I'm Happy but...

Current Song Playing: "Numb/Encore" by Jay-Z Linkin Park collaboration

current quote of the day: "Happiness is a choice that requires effort at times." ---Aeschylus (a greek playwright. i learned of him in my classics class. check out wiki http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aeschylus)





hey guys. just wanted to say wussup. things have been great for me lately. i am happy. really. im not lying. i really do enjoy and love my life rite now.

today i got to play tennis with my kuya and JR at Cerritos. it was really fun. i think it was mostly because of the fact that i felt like i was playing really good tennis. like... for a second. i felt like i was in my High School prime kinda tennis. lol but it was only for a sec. lol. but i always hoped that i'd improve my game and not get rusty. maybe even go above and beyond my HS tennis skills and get better. haha. fat chance but i can dream can't i?

So tennis was great today, and super fun. but chirstmas was something else. i luuuuved spending time with my fam and frenz and the FOOOD! woot. and i didn't even get started talking about presents. lol but i felt like what i gave out this xmas was super cool and what i recieved was totally awesome. :-D

so i spent some time with at my sisters in Colton (near riverside) and we had some drinks and played nerdy games and rock band. lol but yeah. it was such a fun nite and hung out with my future brother in law. it was great times. and of course, great food. cuz wen u roll with the Enriquez's it's only the prime select choice meats and produce u grub down on. ;-) rofl. it's kinda true tho.

My eldest sister Ate Ann, said this today. "i love and hate the holidays, but what i hate the most is the eating, cuz it just totally messes up my eating pattern" and it's sooo true. i totally agree with what she said. wen ur at home, with lots of family, lots of good company, and lots of good food (home cooked food made with love frm my mom lol) you can't really tell if your hungry, or just craving to eat/taste the food from the smell of it all. lol

speaking of which, my dad got a home ice cream maker. it is freaking awesome! i luv it. lol so far, we made some vanilla, super sour lemon sherbert, and coffee ice cream. it was great stuff man. i hope i don't gain weight over the break. lol. : )

so im pretty happy where i stand as of now. i really am, but for some reason... i can't help but feel like im still incomplete and somewhat empyt inside. i have this strong feeling of being empty rite now. and i am no quite sure why. i always ask myself if im living life to it's fullest, and i know i shouldn't really compare my life to other ppl's lives. and i should really consider all the wonderful blessing that i have today. i shouldn't take things for granted. i mean, i got a wonderful and supportive family, certain talents and characterisitcs. tennis is also fun. i have some great friends. I'm on deccent terms with God. but i just don't know... i just feel like there's so many more things i can do and want to do that i feel like will make my life more meaningful somehow or more fulfilling. but what? i just don't know. i'd like to say that i want to experiment and try new things but i admit, im kinda scared. im ussually one that keeps the status quo. maybe i shud really change that huh? im not too sure anymore.

i can really see how ppl. have addictions. because once ppl. try something and like it, it becomes their world and it makes them feel alive. i can see how ppl. can get addicted to drugs, or pornography, or addicted to food and become obease. i can see how ppl can be obsessed with a certain thought/action becuase it makes them feel "complete" but how do we decipher "completeness" with "false complacency" ? why do i feel this way in the first place? haha, i don't know. i want to try other things... some things that i will not mention in this blog cuz it'll probably shock u what i want to try. hahah it's kinda like... i wanna try it once, and see how it is, but what im afriad of the most is messing up my life... becoming addicted to it, or even liking it and wanting to do it more even tho i know it's "false complacency" i always felt like it was best to neve try things just so that there is no way for me to become addicted. but i can't help it that im curious can't i? iono... i kinda don't know wut to do. who says that by trying/do these things that i have in mind will make my life that much better and more fulfilling?

in any case, i shud just enjoy life now and take things step by step rite? hehe. mkay i think i've had my brain dump of the day. lol hope everyone is doin well and is safe these hollidays. new years is coming up. next blog will be about new year's resolutions. : D have fun all bye

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