New Tradition???: Sunday Shout Outz

Current Song: "Don't Trust Me" by 3Oh!3




Current Quote of the Day: "Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught." ---Oscar Wilde

I really like to agree with the quote above. i sometimes feel like a good amount of the material of what i learn in college will have no relevance to me and my future eneavors. It is favorable to obtain the power of knowledge in general, but how will that affect me and my workplace or my career? I often question this sometimes, but i think what my main reason that keeps me motivated not to fail is that im paying a good chunk of money to be here, and i would hate myself if i let my parents down, and that the experience of the college life in general is just wonderful.

In any case... i was debating about weather or not i should start this new tradition. I want to have every sunday blog(even tho it is technically monday rite now) dedicated to the people who really affected my life this past week or who i really saw the light of God in them or really helped me out when i was in a pinch. etc. I'd have a list of the people who helped me out and thank them on my blog. unfortunately, im hella tired, and i don't think i can remember or write down all the people's names who have helped me out this week. but from today on, i think i might start this next week sunday or something. i feel like i'd be a good tradition. what say you? hehe

erm... that 3Oh!3 song was really cool that i heard it on the radio. the music vid. is kinda funnie too. so check it out.

i feel like im kinda behind with the school work (aren't we all? haha) but i gotta keep trying to do better. maybe i shud ease up slightly on the social aspects of my life even tho i felt like i was making extrememly good progress. hrm... lol. well, we'll find out what i end up doin and how i end up doing.

My sister's birthday was awesome! happy birhtday ate ann! and UCC Park day was great too! erm... more details on that later (or i might not write about it at all >.<)

i wanna just end this blog now... yep... nite all. : D

End time: 1:00AM

Shopping and School

Current Song of the moment: Feather by Nujabes (i've been feeling in the mood for Nujabes or a lil jazzy feel lately)

Current Quote of the Day: "The United States is a nation of laws: badly written and randomly enforced." ---Frank Zappa (i have no idea who this guy is. lol)

today was a chill day. just had one class, went to the dermatologist, and went shopping for my siblings' birthdays this month. I got Ate Ann and Kuya Son some really cool stuff. u know that feeling wen u get a present for someone and you get excited to giv it to them? ahha and Charlene accompanied me today and it was really cool. she really helped me out a lot with her advice/opinion with what i buy. haha.

I'm pretty excited to celebrate my Ate's Bday coming up this Sat. i can't wait.

somebody kool really made me feel important and luved today. and it was really cool and outta nowhere too. i was shopping for Ate Ann's gift, and Aubrey (this really cool guy who is in my fam. that just joined LOG) asked me if i wanted to hang out with him cuz he was goin with some of his friends to D&B's. but he asked if i was 21+. :/ lol so i said no, so i didn't end up going. but i really did appreicate the invite. it made me feel special and wanted u know? even tho to some ppl. it seemed kinda small; to me, it felt really cool. haha. iono... it was just cool in my opinion. thx Aubrey!

i reccently found out that i didn't do so hot in one of my midterms. (ten pts. below the mean) so yeah... i don't feel like i'm having too much fun, and i thought i did okay on that midterm too... : / i guess i really needa "aCe" the final so to speak. i needa work harder. I can do better, i know it. >: l (that's suppose to b my determined face, lol)

my bak hurts a lil bit


well, i intended this blog to b semi-short, hope u are all doin well. ask me for prayers if u need them. : D

End time: 12:08

How i currently feel

Current song playing: Digital Love by Daft Punk (they're my favorite techno/deephouse artist btw!)

Current Quote of the day: "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." ---Mother Teresa

(just a lil background info, this is an excerpt from Daft Punk's movie called Interstellar 5555. It was an animated movie that they made that shows a story this group in outer space and something bad happens to their band members, and the story gets really sci fi. there is now talking and it is pretty much a musical of their cd with aided animation. kind of like a modern day Gorillaz kinda thing. i reccoment u watch the movie. u can find it on youtube. the whole thing. i havent' seen the movie since Jr. High. it's kinda nostalgic to see this clip again. haha i really like this vid. clip, esp. where he daydreams about the girl and they're in the medow and stuff. i kinda do wut that guy does, except without hte girly meadow shit. rofl.)


"Digital Love"

Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long
Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long
The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true

Why don't you play the game ?
Why don't you play the game ?




It's all a balancing act in my opinion. and i honestly don't know wut to do...

There's the girl that i constantly think about, and considered (note the past tense) or pursuing. i am not sure if i should or not. (she is ridiculously beautiful... but is there really more to her than just physcial attraction?)

There is my friends that i have tried really hard to grow closer with and want to pursue closer relationships with those friends. am i really willing to trade my efforts for my friends for a woman?

And there is/are the girl(s) that might have a crush on me. (this is purely speculation and just my guess. i have no idea if i am right at all. i could be totally wrong and bending things outta shape)

Now what do i do? let's not joke ourselves, women take up much effort, time and money. lol. do i really have that rite now. can i afford that rite now? This girl i have in mind doens't seem like a longterm relationship... but why do i still think about her?

i really wanted and think im leaning more towards growing closer with a small groups of friends. i really wanted to focus on that for the time being and not worry about the time, and effort, and money spent on girls. but why is it that i still constnatly think of that one girl? why? why? lol why is that? iono man. something tells me that i shouldn't pursue her... and i can keep my options open with a select few, but what do i really wanna do? More importantly...what does God want me to do?

i feel like i really sux at hearing God's will for me. rite now, i think i shud just concentrate on some really good friendships, i feel like it'll take me a long way. cuz if i try to go for one girl... i might end up slipping all the time and effort i've been working so hard to open up and earn new friendships and ppl.'s trusts. etc.

but then again... i still kinda don't know wut to do. *sigh* lol.

I think im starting to learn how to balance my life tho. and that's something new and good for me. im tryin to balance (or learn how to balance) my social, school, and family, and religious time. I feel like im getting better at it. What God has in store for me, i hav no idea. but yes...i'll be patient, and wait. maybe i shud just keep things the way they are, keepin the status quo son. I like where i am now and the direction im facing in life. why not go with the flow eh?

all in all... :-D Life is good. Seize the day people!

end time: 12:16

My view on Politics

Current song: "Sincerely" by Tsutchie (a group who work with Nujabes who are known for doing the intro music for the popularized anime Samurai Champloo)

Current Quote: "Politics, it seems to me, for years, or all too long, has been concerned with right or left instead of right or wrong. ---Richard Armour

So i hav reccently been updating myself with other ppl's blogs, and it looks like the hot topic of the week is all about politics. lol and i feel like i shud do wut the cool thing is... "what everyone else is doing." lol jk doin wut everyone else is doing is not always the cool thing. but n e ways. moving on, i felt like i couldn't leave a deccent comment on ppl's blogs cuz i have nothing to say about politics. What also prompted me to write this blog was because i just reccently discussed this matter with Ronezza. we had a pretty good chat about it. haha.

But in case most of you don't know... I have a very strong dislike towards politics.

but it's not like, if ur all passionate about politics and such, i won't hate you at all, in fact, i totally respect that and think it's cool that you are very knowledgable about the way our nation operates and are up to date with what's going on.

but the following are my reasons for not liking politics:

1. It is such an easy way to get yourself into an argument with someone else: and things can get heated in just under a minute. I'm not sure if that makes me a wussy, (cuz i like to avoid confrontation) but that's what i do. so many arguments and rebutles, it's like... who do i believe? it really gets to much for me to handle and process. u know? number two ties in well with number one.
2. You really have to do sooo much reasearch in order to find out what's what and who stands for what opinion. etc.: if you are making an argument with someone, you really have to be super knowledgeable to hold your own wen defending your position. it is just too much work! seriously. and how credible are your sources? are you sure you know exactly what you are saying is 100% fact and true?
3. Who's to say that who i vote for will acutally follow through with what he/she is saying?: i honestly think that ppl. will say anything to be where they want to be. Kind of like ppl who are willing to do sum crzy shit just to be on TV. ya know? lol. it's like... dude.. calm down. hahaa. but seriously, some presidential candidate could say the best things in the most eloquent manner, but he could probably act like the next Hitler. all im saying is, if America votes for the most popular and seems like the best choice by landslide, and he becomes some crzy dictator, at least i could say that i didn't vote. : P actions defintely speak louder than words. ALWAYS.
4. You don't get sucked into Jury duty: i don't know about u, but i dun wanna wait 3 hrs and dive somewhere to hear someone sueing and complaining about some random crap just to earn profit. "America is a place where you can sue anyone for anything and get away with it!" ---unknown, i forgot where i got that quote from, but i heard it from somewhere and it said something along those lines. i feel like jury duty is just another distraction in life where you have to stop your current daily life and activities and handle someone else's problem. sry, iono if that came out as too harsh, but that's how i feel about it. i also think like the less my name doesn't make it to some govt. related list of names, the better it will be for me in the long run. as in getting drafted(i really pray there is no drafts ever again), or jury duty, or wutever the hell it is. the more my name isn't associated with the govt, i feel like it'll b better int he long run.
5. God's will. I don't know how God and politics really fit well with each other. How sure are we that God will's a certain candidate to win and lead a nation instead of another candidate. It's crzy stuff to think about man. It's always been separate... and i honestly don't think i can draw the line between this prop and that prop, or this person is better than that person. It sux to compare ppl. i honestly feel like comparing yourself to others is a bad measurement. Always compare yourself to your own abilities. And it sux to compare a person you don't know to another person. Who is to say that one person is a much better role model than the other.
6. "I have enough faith in humanity, that they will research and vote properly enough for me to thrive and prosper well." im not sure if i have an overly strong indiference and i am just too stubborn, but this is the way i feel. Unless i feel like something really bothers me to a personal level, then i'll probably do sumthing about it, such as vote or petition, or rally up ppl. and protest, or speak on it. etc. Im not sure if my strong indifference is a sin or not... i sometimes wonder. but all in all, i see voting kind of like Wikipedia. people will check upon sources and research and like, everything will work itself out and the best answer will come upon the masses. Why shud i put in my two cents when i know absolutely nothing about the subject, haha.

well then, that sure was a lot. most of my blogs aren't that serious. lol. but yes, i thought it was neccessary to write about it.

another thing before i wrap up this blog, i really like Kirst.'s quote on her status. "I'm looking at you and my heart likes the view." lol. i think that's a really cool quote.

I love my family and freinds. i had a really good weekend. i got to hang with my family, see some friends that i haven't talked to or seen for such a long time (some years, others months) and i got to celebrate a good friends' birthday who's birthday was oct. 16. lol so im totally a month late, but i still took her out to lunch, so it was all gewd. i luved my weekend. :-D

Maybe my next blog will be about my parents and how i feel about them and some current news that i heard is happening. Tune in next time! lol

end time 1:52

i shud really b asleep

Current song playing: Ice Box by Omarion

Current Quote of the day: "Decisions... Decisions... Decisions..." (what to do?)

so i know i shud really b sleeping rite now considering the fact that i hav class at 11 tomorrow, but i think i've just realized that i have a newfound addiction, blogging and reading other's blogs. lol. there is on person's blog in particular that i'd like to read before i sleep after i write this up. well... i went to kyrie today and the afterevent was a movie at Grace's place, she lives pretty cloes to me, and we watched iron man. i luv that movie. hahah. well.... i kinda wanna do this blog differenty this time. take a look at the lyrics i've pasted. i want some feedbacks, you can comment me, or find me on aim, or even email me or sumtin, facebook, iono, but i just want u guys to tell me what you think. i wanna hear ur opinions.

im not sure if you guys knew this about me, but one of my favorite passtimes is to read and analyze song lyrics. (most esp. the emo ones! >.<) The Academy Is... (one of my top 20 fav. bands) and i just want u to kinda analyze the song a bit. i wanna know wut u think about it. lol i hav an interpretation of it, but i don't wanna say it yet and let it get in the way of ur interpreation of the song. just tell me what u think about it, esp. the parts i bold. i really like this song, i all encourage you to find this song and listen to it. lol

here it goes:

Lyrics to Down And Out :

Out of the box, Out of the KitchenOut of the world shes grown so fearful of
So fearful ofI don't ever want to see you again.

I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again, my friend.
This is the end.

Out of the house, she grabs the keys, runs for the hills and doesn't leave a letter that way the inbox will be much better
Away from the man that shes grown so fearfull of so fearfull ofI don't ever want to see you again.

I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.I don't ever want to see you again.

O why o why you wear sunglasses in the home when the sun went down about an hour ago
O why o why you wear sunglasses in the home when the sun went down about an hour ago

Life should not be that wayAlways up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep

That Make you stutter when you speakAlways up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep
That Make you stutter when you speak

Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.

Now that I'm grown, I've seen marriages fall to piecesNow that I'm grown, I've seen friendships fall to pieces

Weekend warriors and our best friends the writers weren't kidding about how all good things must end then again somethings then again somethings are far too good somethings are far too good to go away- Let go.

Always up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep That Make you stutter when you speak
Always up or down Never down and outdream of demons while you sleep That Make you stutter when you speak

Speak now or forever hold your peace.

We won't forget Tony or Johnny, oh, oh.No matter how they miss us they still wish us the best on the road.Garrett took a plane to Paris, France.Now he's cooking up entrees for the pretty, pretty French girls.Bookends, Blue and Clarity, to The Wall and Grace.Darkside, Wish and a toast to the late Figure 8.

Weekend warriors and our best friends.The writers weren't kidding, but the good things will live in our hearts.

Always up or down, never down and out.You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak.Always up or down, never down and out.

You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. Always up or down, never down and out.You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak. Always up or down, never down and out.

You dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak.Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces.

http://www.lyricsmania.com/lyrics/academy_is_the_lyrics_3995/from_the_carpet_[ep]_lyrics_24935/down_and_out_lyrics_287932.html

well, i think that's all for tonite, and u don't hav to analyze this if u don't want to of course, i just happen to find it fun i guess. :-P iono. i promise that in my next blog, i will talk about my views on politics. ahhaa. now time to read that person's blog. lol Nite all! : D

"sleep now or forever hold you peaCe in pieces..."

end time: 2:05 am

The Window of Opporunity

Current Song Playing: "We've got a Big Mess on Our Hands" by The Academy Is...

Current Quote: "Speak Now or forever Hold your Peace in Pieces..." by The Academy Is... in the song Down and Out (i know, the quotes hella emo, but i felt like it applied.lol)

do you guys ever get the feeling that your window of opportunity has just closed. have you guys ever experienced that or felt that way? and you just realize it? hahah. like u had ur ipod blasting in ur ears when opportunity was knocking in the front door.

anyways, i felt like the above has just slipped past me. i don't know, is it due to my lack of exp.? or my poor choice of words? my nervousness? i feel like a fool sumtimes. but it's okay. im not gonna beat myself up over it u know? haha. it's all good. im just gonna learn frm my experience and further grow as an individual. As William Hung once said, "...and I have no regrets..." : ) ate may and i talked about regret once, maybe that's another subject topic for another time. but i'll blog about it eventually.

i still have so many graces and blessings in my life. i am doing well, and i am strong. : D things are still looking up.

I want to be able to support those around me, but sumtimes i feel a lil useless and powerless. the most i can do is pray... i hope my prayers work and are answered. i see so many of my fellow brother's and sister's in christ who are struggling, i want to help, i really do. if there is anything i can do, i want to be a part of it and i want to help you be your crutch. i just need to be stronger in order to support those around me. two letters... I.T.

well, i think im dun for today. g'nite all. : )

Today is a good day.

Current song: D.A.N.C.E. by Justice

Current Quote: "You are such a P.Y.T." ---from the song mentioned above (i know im copping out with the quotes... lol but it's hella late and i dun wanna look for a quote that reflects my current mood. :-P) does n e one remember this micheal jackson reference? lol

i just wanted to make this a really quick blog, i had such an eventful day. so much sharing with people. Each day is a new day. I luve every minute of it. I really lik to thank joyce for helpin me out. whatever she told me is working and i have a better and more pos. attitude.

Today i shared with my LOG fam a bit and it really helped and i felt genuine and luved bak. I luv LOG. i had a lot of one on one convo's and i really liked all of them. Today was just a great day in general and i feel like im getting closer and feelings a sense of belonging somehow. lol i even talked to FJF (father john francis) about this problem, and he is just such a wise man. there was a talk with Bellameeeee, charlene, steve, charmaine, janice, and FJF. i can't thank God enuf for all my wonderful blessings today and all the beautiful people in my life and all the sharing and caring and laffs and... just everything. im in a great mood! are you? hehe. take care everyone. i think i'll sleep now.

p.s. sry i didn't get into the details and specifics in my blog today, but just know that i am praying for all of you that confronted me about your problems, if you need prayers, just ask me. no problem. ;-)

i luv life and this world. good nite God and all. : D