numb lock = ghosts?

current song of the moment: "Roses" by Outkast

Roses Outkast
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Current Quote of the Day: "when the times comes, forget all the wrong that i've done, help me leave behind some reasons to be missed, and dont resent me. when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest..." ---Linkin Park Leave out allt he rest

So today i went to costco to get my tire fixed, i bought a brand new tire. woot. : ) so that's great. but wut sux is the two and a half hr. wait. i told mark sescon this after sunday mass and he was nice enuf to accompany me so i wouldn't hav to wait by myself. i thought that was really nice of him to volunteer his time and self like that. and Jem came along too so that was a lotta fun. im glad they came with me. or else i wudda been hella bored. But i think it really shows a lot about their character and friendship. that they were nice enuf and willing to kik it with me for two hrs and stuff. so yeah. mad shout out to them and thx. : D

so i got an awk situation that just happened to me reccently. i saw this one girl i used to date in HS... (her names Alicia) with her new bf. im still pretty tite with Alicia, and we talk every now and then and kik it here and ther. i knew she had a new boyfriend, but it was my first time meeting him and i knew alican and him were gonna be at this bday party i was gona go to over the weekend. first thing i noticed wen i met him was that he was tall. second thing was that he had a nice dark forrest green sweater from Volcom. i owned the very same sweater becasue Alicia gave it to me as a present. a few years ago.

so later on that night, Alicia, her bf, and a few friends and i were around a table chit chatting. someone comments on how nice Alicia's Bf's sweater looks. he says that Alicia gave it to him as a present... interesting huh? i look around the table and see everyone talking about the sweater and commenting it. i notice Alicia is the only one looking away at the TV and not paying attention. she doesn't make eye contact with me nor does she say anything until the subject was changed.

so at this point, i don't really know wut to say, or how shud i react. i just felt hella AWKWARD lol. iono how i am suppose to feel or wut am i suppose to say? lol. i thought about saying like "oh yeah! it's nice, i have the same exact sweater too!" and if they ask who gave it to me i'd just b like "oh, a really good HS friend gave it to me as apresent" but iono, i felt like that wudda bin rubbing it in somehow.

could u imagine if i happened to b wearing the same sweater? i wonder how more awk. that would make the situation when i met him. LOL. dang man.

so i was a victim of numb-lock(sleep paralysis-where ur heart is beating and lungs are breathing, and are subconsciously awake, but cannot move an entire muscle or any part of your body) for the second time of my life today. i've had it only once before hand. i just came back from my econ 13 class and i knocked out on the couches at interfaith. Huan was at the far behind couch already knocked out. i took the other one and went to sleep. so as i was asleep, i felt a black shadowed figure come over me, i thought it was Huan and it appeared as tho he was laying his body on top of me like to squish me or sumtin but i didn't feel anything, and then i heard in a soft yet demanding whisper "wake up! wake up! you're gonna be late! wake up!" etc. and i was like.... wuts goin on? so i felt like i was awake cuz my mind was thinking. and i tried moving my arms and stuff, but i couldn't. then i just heard random whispering sounds like "psshh whishh psshs pshshhs" etc. and i was kinda getting freaked out.

so i heard/felt my heartbeating faster and harder, at least i knew i was alive and stuff. and then i focused on my breathing. making sure i was doing so. my breathing wanted to make sure i was breathing cuz if i knew that i was breathing and my heart was beating, i can't die in my sleep. ya know? haha. so i was like... dude. if i havne' woken up yet, why hasn't the person like... shaken me awake yet? ya know? so i was just kinda waiting a bit to see if the person would shake me up to wake me, but it never came. so i just focused on my breathing, and my breathing became progressively more and more deep and heavier. i just became scared cuz i couldnt' control my limbs. ya kno? as i focused on myself to just breathe, i noticed that the whispers had gone and faded away. and i managed to finally fully wake up with me being able to move and stuff.

i checked behind me, and Huan was still knocked out, i stood up and looked around interfaith, but no one was there, i know there was a random person that used that interfaith bathroom, and then walked out, but iono who it was nor did i see their face/body. but yeah man. i was pretty scared with what happened today

i heard frm an older friend, JR, that wen you get sleep paralysis, it happens when like, and evil spirit seizes ur body and stuff. and wen he gets it, he doesnt' wanna open his eyes, cuz he's afraid to see some crzy ghost or sumtin. iono he had a more detailed answer and stuff. but yeah, i shud ask him about it again. i didn't realy beleive it wen he first told me, but now ii think i'm more open to that being an actual possiblity.

and i did not make any of this up, this was for realz and it happend today man. i was tripped the frick out man. hahah o wellz i think im dun for the day with my blog more next time

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