Current song playing: Bruised by Jack's Mannequin

blog quote of the day: "We stood like statue's at the gate (...) I had to give it away... I had to give you away..." ---from the current song above

I really like the song above playing. For some reason, it makes me happy even tho the lyrics are hella emo. lol.

Today's mass sermon with FJF(father john francis) was quite exeptional.(remember, this was the feast of all souls day mass) i luved it. he told this story of when he was still studying and how he liked to study in a cemetery. Almost every day... he saw this one man come to the same grave with a boquet of beautifuul flowers and a basket full of food. and after a few hours, he would take everything back into his car and just leave. FJF observed this for a couple of days and eventually asked him. "Who is it that you are visiting?"

the man responds. "this is my wife who died a while back. about ten years ago... she meant so much to me. and i miss her dearly. She would cook food for me, and prepare it for my family everynight and the smell would consume the whole house, she would sometimes even put it into a nice basket like this. i would even complaing about the food sometimes! complaining about the taste. and now... i miss the smell of her cooking and her smell and cooking the filled the entire house. And now, it is too late to let her know how much i truly appreciated and loved her..."

I think this was one of the rare moments where i felt like a tear could come down during a mass. lol. and father told it so much better and with more emotion. but dang man... it really made me think of how much i take things for granted and how easy it is to take so many things for granted.

I don't know about u guys, but i seriously feel like i can do better in my life, in all aspects of my life as i try to balance my time and days for the rest of my life. i can be a better friend, better son/sibling, a better student, a better everything. i needa learn how to just... i just needa grow more. i know it won't happen over nite, but i just needa try. i needa put more effort in everything i do. and i have to stop being so self centered. i shud really be more considerate... *sigh* so many things i needa work on and so little time! >.< lol. be patient with me guys. mkay?

Thanks joyce, ur always a good listener : D

P.S. if steve forton is reading this, i just wanted to say thanks for inspiring me to blog again, but i just wanna say "Eff ur trunk Steve Forton! u jacked up my glasses!" lol jk

(i took a long time cuz of aim. haha) End time 12:01