an interesting day...

Current Song playing: "Love Lock Down" by Kanye West

Current Quote of the day: "Is the juice worth the squeeze?"

So today, i woke up hella late, which was nice, and Charlene always is always nagging me about "getting a life" and "waking up earlier" and etc. but hey man! i luv to sleep! lol.

Later in the day, i visited the Platon residence (Charlene and Charmaine's house) in Diamond Bar today, their house is ginormous man. It's like... 3/4 times bigger than my backyard and their house is super nice. (What else would u expect from D-bar rite? lol rich ass houses)

But Charlene and Charmaine's backyard disgusted me! ewww! so i walk to the backyard without my shoes cuz i took them off wen i entered the door. i took a few steps and i stepped into a small puddle, it was a perfectly sunny day! and im like... why is there a small puddle of water here? *i peer over and notice a small yellow stain below my feet on my right foot* (gross huh?) i hate wet socks lol. i just hate the feeling. so after inspecting the yard and making sure i dont' walk ont he grass, only the cemented part of their backyard, i notice i keep stepping on this very tiny pebble while i was talking with them. annoyed after stepping on it for the fourth time, i pick up this spherical object about 1/3 of the size of a penny with my hand and toss it in the grass. Charmaine: "ew! no aCe! don't touch that!" Charlene: "it could be poop!" I'm like... wut? i touch my nose and sniff my fingers in disbelief, and my fingers didn't smell like anything.(thankfuly they didn't smell like poop) but they explained that they have wild rabbits in their backyard and they poop all over the place, i quickly glanced at the surrounding floor and realize all these small black circular pellets all over the ground. a shiver of disgust went down my spine. i quickly ran to their faucet and washed my hands. pretty gross huh?

you would think Charmaine or Charlene would warn me about their backyard, or tell me to put on shoes BEFORE! i entered their backyard they themselves knowing that there is rabbit poop in all up in their backyard. rofl. i touched my nose rite after too! argh! Why!!!!! ROFL.

N E wayz....i got to see their backyard, and a lil bit of their house, their COCKatoo's yes, their cute lil pet bird cockatoos. (or at least i think they are cockatoos) They're hella cute, except that they bite, and i wasn't ballsy enuf to try to pet/hold them. (yeah, i know, i needa Man up rite? haha) And Charmaine was playing the piano and doing all these kool things on the piano, and she busted out Simple and Clean frm Kingdom hearts, and then i was like oh snapz! and then we practically had a concert goin in their house. mad skillz man. and then Charlene shoved Charmaine outta the way and started playing Aplogize by Juan(One) Republic. lol But the highlight of my visit was seeing Charmaine and Charlene's baby pics and when they were younger, they had pics of them hangin on their wall and stuff. they looked soooo cute! (makes you wonder what happened to them now rite? ROFL soooo just kidding lol. total joke. kay? haha) but it was really cool, seeing them in the past, and now. hahaha. i won't describe the pics cuz i feel like i might embarass them, but it was really cool visiting them. they got really cool haircuts too! it suits them well and it looks really great!

So i played rockband with my kuya once i got home, and then we went out to further celebrate my Kuya's birthday, we ate at Salo-Salo in Cerritos, went to Babies R us after (we have our reasons for visiting there... lol) and then instead of my kuya going to a strip club or bowling like we planned, we went to go watch Bolt with some Ben and Jerry's/starbux. it was really kool movie. i expected it to be more funny, but all in all, it had a really great storyline and it was entertaining to watch, but i feel like it's one of those movies that after you watch it once, and try to watch it again, it greatly looses it's appeal and significance. hahaha. iono if i'd be down to watch that movie again. (maybe in a couple of years frm now wen i don't remember wut happens lol) But yeah man. my kuya's 27 on Wednesday and we cont. to party it up till today. it was a great day/ birthday week for my fam. and esp for my kuya.

My black friday was really cool. I somehow managed to control myself and not but anything for me and instead, i got some early christmas shopping done. so that was really cool! it feels good to get stuff like that outta the way. = ) the next part is just getting presents for my Fam. that's always the hard part. esp. shopping for my Parents. sooo HARD. (that's what she said. *wink* rofl ) but yeah man... xmas shopping cud be considered one of the most tedious things to do, but in the end. it's all worth it. i was just talking to Charlene about shopping for girls and how hard it is. lol I'm glad i have my Ate's and cool home gurls to go shopping with so that way, they can give me good advice, and where to start to look for stuff. for example. on black friday, i was like... hey ate, where wud u find ____ and ____ in this store? (we're and jc penny, a very big one with 2 stories in the local mall) "oh! that's in the accessories, it's over here!" *less than 2 min. later* "here u go!" is it my poor sense of direction or do i just sux at shopping? lol it's like, girls are natural at this kinda shit. lol.

I don't want my break to end yet... but it's time to face reality and hit the books. : /

well, i think that's all i have to write about. hope you are all doing well.

End time: 1:31 am

thinking impulsively or stupidly?

Current Song: "We Match" by Gabe Bundoc
Current Quote : "i saw it coming, but not this soon..."

i sometimes wonder if im slacking off too much on my hw. i feel like i've been prioritizing socializing over schoolwork, but for some reason, im not as nervous as i normally would be. is that a sign that i shouldn't worry too much about me socializing? am i still balancing my time well with school and friends? How do i tell? i guess i'll find out when i see my end of the quarter grades... haha. i beleive in myself, but i jsut gotta make sure i don't get hella cocky and fail stuff. I'm not too sure what to think anymore. hehe.

i learned a new LOG tradition today from the GREAT DUMO, lol. it's called cressent bay. and charlene and i and Dumo took a stroll around the area of newport and checked out the outside of a museum and ate at panera bread. today was a great day with no hw accomplished. haha the normal aCe last year would probably b trippin out and hella nervous, but i want to escape frm that anxiety of being bound to my studies so much, but at the same time, i don't want to stop socializing and all at the same time, i dont' want my grades to slip. took much to ask? am i being greedy? hehe. well, we'll see what happens.

i got my window open for classes in about 7 hrs from now (8:15 to be precise) and i really hope i get the classes i want. hehe. i got really annoyed last year for my crappy pick in classes and was forced to be a late person for signing up for classes. i guess i didn't have enuf units under my belt, but now that i got an additional 8 units on me from summer school, i hope that did something with my registration day. hehe.

i daydreamed/felt like kissing you on the cheek today... weird huh? i'm not normally the one to be so brash and act upon such impulsive desires, but a part of me didn't really care if there were others around of watching. i ended up restraining myself, and not doing so nor trying to do so, but the point is that I'm not normally like this. It's kinda weird how im feeling rite now. would u call it, being stuck in an awk position? i wonder if i woulda got slapped in the face for kissing u on the cheek or trying to do so. Could i have thought/felt like doing this act because i thought u looked really cute today? or maybe because u are just a friend that i hardly know, and would like to learn more? Maybe you are just a friend that i want to show that i care for? or maybe it's because u intrigue me and perk my interest? or maybe it's just the fact that i actually have developed something more for u? lol. what really is it aCe?(maybe it's the question i bolded. lol) i don't really know. hahaa. interesting huh? i don't really know wut my heart is telling me. Am i just feeling stupid things? do i like this feeling? hard to answer that Q. i kinda do i guess. hehe.

enuf talk, im done for the nite, hope i get the classes tomorrow, and i hope i get better, and i hope that ppl. don't get sick frm me. i wish my kuya sonny a happy birthday. :-) Shout out to mr. Steve Forton for setting up another great comedy Improv nite. Thx to Ronneza Penalba for helping me out wiht finding my laptop and puttin it in nancy's black cabinet. thx a lot. and to all the alums who came downt this weekend and for your safety for the drive back home. it was great seeing all of you and spending time with everyone. u all make me smile. i hope everyone is doin well with all the rain, maybe it'll help with the forrest fires and such. alrite, i think ima go check other's blogs.

good nite all.

end time: 1:31am

lazy blog

daym, i got so much to write about, such a great weekend, but im feeling hella lazy. sry guys. lol i know, im coppin out once again, but hey! i did a shizz load on my previous blog. so don't complain. Lol. well, here it goes.

current song playing: "Breathing" by Yellowcard

Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold
And even though you're next to me I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything for you to call your own

And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?
My heart's sinking like a weight

Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free with each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you but it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of they have filled me up with doubt

And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?My heart's sinking like a weight
I can feel you breathing (your breathing)It's keeping (keeping) me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating (its beating)
Sinking (sinking) like a weight
How am I supposed to feel about the things I've done?I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you things will never be the same
The only love I ever knew I threw it all away
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating?My heart's sinking like a weight
I can feel you breathing (your breathing)It's keeping (keeping) me awake
Could you stop my heart? It's always beating (its beating)Sinking (sinking) like a weight

i bolded the lines with what i felt like stood out to me and it somewhat mirrored what i was feeling, but the other lines don't really mean much to me. lol. i know, i pick and choose what i like, not a good habit. haha. but anyways. yeah, don't analyze this too much if u do analyze this. it's not meant to be very deep anyway.

alrite, im tired. but all in all, i had an awesome weekend. Kyrie V-ball tounament, kyrie fam. hang out tomorrow, Benecon!, Shawshank hangout, Platon Residence, and the good times with the LOG alum. (and once again, it was all a joke with the can and LOG stole. lolz Truth or Dare at teh Platon residence was Redick! but sooooo much fun, probably the highlight and one of the most memorable thing this month. :-D Im not sure if some of the things i said in truth will have a lasting effect on ppl. and i hope i didn't offend ppl. cuz i do feel guilty, but i hope that u know that i care, even tho i can be inconsiderate sometimes, u know how u just wish u could have said things in a better light? iono, i think im just confusing ppl. even more. haha anyways. it was a great weekend. g'nite everbody!

---aCe

end time 1:12 am

Another Long blog

Current Song playing: "My First Love" by Passion (Accoustic)

Current Quote of the blog: "You can't depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus." ---Mark Twain

yo guys, this is what i hav to write, check the list out. haha. i guess it's been a few days that i've last blogged, so i thought i'd catch you all up with everything.

1. hella excited for benecon
2. piercing
3. dance battle on youtube
4. Ronneza made adobo for me yest.
5. got to hang out with steve today
6. eye liquids switch in contacts
7. saliva
8. storyhot sauce in a pocket
9. note left on lappy
10. i think i melted today...

1. Benecon is gonna be really tite dude... at first, i was a bit nervous, but now, im sooo totally pumped, i can see it really coming together and everyone is just gonna rock! we're gonna praise God tomorrow for sure. I really hope that one or more of my family members are able to see me and come out to Benecon. i kinda wanted them to come to Spirit Rally last year when i did my talk, but it's all good, they were busy and had their own thing to do. does anybody have that on rec. btw? i never told my family about that talk, and i just want to show them the talk i did and i would think they would want to know what happened. but then again, i wouldnt' want to worry them, maybe that's why i haven't told my siblings about my talk and what i talked about. haha. did i confuse u? sry guys. lol

But yeah, working with Janice has been really fun and she's such a great coMC to work with. woot! i just know that this Benecon is gonna be great, and it's a really great chance to praise Him with our open hearts and minds. hehe and i plus, i can't wait to see all the alums and stuff. and Brentz is gonna be sleeping over at my pad. and if all goes well, brentz and i will bet to sleep over charlene and Charmaine's place with Dumo. DOUBLE PRIZES! haha. n e way. yep. NORMS too. im excited and hungry just thinking about it. and i wanna see the look on DUMO's face. don't worry DUMO, u'll find out soon enuf. Muwahahaha! LOL

2. so, i know this might sound crzy, but i really want your honest opinion. just tell me bluntly what you think, i'd appreciate the feedback from anyone that knows me. haha. I've considered a facial piercing before. and i want to know wut u guys think. i've heard many different stuff about me getting a facial piercing.
I would want it on my left eyebrow. i want it off center, but closer to my ear, not my nose bridge. kinda like this pic here. http://www.nuclearcrayon.com/images/eyebrow.jpg
so tell me what you think, should i get it or not? would i even look good with it? can i rock it? i already know wut my siblings said about it. hehe

im not sure what my motivation is for such a thing. but i guess i just wanna do something cool and adventurous while im young, kind of like something that represents my youth, wen i was young and "in my prime" so to speak of my college years. cuz realistically, when ima start working and hitting up the business world, i can't have somethign like that, so i wud just want to be able to look bak and be like, man, i used to have that piercing there. haha. iono, maybe im being too simplistic and thinking too ideally (which i generally do in my daydreams and aspirations)

so feedback plz! i wanna know wut u think. kay? ur opinion is important to me. whoever u are. if you can take the time and are willing to read this blog, it prolly means that u are important to me and i would value ur opinion.

3. So... do you guys have a lotta time to kill rite now? (obviously, u would have time on ur hands cuz ur reading my long ass blog. lol) i was kikin' it with my awesome roomate Val. she's so dope, we baked cookies and dino cookies the other nite, and then she showed me one of the coolest vids i've ever seen on youtube. you gotta check it out; if you're really into the hip hop scence or even interested in cool dancing, check this out....(i put the vids in order for you and everything!)

THE BIGGEST ONLINE DANCE BATTLE EVER!!! It's about dance battles and stuff, but it's big time no holds bar, and on a macro level. get the big picture. haha check it out kay?

1. the challenge http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8a-FBSEFqcM
2. the response http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9-GJHr5W-J4
3. battle 2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UA7dEWKAT7Y
4. battle 2 response http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NECNIKmMgS8
5. so sick... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KJYm7d2M070
6. the conclusion... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnXlJFobvAU

i honestly feel like the team that won should have loss and the team that lost should have won, but that's just my opinion.

4. Shout out to Ronneza Penalba for making me Adobo the other day, it was bomb, and she used her mom's secret ingredient that she told me. i really appreciate it Ronneza! woot. i at some of it for dinner today. hehe

5. so today, before i went to my soc 63 class with O'Connell (race and ethnicity) i got to eat out with Steve (oh yeah, that's rite ladies, don't get jealous... lol) but yea, we ate at Taco Bell (good call steve! a meal under 3 bux! woot, i was full too! haha) and it was some good food, we got to catch up a lil bit even tho it wasn't a full hang out. but i will see him tomorrow, so im excited for that. hopefully we can get to hang out soon.

6. i saw Charmaine take off her contacts today, and somehow, the convo topic was switched to "what if you put on someone elses contacts, would you feel gross?" lol knowing that someone else's eye juices are in you eye frm wearing someone elses contacts (just hypothetically assume that u had the same eye grade as the other persons, and you needed to see so you can drive or somehting. lol ) i got creeped out a bit wen i thought about having eye solution that came out of someone else's eyes and not mind and putting that into my eyes.

speaking of which, how do u think i'd look like with contacts? do u think i look better with glasses? i'm considering contacts as well, but im hella scared to touch my eye. lol

7. my saliva story. lol it's kinda gross. so i was telling Anna, Ray, and Bellamee(Bellamay) about what Janice and i had planned out, i guess i was speaking so fast and so excitedly, that i happend to spit on my laptop and i didn't even notice. lol and it was a huge! droplet of saliva. lolz. so i didnt' notice rite... and Anna didn' wanna say n e ting to embarass me. lol so as eventually typed on my lappy, i was like... dude, i feel something wet on my laptop, wut the hell is this? LOL and then they both told me wut happend and i felt hella embarassed. lol pretty gross eh? be careful wen i spit mad rhymes or else salaiva just might shoot ur face. lolz

8. LOL i like this story too. so i was paying for my Kyrie T-shirt rite... and i took out my wallet to pay Helen (the kyrie president this year) and as i pulled out of my wallet, there was a KFC hot sauce packet. and she was like... uh... that's hella random man. LOL "It's like one of those games that goes like, guess wuts in my pocket!" (just to explaing myself, wen i went to go eat at taco bell today, it was the joint taco bell and kfc and i got hotsauce frm there and i put one in my pocket cuz i didn't wanna throw it away. lol)

9. as i've said before, the fewest words can really make my day. the smallest things really count in life that we somtimes over look, and take for granted. today, i let charlene and charmaine use my laptop for a bit, even tho i had hw to do on my laptop, i let them use it anyway cuz i felt like my hw wasn't too important at the time. lol. so yeah...we socialized watched a few youtube vids and laffed for a while and stuff. Charmaine with her threats like "ima bust your butt ace!" and Charlene with her even scarier threats. "you know wut.... ima kill you man..." (no lie, they really said this rofl) and after they were done with my laptop and i stopped making them irritated and they stopped threatening me and left for the museum, i found a cute lil note on my laptop that they wrote.

"NOVEMBER 20, 2008



BETTAH WATCH YO' BACK.

JKAY.

SEE YOU IN CLASS TOMORROW. ALONG WITH YOU-KNOW-WHO.

YEAH.

THAT IS ALL.









BYE BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

-- Charlene

P.S. THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME USE YOUR COMPUTER REPEATEDLY.Your computer is hard to type with. :)---------------------------------------------------



THESE SHOES ARE MINEZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

-Charmaine"

haha cute huh? it was much apprciated. u see, it's kinda the small stuff that i really appreciate and enjoy life that just puts a smile on my face and makes me happy. :-)


10. OMB, i think i melted a bit today. hahaha so... i was saying my byes in Kyrie, i was leaving and stuff and i was in a great rush so i can talk to anna and let them know and help out with pre-benecon stuff. so i only said my goodbyes to the ppl. i was walking past and knew. and i skipped many ppl. just as i was about to leave the interfaith doors, i see this one girl (whom i happen to find very attractive...) say "oh! ur leaving? Bye ace! *she waved and smiled at me*" i smiled realy big and said bye, i felt like i kinda melted a lil bit there. *aCe bites knuckles to help control emtion he's feeling rite now*LOL. sry, i just had to write that part in my blog today. and there i s a major part that you are missing, ther is a major reason why i melted. it's the way she said it, ask me about it later why i melted. there's a reason why, i just won't melt that easily. lol :-P and for some of you, who think u know who im talking about, you are mistaken, it was someone else. i think the only person i told this story to was Anna Olivares so far. lol.

n e wayz. i think this blog entry has gone on long enuf. i guess it's time for some good nites rest, i'll need it for tomorrow's Benecon. hope to see you there!

End Time: 2:21 am

fast blog

sry guys, i can't do the regular blog tonite, im really lame. lol. i left my battery charger for my laptop in ICS where i was studying. Charlene was kind enuf to giv me bak my charger in LOG. but i left it in Interfaith before i left. lol. sux eh?

well yeah, i just wanted to write something that i felt was important. Im not too sure if you guys ever saw the movie "Run Fat Boy Run" with Simon Pegg (from sean of the dead and hot fuzz) but yeah... i felt like his character today. it is kinda funny how i just reccently watched this movie with my fam. outting last week, and then today, i am totally in his shoes as he is portrayed in the movie, but in real life, i don't think i can explain it all in my blog, but u can talk to me in person or call me up if ur intersted in hearing the story. lol. just remind me.

i think im my next blog, ima talk about something that i've considered that i've heard multiple opinions about. in my next blog, i'll def. appreciate comments/feedback. more next time wen i actually have my charger! : D hahaha

nite all
end time : 11:50

New Tradition???: Sunday Shout Outz

Current Song: "Don't Trust Me" by 3Oh!3




Current Quote of the Day: "Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught." ---Oscar Wilde

I really like to agree with the quote above. i sometimes feel like a good amount of the material of what i learn in college will have no relevance to me and my future eneavors. It is favorable to obtain the power of knowledge in general, but how will that affect me and my workplace or my career? I often question this sometimes, but i think what my main reason that keeps me motivated not to fail is that im paying a good chunk of money to be here, and i would hate myself if i let my parents down, and that the experience of the college life in general is just wonderful.

In any case... i was debating about weather or not i should start this new tradition. I want to have every sunday blog(even tho it is technically monday rite now) dedicated to the people who really affected my life this past week or who i really saw the light of God in them or really helped me out when i was in a pinch. etc. I'd have a list of the people who helped me out and thank them on my blog. unfortunately, im hella tired, and i don't think i can remember or write down all the people's names who have helped me out this week. but from today on, i think i might start this next week sunday or something. i feel like i'd be a good tradition. what say you? hehe

erm... that 3Oh!3 song was really cool that i heard it on the radio. the music vid. is kinda funnie too. so check it out.

i feel like im kinda behind with the school work (aren't we all? haha) but i gotta keep trying to do better. maybe i shud ease up slightly on the social aspects of my life even tho i felt like i was making extrememly good progress. hrm... lol. well, we'll find out what i end up doin and how i end up doing.

My sister's birthday was awesome! happy birhtday ate ann! and UCC Park day was great too! erm... more details on that later (or i might not write about it at all >.<)

i wanna just end this blog now... yep... nite all. : D

End time: 1:00AM

Shopping and School

Current Song of the moment: Feather by Nujabes (i've been feeling in the mood for Nujabes or a lil jazzy feel lately)

Current Quote of the Day: "The United States is a nation of laws: badly written and randomly enforced." ---Frank Zappa (i have no idea who this guy is. lol)

today was a chill day. just had one class, went to the dermatologist, and went shopping for my siblings' birthdays this month. I got Ate Ann and Kuya Son some really cool stuff. u know that feeling wen u get a present for someone and you get excited to giv it to them? ahha and Charlene accompanied me today and it was really cool. she really helped me out a lot with her advice/opinion with what i buy. haha.

I'm pretty excited to celebrate my Ate's Bday coming up this Sat. i can't wait.

somebody kool really made me feel important and luved today. and it was really cool and outta nowhere too. i was shopping for Ate Ann's gift, and Aubrey (this really cool guy who is in my fam. that just joined LOG) asked me if i wanted to hang out with him cuz he was goin with some of his friends to D&B's. but he asked if i was 21+. :/ lol so i said no, so i didn't end up going. but i really did appreicate the invite. it made me feel special and wanted u know? even tho to some ppl. it seemed kinda small; to me, it felt really cool. haha. iono... it was just cool in my opinion. thx Aubrey!

i reccently found out that i didn't do so hot in one of my midterms. (ten pts. below the mean) so yeah... i don't feel like i'm having too much fun, and i thought i did okay on that midterm too... : / i guess i really needa "aCe" the final so to speak. i needa work harder. I can do better, i know it. >: l (that's suppose to b my determined face, lol)

my bak hurts a lil bit


well, i intended this blog to b semi-short, hope u are all doin well. ask me for prayers if u need them. : D

End time: 12:08

How i currently feel

Current song playing: Digital Love by Daft Punk (they're my favorite techno/deephouse artist btw!)

Current Quote of the day: "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." ---Mother Teresa

(just a lil background info, this is an excerpt from Daft Punk's movie called Interstellar 5555. It was an animated movie that they made that shows a story this group in outer space and something bad happens to their band members, and the story gets really sci fi. there is now talking and it is pretty much a musical of their cd with aided animation. kind of like a modern day Gorillaz kinda thing. i reccoment u watch the movie. u can find it on youtube. the whole thing. i havent' seen the movie since Jr. High. it's kinda nostalgic to see this clip again. haha i really like this vid. clip, esp. where he daydreams about the girl and they're in the medow and stuff. i kinda do wut that guy does, except without hte girly meadow shit. rofl.)


"Digital Love"

Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long
Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long
The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true

Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?




It's all a balancing act in my opinion. and i honestly don't know wut to do...

There's the girl that i constantly think about, and considered (note the past tense) or pursuing. i am not sure if i should or not. (she is ridiculously beautiful... but is there really more to her than just physcial attraction?)

There is my friends that i have tried really hard to grow closer with and want to pursue closer relationships with those friends. am i really willing to trade my efforts for my friends for a woman?

And there is/are the girl(s) that might have a crush on me. (this is purely speculation and just my guess. i have no idea if i am right at all. i could be totally wrong and bending things outta shape)

Now what do i do? let's not joke ourselves, women take up much effort, time and money. lol. do i really have that rite now. can i afford that rite now? This girl i have in mind doens't seem like a longterm relationship... but why do i still think about her?

i really wanted and think im leaning more towards growing closer with a small groups of friends. i really wanted to focus on that for the time being and not worry about the time, and effort, and money spent on girls. but why is it that i still constnatly think of that one girl? why? why? lol why is that? iono man. something tells me that i shouldn't pursue her... and i can keep my options open with a select few, but what do i really wanna do? More importantly...what does God want me to do?

i feel like i really sux at hearing God's will for me. rite now, i think i shud just concentrate on some really good friendships, i feel like it'll take me a long way. cuz if i try to go for one girl... i might end up slipping all the time and effort i've been working so hard to open up and earn new friendships and ppl.'s trusts. etc.

but then again... i still kinda don't know wut to do. *sigh* lol.

I think im starting to learn how to balance my life tho. and that's something new and good for me. im tryin to balance (or learn how to balance) my social, school, and family, and religious time. I feel like im getting better at it. What God has in store for me, i hav no idea. but yes...i'll be patient, and wait. maybe i shud just keep things the way they are, keepin the status quo son. I like where i am now and the direction im facing in life. why not go with the flow eh?

all in all... :-D Life is good. Seize the day people!

end time: 12:16

My view on Politics

Current song: "Sincerely" by Tsutchie (a group who work with Nujabes who are known for doing the intro music for the popularized anime Samurai Champloo)

Current Quote: "Politics, it seems to me, for years, or all too long, has been concerned with right or left instead of right or wrong. ---Richard Armour

So i hav reccently been updating myself with other ppl's blogs, and it looks like the hot topic of the week is all about politics. lol and i feel like i shud do wut the cool thing is... "what everyone else is doing." lol jk doin wut everyone else is doing is not always the cool thing. but n e ways. moving on, i felt like i couldn't leave a deccent comment on ppl's blogs cuz i have nothing to say about politics. What also prompted me to write this blog was because i just reccently discussed this matter with Ronezza. we had a pretty good chat about it. haha.

But in case most of you don't know... I have a very strong dislike towards politics.

but it's not like, if ur all passionate about politics and such, i won't hate you at all, in fact, i totally respect that and think it's cool that you are very knowledgable about the way our nation operates and are up to date with what's going on.

but the following are my reasons for not liking politics:

1. It is such an easy way to get yourself into an argument with someone else: and things can get heated in just under a minute. I'm not sure if that makes me a wussy, (cuz i like to avoid confrontation) but that's what i do. so many arguments and rebutles, it's like... who do i believe? it really gets to much for me to handle and process. u know? number two ties in well with number one.
2. You really have to do sooo much reasearch in order to find out what's what and who stands for what opinion. etc.: if you are making an argument with someone, you really have to be super knowledgeable to hold your own wen defending your position. it is just too much work! seriously. and how credible are your sources? are you sure you know exactly what you are saying is 100% fact and true?
3. Who's to say that who i vote for will acutally follow through with what he/she is saying?: i honestly think that ppl. will say anything to be where they want to be. Kind of like ppl who are willing to do sum crzy shit just to be on TV. ya know? lol. it's like... dude.. calm down. hahaa. but seriously, some presidential candidate could say the best things in the most eloquent manner, but he could probably act like the next Hitler. all im saying is, if America votes for the most popular and seems like the best choice by landslide, and he becomes some crzy dictator, at least i could say that i didn't vote. : P actions defintely speak louder than words. ALWAYS.
4. You don't get sucked into Jury duty: i don't know about u, but i dun wanna wait 3 hrs and dive somewhere to hear someone sueing and complaining about some random crap just to earn profit. "America is a place where you can sue anyone for anything and get away with it!" ---unknown, i forgot where i got that quote from, but i heard it from somewhere and it said something along those lines. i feel like jury duty is just another distraction in life where you have to stop your current daily life and activities and handle someone else's problem. sry, iono if that came out as too harsh, but that's how i feel about it. i also think like the less my name doesn't make it to some govt. related list of names, the better it will be for me in the long run. as in getting drafted(i really pray there is no drafts ever again), or jury duty, or wutever the hell it is. the more my name isn't associated with the govt, i feel like it'll b better int he long run.
5. God's will. I don't know how God and politics really fit well with each other. How sure are we that God will's a certain candidate to win and lead a nation instead of another candidate. It's crzy stuff to think about man. It's always been separate... and i honestly don't think i can draw the line between this prop and that prop, or this person is better than that person. It sux to compare ppl. i honestly feel like comparing yourself to others is a bad measurement. Always compare yourself to your own abilities. And it sux to compare a person you don't know to another person. Who is to say that one person is a much better role model than the other.
6. "I have enough faith in humanity, that they will research and vote properly enough for me to thrive and prosper well." im not sure if i have an overly strong indiference and i am just too stubborn, but this is the way i feel. Unless i feel like something really bothers me to a personal level, then i'll probably do sumthing about it, such as vote or petition, or rally up ppl. and protest, or speak on it. etc. Im not sure if my strong indifference is a sin or not... i sometimes wonder. but all in all, i see voting kind of like Wikipedia. people will check upon sources and research and like, everything will work itself out and the best answer will come upon the masses. Why shud i put in my two cents when i know absolutely nothing about the subject, haha.

well then, that sure was a lot. most of my blogs aren't that serious. lol. but yes, i thought it was neccessary to write about it.

another thing before i wrap up this blog, i really like Kirst.'s quote on her status. "I'm looking at you and my heart likes the view." lol. i think that's a really cool quote.

I love my family and freinds. i had a really good weekend. i got to hang with my family, see some friends that i haven't talked to or seen for such a long time (some years, others months) and i got to celebrate a good friends' birthday who's birthday was oct. 16. lol so im totally a month late, but i still took her out to lunch, so it was all gewd. i luved my weekend. :-D

Maybe my next blog will be about my parents and how i feel about them and some current news that i heard is happening. Tune in next time! lol

end time 1:52

i shud really b asleep

Current song playing: Ice Box by Omarion

Current Quote of the day: "Decisions... Decisions... Decisions..." (what to do?)

so i know i shud really b sleeping rite now considering the fact that i hav class at 11 tomorrow, but i think i've just realized that i have a newfound addiction, blogging and reading other's blogs. lol. there is on person's blog in particular that i'd like to read before i sleep after i write this up. well... i went to kyrie today and the afterevent was a movie at Grace's place, she lives pretty cloes to me, and we watched iron man. i luv that movie. hahah. well.... i kinda wanna do this blog differenty this time. take a look at the lyrics i've pasted. i want some feedbacks, you can comment me, or find me on aim, or even email me or sumtin, facebook, iono, but i just want u guys to tell me what you think. i wanna hear ur opinions.

im not sure if you guys knew this about me, but one of my favorite passtimes is to read and analyze song lyrics. (most esp. the emo ones! >.<) The Academy Is... (one of my top 20 fav. bands) and i just want u to kinda analyze the song a bit. i wanna know wut u think about it. lol i hav an interpretation of it, but i don't wanna say it yet and let it get in the way of ur interpreation of the song. just tell me what u think about it, esp. the parts i bold. i really like this song, i all encourage you to find this song and listen to it. lol

here it goes:

Lyrics to Down And Out :

Out of the box, Out of the KitchenOut of the world shes grown so fearful of
So fearful ofI don't ever want to see you again.

I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again, my friend.
This is the end.

Out of the house, she grabs the keys, runs for the hills and doesn't leave a letter that way the inbox will be much better
Away from the man that shes grown so fearfull of so fearfull ofI don't ever want to see you again.

I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.

O why o why you wear sunglasses in the home when the sun went down about an hour ago
O why o why you wear sunglasses in the home when the sun went down about an hour ago

Life should not be that wayAlways up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep

That Make you stutter when you speakAlways up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep
That Make you stutter when you speak

Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.

Now that I'm grown, I've seen marriages fall to piecesNow that I'm grown, I've seen friendships fall to pieces

Weekend warriors and our best friends the writers weren't kidding about how all good things must end then again somethings then again somethings are far too good somethings are far too good to go away- Let go.

Always up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep That Make you stutter when you speak
Always up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep That Make you stutter when you speak

Speak now or forever hold your peace.

We won't forget Tony or Johnny, oh, oh.No matter how they miss us they still wish us the best on the road.Garrett took a plane to Paris, France.Now he's cooking up entrees for the pretty, pretty French girls.Bookends, Blue and Clarity, to The Wall and Grace.Darkside, Wish and a toast to the late Figure 8.

Weekend warriors and our best friends.The writers weren't kidding, but the good things will live in our hearts.

Always up or down, never down and out.You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak.Always up or down, never down and out.

You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. Always up or down, never down and out.You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. Always up or down, never down and out.

You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak.Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.

http://www.lyricsmania.com/lyrics/academy_is_the_lyrics_3995/from_the_carpet_[ep]_lyrics_24935/down_and_out_lyrics_287932.html

well, i think that's all for tonite, and u don't hav to analyze this if u don't want to of course, i just happen to find it fun i guess. :-P iono. i promise that in my next blog, i will talk about my views on politics. ahhaa. now time to read that person's blog. lol Nite all! : D

"sleep now or forever hold you peaCe in pieces..."

end time: 2:05 am

The Window of Opporunity

Current Song Playing: "We've got a Big Mess on Our Hands" by The Academy Is...

Current Quote: "Speak Now or forever Hold your Peace in Pieces..." by The Academy Is... in the song Down and Out (i know, the quotes hella emo, but i felt like it applied.lol)

do you guys ever get the feeling that your window of opportunity has just closed. have you guys ever experienced that or felt that way? and you just realize it? hahah. like u had ur ipod blasting in ur ears when opportunity was knocking in the front door.

anyways, i felt like the above has just slipped past me. i don't know, is it due to my lack of exp.? or my poor choice of words? my nervousness? i feel like a fool sumtimes. but it's okay. im not gonna beat myself up over it u know? haha. it's all good. im just gonna learn frm my experience and further grow as an individual. As William Hung once said, "...and I have no regrets..." : ) ate may and i talked about regret once, maybe that's another subject topic for another time. but i'll blog about it eventually.

i still have so many graces and blessings in my life. i am doing well, and i am strong. : D things are still looking up.

I want to be able to support those around me, but sumtimes i feel a lil useless and powerless. the most i can do is pray... i hope my prayers work and are answered. i see so many of my fellow brother's and sister's in christ who are struggling, i want to help, i really do. if there is anything i can do, i want to be a part of it and i want to help you be your crutch. i just need to be stronger in order to support those around me. two letters... I.T.

well, i think im dun for today. g'nite all. : )

Today is a good day.

Current song: D.A.N.C.E. by Justice

Current Quote: "You are such a P.Y.T." ---from the song mentioned above (i know im copping out with the quotes... lol but it's hella late and i dun wanna look for a quote that reflects my current mood. :-P) does n e one remember this micheal jackson reference? lol

i just wanted to make this a really quick blog, i had such an eventful day. so much sharing with people. Each day is a new day. I luve every minute of it. I really lik to thank joyce for helpin me out. whatever she told me is working and i have a better and more pos. attitude.

Today i shared with my LOG fam a bit and it really helped and i felt genuine and luved bak. I luv LOG. i had a lot of one on one convo's and i really liked all of them. Today was just a great day in general and i feel like im getting closer and feelings a sense of belonging somehow. lol i even talked to FJF (father john francis) about this problem, and he is just such a wise man. there was a talk with Bellameeeee, charlene, steve, charmaine, janice, and FJF. i can't thank God enuf for all my wonderful blessings today and all the beautiful people in my life and all the sharing and caring and laffs and... just everything. im in a great mood! are you? hehe. take care everyone. i think i'll sleep now.

p.s. sry i didn't get into the details and specifics in my blog today, but just know that i am praying for all of you that confronted me about your problems, if you need prayers, just ask me. no problem. ;-)

i luv life and this world. good nite God and all. : D

Current song playing: Bruised by Jack's Mannequin

blog quote of the day: "We stood like statue's at the gate (...) I had to give it away... I had to give you away..." ---from the current song above

I really like the song above playing. For some reason, it makes me happy even tho the lyrics are hella emo. lol.

Today's mass sermon with FJF(father john francis) was quite exeptional.(remember, this was the feast of all souls day mass) i luved it. he told this story of when he was still studying and how he liked to study in a cemetery. Almost every day... he saw this one man come to the same grave with a boquet of beautifuul flowers and a basket full of food. and after a few hours, he would take everything back into his car and just leave. FJF observed this for a couple of days and eventually asked him. "Who is it that you are visiting?"

the man responds. "this is my wife who died a while back. about ten years ago... she meant so much to me. and i miss her dearly. She would cook food for me, and prepare it for my family everynight and the smell would consume the whole house, she would sometimes even put it into a nice basket like this. i would even complaing about the food sometimes! complaining about the taste. and now... i miss the smell of her cooking and her smell and cooking the filled the entire house. And now, it is too late to let her know how much i truly appreciated and loved her..."

I think this was one of the rare moments where i felt like a tear could come down during a mass. lol. and father told it so much better and with more emotion. but dang man... it really made me think of how much i take things for granted and how easy it is to take so many things for granted.

I don't know about u guys, but i seriously feel like i can do better in my life, in all aspects of my life as i try to balance my time and days for the rest of my life. i can be a better friend, better son/sibling, a better student, a better everything. i needa learn how to just... i just needa grow more. i know it won't happen over nite, but i just needa try. i needa put more effort in everything i do. and i have to stop being so self centered. i shud really be more considerate... *sigh* so many things i needa work on and so little time! >.< lol. be patient with me guys. mkay?

Thanks joyce, ur always a good listener : D

P.S. if steve forton is reading this, i just wanted to say thanks for inspiring me to blog again, but i just wanna say "Eff ur trunk Steve Forton! u jacked up my glasses!" lol jk

(i took a long time cuz of aim. haha) End time 12:01

The back of your head is ridiculous!

so i want to create some traditions everytime i blog. what i've been doing is putting the end time i stop writing every time i finish a blog. i also wanna start putting the song im listening to when i start bloggin and a quote. so here starts the tradition. this is history in the making folks! (haha okay... maybenot, but who cares rite?)

Song listening to as i started blog: Jason Mraz "I'm Yours"

Quote of the day blog: "The language of friendship is not words but meanings" ---Henry David Thoreau

So i've had a pretty shitty week this week. lol. i mean... if i think about it, things could always be worse, but yeah, my week didn't start off with a band, lets put it that way. haha. i recieved some bad news early on in the week from a few of my closest friends and that kinda go me downer. I got into another heated argument with a close friend of mine at UCI on wednesday. and then 2 midterms Thursday Friday to follow that up. so things have been kinda interesting lately.

but i mean... i honestly don't know wut i'd do without my friends, the advice of all the people i talked to, and just... the mad support from so many varying ppl. i can't thank God enuf for blessing me this week despite all the bad things that went down this week.

on the plus side of things, my week really turned over a new leaf by the time i finished my midterms. My Halloween was effing awesome man! the best halloween i've ever had. I dressed up as a frenchie for LOG. and i was a wannabe Filipino Kanye West on Halloween. it was a lotta fun man. i helped out for mass on friday(eve mass for all saints day) and chilled with Mustard Seeds for a bit at interfaith. i really like the fact that im trying to broaden my horizons with the varying catholic clubs on campus. I'm not sure how great of an impact being on UCC CORE has had on me, but as of rite now, im not really complaining. hehe...

but anyway! my halloween was friggin awesome man. i chilled at interfaith for a bit, ate, i didn't get to see my sister, but that's cool. and i headed over to sherry and Jen's place... and i seriously love they're place. but it's more about company than anything. Steve Forton came over and so did Myk Bareto. Joyce Charmaine, and Charlene and I just kiked it there and we really had a good time even tho we didn't even really do anything Halloween and scary looking, we all still enjoyed ourselves, and each other's company. afterall, isn't that what the spirit of halloween is all about? friendship and happiness? lol.

we freaking played duck hunt man! how more halloween can u get than that man. hahhah. duck hunt, cards, a lot of conversing. eating candy and food. connect for. more and more conversing. lots of one on one bonding. i don't mean to sound sappy or anything, but it was really cool and i felt like it was the major highlight my week.(that turned frm crap to cool). we stayed up till 6 am practically seeing the sunrise come up. i talked to Sherry about a lot of stuff... and man, it's like we never get tired of talking to each other. haha. like, we always have something to say or listen about,and it's like we can just talk for hours and still not get bored u know? u know how rare that is? it's crzy man. and hanging out with a bunch of really cool and close friends, it's just awesome man. i mean... around 4:30am i think, we got into story telling i think. (Charmine has some good stories) haha. and then somehow, we bridged our convo into a debate of marriage and the importance of marrying out of love or economic status and how valuable/important certain factors apply to happiness and lasting marriages. Everyone put in their own two cents here and there. I had my own views, Charlene had her own views, Steve was looking at it and pointing out thigns he learned from some of the classes he's taken. and it's crzy how we can discuss somehting like that so early in the morn without sleep and we are all still tite and good frenz. u know?

we also busted out some books with Interview Questions. lol... iono why that happend, but i asked Sherry if i could borrow those books for a bit, and next thing u know, we're all in a big circle asking each other Interview Questions. lol. crzy huh? we could either answer the Question just to make everyone laff, or answer it as if it were a real interview, then we'd critique each person's answer. Steve came up with some awesome answers. lol! and charmaine was sooo harsh when she was pretending to interview Charlene. it was ridiculous man. it was good times tho.

Hrm... maybe i'm going into too much detail with this blog. lol. but yeah... just in a nutshell, steve told sum good stories, we all talked, and did stuff that was very unhalloween related, and we had a blast, we slept over, and the next day, we got some in n out. I played tennis the following day, and just chilled. The days after my friday midterms have been great so far. i wonder wuts gonna happen next...

im feeling pretty tired man. i think i'll just stop rite here. another very long blog entry huh? i needa learn how to condense and shorten my thoughts into a concise manner. daym i sux at writing. haha. nite ya'll

hope everyone's safe and doing fine.

---end time 1:58