for the time being is to just not get my hopes up. NOT GET MY HOPES UP. fudge man. i just... i just shouldn't try... but like, i kinda just don't wanna try n e more. i just wanna play it by ear and do things with how i feel at the time. Having expectations sux. and i should just drop them. am i being too negative? sry...
i think it's just that i miss a feeling that i really want back... but i should really prioritize myself and focus my thoughts and energy elsewhere... why do i do this to myself, i hav no idea...
good night all
end time 2:24
I am learning a lot, and asking advice from various people, and i appreciate everything. but i feel so discouraged somtimes. i need to be more confident. i keep telling myself. i think my main course of action for the time being is to just not get my hopes up. NOT GET MY HOPES UP. fudge man. i just... i just shouldn't try... but like, i kinda just don't wanna try n e more. i just wanna play it by ear and do things with how i feel at the time. Having expectations sux. and i should just drop them. am i being too negative? sry...
i think it's just that i miss a feeling that i really want back... but i should really prioritize myself and focus my thoughts and energy elsewhere... why do i do this to myself, i hav no idea...
good night all
end time 2:24
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
I'm trying something new...
so im trying to do this new thing, it's what most ppl. do with blogging, and it's to blog in bits and pieces instead of what i have been doing like blogging in mass essayish style of writing on how my past month has been. we'll see how well i do with this.
So today was a new day, and just like any other day. things come at me sooooo unexpectedly. but i think i dealt with them with the best of my ability. thinking back on it... i could have handled things a little better... but i didn't. if only there was a rewind buttom of time like freaking Prince of Persia or sumtin... (am i hella nerdy for knowing/saying sumtin like that? lol)
so i got angry at a really good friend today, and i am generally great at controlling my anger. but i guess i couldn't help it. It upsets me to know the fact that i messed up. and i should really just let it go. but i think it was just in the heat of the moment, and i just got caught up. i should really relax more... i needa stop acting so childish and stupid. i needa grow up a bit more...
I am a little worried about some of my best friends. i've recieved news about some of my closest freinds doing some things that aren't the best thing for they're health rite now. i really hope they are doing okay and that God watches over them. I had a good talk with Ronneza about this, and she was such a great listener and i felt really comfortable talking to her. thx Ronneza! : D she gave me some valuable insight, and then we started talking with Father John francis about viet food with Pierre and the convo just went haywire frm there. haha. i wanted to talk to Ronneza a bit more about one more topic, but Father came in on our convo. but it was all good tho. : )
I'm kinda excited for LOG tomorrow, costumes and all. i can't wait to wear mine. haha. it'll be great.
So i was talking to Steve Forton, and he's such a cool guy to talk to. i feel like i can open up with him about alotta stuff. hahaha. i hope i get to see him in person soon. i miss that fooolio. haha. we were talking about going to the Improv again... awe man. sooo much fun! srsly.
I also felt like i missed a good opportunity today to get something i realy wanted. i just wish i could turn back that clock again... but it's all good, i just hope things work out. yep im just hoping and making bold actions. lol
So i was talking with Valerie (my roomate) and we talked for such a long time. she always takes me away form my hw. but it's all good. what we talk about is such valuable, lifelong lessons. lol maybe im exaggerating it a bit too much. but yeah, what we talked about was really important. to me anyway. and im starting to feel very comfortable and open with her. and i appreciate her in my life. thank you lord for giving me her in my life, her support, advice, and personality is truly irrepaceable. hehe. we talked about me "changing my mindset" so to speak. i can't go tooooo much into detail, but that's what the gist of it was. and i really luv her advice. i feel like it's gonna work. i feel like i owe her so much. : D
so i had a semi-bad day start. but it got better as the day progressed. i laid off a bit of hw. and played tennis then bball. then the talk with Val really helped me out. so i feel better. i don't know wut i'd do without the mad support of others. i really thank them. today was a good healthy day, but iono about academic day. lol. but i did a bit of hw before i blogged and sleep tonite.
and to finish off this blog(which turned out longer than i expected)... i just wanna leave it off with this lyric frm the band called Elefant. the song entitled Misfit and a lil sumtin i typed up myself
"tell me your name... tell me your story... cuz im into it. running thru life... like a Misfit..."
"It's complicated... and im hella busy... and i dont' think i have much time. but i needa do this. i can do this. i have this resolve. i am determined. Ace with the new mindset..."
end time 3:12
good nite all
So today was a new day, and just like any other day. things come at me sooooo unexpectedly. but i think i dealt with them with the best of my ability. thinking back on it... i could have handled things a little better... but i didn't. if only there was a rewind buttom of time like freaking Prince of Persia or sumtin... (am i hella nerdy for knowing/saying sumtin like that? lol)
so i got angry at a really good friend today, and i am generally great at controlling my anger. but i guess i couldn't help it. It upsets me to know the fact that i messed up. and i should really just let it go. but i think it was just in the heat of the moment, and i just got caught up. i should really relax more... i needa stop acting so childish and stupid. i needa grow up a bit more...
I am a little worried about some of my best friends. i've recieved news about some of my closest freinds doing some things that aren't the best thing for they're health rite now. i really hope they are doing okay and that God watches over them. I had a good talk with Ronneza about this, and she was such a great listener and i felt really comfortable talking to her. thx Ronneza! : D she gave me some valuable insight, and then we started talking with Father John francis about viet food with Pierre and the convo just went haywire frm there. haha. i wanted to talk to Ronneza a bit more about one more topic, but Father came in on our convo. but it was all good tho. : )
I'm kinda excited for LOG tomorrow, costumes and all. i can't wait to wear mine. haha. it'll be great.
So i was talking to Steve Forton, and he's such a cool guy to talk to. i feel like i can open up with him about alotta stuff. hahaha. i hope i get to see him in person soon. i miss that fooolio. haha. we were talking about going to the Improv again... awe man. sooo much fun! srsly.
I also felt like i missed a good opportunity today to get something i realy wanted. i just wish i could turn back that clock again... but it's all good, i just hope things work out. yep im just hoping and making bold actions. lol
So i was talking with Valerie (my roomate) and we talked for such a long time. she always takes me away form my hw. but it's all good. what we talk about is such valuable, lifelong lessons. lol maybe im exaggerating it a bit too much. but yeah, what we talked about was really important. to me anyway. and im starting to feel very comfortable and open with her. and i appreciate her in my life. thank you lord for giving me her in my life, her support, advice, and personality is truly irrepaceable. hehe. we talked about me "changing my mindset" so to speak. i can't go tooooo much into detail, but that's what the gist of it was. and i really luv her advice. i feel like it's gonna work. i feel like i owe her so much. : D
so i had a semi-bad day start. but it got better as the day progressed. i laid off a bit of hw. and played tennis then bball. then the talk with Val really helped me out. so i feel better. i don't know wut i'd do without the mad support of others. i really thank them. today was a good healthy day, but iono about academic day. lol. but i did a bit of hw before i blogged and sleep tonite.
and to finish off this blog(which turned out longer than i expected)... i just wanna leave it off with this lyric frm the band called Elefant. the song entitled Misfit and a lil sumtin i typed up myself
"tell me your name... tell me your story... cuz im into it. running thru life... like a Misfit..."
"It's complicated... and im hella busy... and i dont' think i have much time. but i needa do this. i can do this. i have this resolve. i am determined. Ace with the new mindset..."
end time 3:12
good nite all
Sunday, October 26, 2008
I'm in a pretty good mood.
sup guys, iono who still reads my blog. lol cuz it's been about a month since i last wrote sumtin in here. i keep telling myself to write more stuff on my blogspot, but i never get around to it, or i get lazy, or don't feel like doing it, etc. but i really should write in more entries and stuff. wen i read other ppl.'s blogs, they have some really cool stuff in there, and i wanna share it with you guys, then maybe ppl. might actually read my blogspot more often. lol
anyways, a lot has happened since the last time i blogged. a month has passed, and so much has gone on, im not sure where to begin. so ima just type whatever comes to my head. so i made this quick list and i guess i'll expand on each of the following... hrm...this blog might turn out longer than what i expected. lol
1) so i know blogging about Tappas clubbing is long overdue, but yes, i shall blog about it. It was a lot of fun. seriously. Steve definetly made the night too man. It was practically a Smore hang out plus Steve and it was hella tite man. i luved it. my second time clubbin' and i just had a good time. a lotta sweaty ppl. hot environment, drunkards, u know how that goes, but it was all fun tho. let me tell u guys sumtin, Steve Forton knows how to dance, and he was battle this one guy that can pop really well too, and steve held his own, and then Kaba ppl showed up. and then we smores felt really kool for a couple of minutes. lol. cuz we started up a battle cirlce that ended up having kaba ppl. in there. haha. but in the end, we started our own dance cirlce again, and it was just kool. in the end, with the last song, we had a train line and just ended the nite, it was kool. i also felt like i learned sumtin. im not sure, but i felt like someone was teaching me sumtin on what i can do on the dancefloor, wuts acceptable and how far i can go... etc. like...iono how to describe it... but i don't think i'd be kool if i described it in a public blog, maybe ask me in person about this topic. lol.... anyway moving on! next subject we got to check out a nice viewpoint with Ronneza's exp. and good sense of direction. It was a beautiful, and cool night air with the stars shining brightly in the sky and the city lights down below us. it was just wonderful to look at, made u feel kinda powerful looking down upon the city, made u feel tall and known. haha. all in all, it was a good nite. even tho most of us had class the next day, we ddin't care. we just went out and came home late and just did our thing before school started. It was just AWESOME. a great nite to remember.
2)Steve also took some of us Smore's out to the Improv. and it was a lotta fun. man, i needed the good laff. such fun with virgin funny named drinks. srsly man, without mr. forton, the smore hang outs wouldn't have ever happend. we owe u one man. The Improv would also make a great date too. im definitely gonna hav to go bak there someday.... someday... *looks off in the sky... my eyes glaze over. a hopeful smile twinkles on ace's face.* lol sry, that was hella random
3)So apart from LOG, i've found and decided to become active in Kyrie. it has been a lotta fun, and made a lot of great new friends. there really is so much to learn from each of the varying catholic communities on campus. how we worship in different ways and the differences among the communities is quite intersting to observe and experience first hand. im kinda surprised that not many of us (catholics at uci that is) branch off and become more active in more than just one club. i feel like most of us (such as myself) become too complacent with where we are at, and don't want to experience and try new scenarios and things. i also feel like Race shouldn't be a factor in branching out to another community. There should be no such boundaries when it comes to praising God. u know? so i highly encourage everyone to just go out there and check out another catholic club besides the one you are already in!
4) i know i probably say this over and over... but i LOVE my family. they are so awesome, they support me so much. I don't think people close to me understand or realize how much my family supports me and encourages me. i dont' know where'd i'd be without God and Them. i am truly blessed, and i feel like i don't tell/show it enuf. if i ever have anyone to fall back on, it's God and my family. I always feel welcome and included with my family, not matter the age difference. i hang out with they're friends who are a couple of years older than me, and i feel accepted, and wanted. the feeling is irriplaceable. My parents also give me all sorts of medicine whether im sick or not, it's kinda like they're way of showing they love me even tho they dont' explicitly say it. i know my parent's and that's how they are. i seriuosly have bottle of medicine and herbs, and pills and juices and etc. and i forget what good they do for me, what am i suppose to use it for and how i am even suppose to use it. lol. but that's my parents and i know they love me. : D My siblings seriously support me so much, as in financially, emotionally, physically, mentally. the works man. they're like the whole package of awesomeness. they buy me food, giv me money to spend and hav fun with. invite me to the fun stuff they do, so that way i don't burn out frm school shizz and then some! Physical, mental, and economical support. and i can't thank them enuf for that. luv u guys! = D
5) MOTP(mass on the plaza) was really good, although i felt like i didn't do much/didn't put in as much effort as everyone else did, it still managed to turn out as a success. i heard there is even new talk of Interfaith getting a new building because of how great MOTP was. i hope all things go well. Mad props to UCC u guys did a lot and did a great job. all that hard work paid off eh? and MOTP Choir, so freaking talented man, i wish i was musically talented like u guys... im not sure if i have the time to learn how to play all the kool stuff u guys do, but maybe someday... i'll pick an instrument up and learn it.
6) Since i felt like Huan and I had the easier end of the stick with MOTP, I asked Huan if he was kool to back me up with coordinating UCC Rally. i knew i couldn't have done this alone. I definitely needed someone to spotcheck me. and it just so turns out that huan made an excellent partner in planning this rally. he really backed me up sooooo much with the planning and coordinating of everything. iono how the rally or I would've turned out by the nite it all went down. the rally coulda been like crap, and i coulda been hella stressed out. rofl.
So Huan and I were shooting for the stars with this rally, we were planning for 150+ ppl. to show up, but it ends up being about only approx. 50 ppl. lol. oh wellz. we both wanted it to be a really good turn out (which it was) but a good turn out as in it being a big rally with tons of ppl. out there i the crowd making noise jumping up n down sprit rally kinda thing. that's wut i was hoping for. but it's all good. we still had a fun filled spiritual nite. it was really dope. It still turned out to be a lotta fun even tho it wasn't what Huan and i expected. also... Huan and i have a confession to make... lol
we did a lot of last min. planning. like... on the spot planning, and with God's will, it just happend to work out. not sure how, but check this out. Huan and i planned so much... like weeks in advance. so Huan and i plan out with all the activites, moods, and transitions set. but what we didn't know was where HSLH was at. lol, so Huan knows it's across campus near Sci. Library. we go in and we plan for this rally in a totally different building (i think it was PSLH) LOL. so the nite of, Huan and i find out that we were planning a rally for a toally diff. building, and that taolly changed up position of choir, groups discussion numbers, booth for nametags. etc. so we did some mad scrambling, last minute copies with JPC. rosary ppl. for LOG. and there was just this that and the other, but for some reason, things worked out well.
just some future advice for others, and maybe myself next year, plan better with more specific activities. don't hav it during midterms week... and make sure you are planning this for the right room. lolz. i also felt like some groups weren't well represeted for at the UCC Rally. like... one catholic community had more support and more members show up than the other catholic community. i really wanted a lotta support and a lotta ppl. but i guess u can't hope too big if not everyone is down. u know? iono, let's just hope things are better next year. do i plan on doing rally again next year? lets' keep that as a BIG MAYBE ???
7) so helping out with 6:30 mass has been going okay. it's not that bad, but i know when there is holy days of obligatoin, or when i have to use the incents... i might fail. lol. iono man. im scared that ima mess up or hit someone in the head or sumtin. lol. I kinda don't like that fact that i have an obligation to show up really early for mass... i mean. don't get me wrong, i LOVE to serve the Lord, and what better way to do it than help serve for mass, but what about holiday's that i want to spend with my fam. bak at home for the weekend? or what about have the flexability to go to noon mass if i have something planned at 6:30 etc. iono man. i don't like that fact that im bound to something that's hard to get out of, and they way i see this, is that im going to have to do this for the next three years almost every sunday until i graduate... i mean, i have grown so much as in respecting mass more and i like what i do, but ti's just the fact that i have this obligation to do this. i needa just shut the eff up and deal with it tho. argh. iono man. i fee like i should stop whining like a lil B and just take up this cross and do it. because i know i can. iono man. i dun really know wut else to say. ah wuteverszzzz..... next topic
8) Dang... so like... i am like Wow'd rite now. My curiosity has definitely been sparked. it makes me wonder... Do you guys ever have this happen to u?: What you are just minding you own business doing you daily activities, a certain idea or thought constantly pops into your head and you just daydream about it for a while. and it constantly pops up throughout the day... the same thought/idea. where it affects the way you feel, your mood, the amount you eat. etc? do you/have you ever felt this way?
i am seriously doing my best not to get my hopes up, but i cant' stop thinking about it. i just... i think i'll leave it at that... ;-) = D
9) so i have made up my mind, i definetly want a longboard, and i want to learn how to ride one. My mind is made up... seriously. one i see something i like... i gotta have it man. i see those guys on longboards at school and i feel so jealous at how fast they zoom by me. and they look so kool doing it too! lol. i think i dreamt a couple of days ago that i was longboarding on campus, it was deserted, no one was there. i had my dark jeans, a blue V neck, and y aviators. i had a sector nine longboard, and i was bouncing on it across the bridge in front of interfatih before brandywine. i was carving up rind road and everything. and then i turn around and u know that backway behind ELH that ramp that leads downt to ET and ICS. i went down there, but i bent my knees on the long board and i wash inches off the groudn and carving up the road.
man... i wanna do that. lol. i wanna b able to do that. i wanna look cool and carve up ring road! snapz son. how cool would that be? haha
10) so just reccently, Joyce said soemthing to me that applies to me, that i didn't realize myself. i remember her exact words. she said "you know wut i noticed about the way you talk ace?" Me: "Whatya notice?" Joyce: "Everytime you talk, you always talk very passionately"
and that stament got me thinking. and i think i do speak that way. (not writing tho. as you can tell, i don't write very passionately) but i do feel like i speak with passion to help get my message and tone across. i just never noticed it until joyce mentioned it to me. i felt like i knew myself all too well... but i guess there are still areas about myself that i am not 100% on... haha figures eh?
well, if you read this whole blog in it's entirety. i salute u. lol you are defintely a trooper. : P but uh... yeah, i think this took ma couple of hours to write, maybe about 2 and a half hrs. to type this up. (wiht a few breaks of course) in any case. i hope that whoever is readin this has a blessed night, and hopefully i didn't waste ur time. i'll try to write more in smaller chunks instead of great big chunks (i think the reason why i do this type of blog style is because it's the way i do hw. i do hw wth big blocks of hrs. it's just my style i guess. heeh)
good night world, it's time i get some sleep
End time: 3:57 am. 26 October 2008
anyways, a lot has happened since the last time i blogged. a month has passed, and so much has gone on, im not sure where to begin. so ima just type whatever comes to my head. so i made this quick list and i guess i'll expand on each of the following... hrm...this blog might turn out longer than what i expected. lol
- clubbing at Tappas
- The Improv
- kyrie
- family is really good
- MOTP
- UCC Rally
- Helping out with mass
- I am wowed rite now
- longboarding
- speaking with passion
1) so i know blogging about Tappas clubbing is long overdue, but yes, i shall blog about it. It was a lot of fun. seriously. Steve definetly made the night too man. It was practically a Smore hang out plus Steve and it was hella tite man. i luved it. my second time clubbin' and i just had a good time. a lotta sweaty ppl. hot environment, drunkards, u know how that goes, but it was all fun tho. let me tell u guys sumtin, Steve Forton knows how to dance, and he was battle this one guy that can pop really well too, and steve held his own, and then Kaba ppl showed up. and then we smores felt really kool for a couple of minutes. lol. cuz we started up a battle cirlce that ended up having kaba ppl. in there. haha. but in the end, we started our own dance cirlce again, and it was just kool. in the end, with the last song, we had a train line and just ended the nite, it was kool. i also felt like i learned sumtin. im not sure, but i felt like someone was teaching me sumtin on what i can do on the dancefloor, wuts acceptable and how far i can go... etc. like...iono how to describe it... but i don't think i'd be kool if i described it in a public blog, maybe ask me in person about this topic. lol.... anyway moving on! next subject we got to check out a nice viewpoint with Ronneza's exp. and good sense of direction. It was a beautiful, and cool night air with the stars shining brightly in the sky and the city lights down below us. it was just wonderful to look at, made u feel kinda powerful looking down upon the city, made u feel tall and known. haha. all in all, it was a good nite. even tho most of us had class the next day, we ddin't care. we just went out and came home late and just did our thing before school started. It was just AWESOME. a great nite to remember.
2)Steve also took some of us Smore's out to the Improv. and it was a lotta fun. man, i needed the good laff. such fun with virgin funny named drinks. srsly man, without mr. forton, the smore hang outs wouldn't have ever happend. we owe u one man. The Improv would also make a great date too. im definitely gonna hav to go bak there someday.... someday... *looks off in the sky... my eyes glaze over. a hopeful smile twinkles on ace's face.* lol sry, that was hella random
3)So apart from LOG, i've found and decided to become active in Kyrie. it has been a lotta fun, and made a lot of great new friends. there really is so much to learn from each of the varying catholic communities on campus. how we worship in different ways and the differences among the communities is quite intersting to observe and experience first hand. im kinda surprised that not many of us (catholics at uci that is) branch off and become more active in more than just one club. i feel like most of us (such as myself) become too complacent with where we are at, and don't want to experience and try new scenarios and things. i also feel like Race shouldn't be a factor in branching out to another community. There should be no such boundaries when it comes to praising God. u know? so i highly encourage everyone to just go out there and check out another catholic club besides the one you are already in!
4) i know i probably say this over and over... but i LOVE my family. they are so awesome, they support me so much. I don't think people close to me understand or realize how much my family supports me and encourages me. i dont' know where'd i'd be without God and Them. i am truly blessed, and i feel like i don't tell/show it enuf. if i ever have anyone to fall back on, it's God and my family. I always feel welcome and included with my family, not matter the age difference. i hang out with they're friends who are a couple of years older than me, and i feel accepted, and wanted. the feeling is irriplaceable. My parents also give me all sorts of medicine whether im sick or not, it's kinda like they're way of showing they love me even tho they dont' explicitly say it. i know my parent's and that's how they are. i seriuosly have bottle of medicine and herbs, and pills and juices and etc. and i forget what good they do for me, what am i suppose to use it for and how i am even suppose to use it. lol. but that's my parents and i know they love me. : D My siblings seriously support me so much, as in financially, emotionally, physically, mentally. the works man. they're like the whole package of awesomeness. they buy me food, giv me money to spend and hav fun with. invite me to the fun stuff they do, so that way i don't burn out frm school shizz and then some! Physical, mental, and economical support. and i can't thank them enuf for that. luv u guys! = D
5) MOTP(mass on the plaza) was really good, although i felt like i didn't do much/didn't put in as much effort as everyone else did, it still managed to turn out as a success. i heard there is even new talk of Interfaith getting a new building because of how great MOTP was. i hope all things go well. Mad props to UCC u guys did a lot and did a great job. all that hard work paid off eh? and MOTP Choir, so freaking talented man, i wish i was musically talented like u guys... im not sure if i have the time to learn how to play all the kool stuff u guys do, but maybe someday... i'll pick an instrument up and learn it.
6) Since i felt like Huan and I had the easier end of the stick with MOTP, I asked Huan if he was kool to back me up with coordinating UCC Rally. i knew i couldn't have done this alone. I definitely needed someone to spotcheck me. and it just so turns out that huan made an excellent partner in planning this rally. he really backed me up sooooo much with the planning and coordinating of everything. iono how the rally or I would've turned out by the nite it all went down. the rally coulda been like crap, and i coulda been hella stressed out. rofl.
So Huan and I were shooting for the stars with this rally, we were planning for 150+ ppl. to show up, but it ends up being about only approx. 50 ppl. lol. oh wellz. we both wanted it to be a really good turn out (which it was) but a good turn out as in it being a big rally with tons of ppl. out there i the crowd making noise jumping up n down sprit rally kinda thing. that's wut i was hoping for. but it's all good. we still had a fun filled spiritual nite. it was really dope. It still turned out to be a lotta fun even tho it wasn't what Huan and i expected. also... Huan and i have a confession to make... lol
we did a lot of last min. planning. like... on the spot planning, and with God's will, it just happend to work out. not sure how, but check this out. Huan and i planned so much... like weeks in advance. so Huan and i plan out with all the activites, moods, and transitions set. but what we didn't know was where HSLH was at. lol, so Huan knows it's across campus near Sci. Library. we go in and we plan for this rally in a totally different building (i think it was PSLH) LOL. so the nite of, Huan and i find out that we were planning a rally for a toally diff. building, and that taolly changed up position of choir, groups discussion numbers, booth for nametags. etc. so we did some mad scrambling, last minute copies with JPC. rosary ppl. for LOG. and there was just this that and the other, but for some reason, things worked out well.
just some future advice for others, and maybe myself next year, plan better with more specific activities. don't hav it during midterms week... and make sure you are planning this for the right room. lolz. i also felt like some groups weren't well represeted for at the UCC Rally. like... one catholic community had more support and more members show up than the other catholic community. i really wanted a lotta support and a lotta ppl. but i guess u can't hope too big if not everyone is down. u know? iono, let's just hope things are better next year. do i plan on doing rally again next year? lets' keep that as a BIG MAYBE ???
7) so helping out with 6:30 mass has been going okay. it's not that bad, but i know when there is holy days of obligatoin, or when i have to use the incents... i might fail. lol. iono man. im scared that ima mess up or hit someone in the head or sumtin. lol. I kinda don't like that fact that i have an obligation to show up really early for mass... i mean. don't get me wrong, i LOVE to serve the Lord, and what better way to do it than help serve for mass, but what about holiday's that i want to spend with my fam. bak at home for the weekend? or what about have the flexability to go to noon mass if i have something planned at 6:30 etc. iono man. i don't like that fact that im bound to something that's hard to get out of, and they way i see this, is that im going to have to do this for the next three years almost every sunday until i graduate... i mean, i have grown so much as in respecting mass more and i like what i do, but ti's just the fact that i have this obligation to do this. i needa just shut the eff up and deal with it tho. argh. iono man. i fee like i should stop whining like a lil B and just take up this cross and do it. because i know i can. iono man. i dun really know wut else to say. ah wuteverszzzz..... next topic
8) Dang... so like... i am like Wow'd rite now. My curiosity has definitely been sparked. it makes me wonder... Do you guys ever have this happen to u?: What you are just minding you own business doing you daily activities, a certain idea or thought constantly pops into your head and you just daydream about it for a while. and it constantly pops up throughout the day... the same thought/idea. where it affects the way you feel, your mood, the amount you eat. etc? do you/have you ever felt this way?
i am seriously doing my best not to get my hopes up, but i cant' stop thinking about it. i just... i think i'll leave it at that... ;-) = D
9) so i have made up my mind, i definetly want a longboard, and i want to learn how to ride one. My mind is made up... seriously. one i see something i like... i gotta have it man. i see those guys on longboards at school and i feel so jealous at how fast they zoom by me. and they look so kool doing it too! lol. i think i dreamt a couple of days ago that i was longboarding on campus, it was deserted, no one was there. i had my dark jeans, a blue V neck, and y aviators. i had a sector nine longboard, and i was bouncing on it across the bridge in front of interfatih before brandywine. i was carving up rind road and everything. and then i turn around and u know that backway behind ELH that ramp that leads downt to ET and ICS. i went down there, but i bent my knees on the long board and i wash inches off the groudn and carving up the road.
man... i wanna do that. lol. i wanna b able to do that. i wanna look cool and carve up ring road! snapz son. how cool would that be? haha
10) so just reccently, Joyce said soemthing to me that applies to me, that i didn't realize myself. i remember her exact words. she said "you know wut i noticed about the way you talk ace?" Me: "Whatya notice?" Joyce: "Everytime you talk, you always talk very passionately"
and that stament got me thinking. and i think i do speak that way. (not writing tho. as you can tell, i don't write very passionately) but i do feel like i speak with passion to help get my message and tone across. i just never noticed it until joyce mentioned it to me. i felt like i knew myself all too well... but i guess there are still areas about myself that i am not 100% on... haha figures eh?
well, if you read this whole blog in it's entirety. i salute u. lol you are defintely a trooper. : P but uh... yeah, i think this took ma couple of hours to write, maybe about 2 and a half hrs. to type this up. (wiht a few breaks of course) in any case. i hope that whoever is readin this has a blessed night, and hopefully i didn't waste ur time. i'll try to write more in smaller chunks instead of great big chunks (i think the reason why i do this type of blog style is because it's the way i do hw. i do hw wth big blocks of hrs. it's just my style i guess. heeh)
good night world, it's time i get some sleep
End time: 3:57 am. 26 October 2008
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