She's so beautiful...

"Current song of the moment: Amber by 311



Current Quote of the Day:
"Did you know that when you sigh, a little bit of happiness escapes?" ---Bakemonogatari the anime.

Today was a great day, all i woke up not hungover from the party i went to last nite, i ate at my ate's pad in riverside, and i went to my Erwinator's picnic thing at the park, we played a lotta ball, but im kinda sad i didn't get to hit with Brentz sum tennis. maybe another time. It sux having a jacked up ankle. i can't play my best and it sux in general just knowing that you can do so much better than what ur doing now, but you can't do anything about it because something(my ankle) is holding you bak. I was hearing from a lotta ppl that even once ur ankle fully heals up. it's very much likely/possible for it to be a reoccuring injury. that got me kinda sad. oh well. well, we after the picnic, we ate at this really awesome sushi place called Sushi Imari off of bristol. It was awesome. food was good, and the service was top notch. got to be one of the best places to have really great cheerful waiters and chefs. Erwinator got 3 free rolls, a free whip cream chocolate cake with a candle, and a bunch of to go chocolate cakes to go just cuz it was his birthday! how freaking awesome is that. they give away a lotta free stuff when we eat there. haha. if anybody's down, we should go hit that place up again someday.

so, the party i went to the night before, it was pretty swt. it wasn't an average party like the Liwanag ones cuz this party had the sorority ppl. going from UCR n like... a lotta stuff that shouldn't be said on this blog went down. lol that's all ima say. there was a DJ, 2 beer pong tables, a pool, and lots of dark crevices for couples to sneak off to if you know wut i mean. it was soooo chill to kik it with some friends that i haven't really seen or talked to in a while. But what is interesting is seeing what some of your old friends would do when they've had a few drinks in em. and also what they're up to now what they did at the party, and the kinds of habits they've picked up...and what future path's they'd like to lead. Let's just say that i had a good time, but the more i go to these types of parties, the more i appreciate just simple kik baks with a handle full of friends that i trust. hahah i guess i was never really into going to these types of raging parties to be honest.



But there was one particular girl at the party. This girl, i've known since highschool and we've had a past, you could say... haha. well, we used to like each other, but we always liked each other at the wrong times. and nothing ever happened. *sigh* But seriously, she has got to be one of the most prettiest girls i've ever met. Absolutely beautiful and knows how to have a good time(but not toooo tooo crzy, hahaha) , great personality, athletic in certain sports, and not to mention the most prettiest smile that could make me melt. She is currently taken rite now, and that's cool.

But she approached me at the party talking about bf problems and him being over-protective. I sat down, talked with her and gave her advice. Honestly, this isn't the first time i've played this role before where i help out someone with their current relationship problem that's happening right at the party. I actually don't mind helping people out and giving them my advice. I like doing so cuz it makes me feel like i did something good and that they like the things that i have to say. it makes me feel somewhat important. but this case was a bit different because this girl happened to be an old crush. we were dancing a bit on the dance floor...she held my hand to drag us to a spot where we could talk a bit, we talked with our faces very close to each other, and when i look at her eyes... it feels so deep and endless. when i was giving her a talk/advice, i'd be lying if i said that playing the home-wrecker card never crossed my mind. i could have easily gave her the wrong advice to this vulnerable old crush of mine. did i do so? no... a little small part of me wanted to be a home-wrecker, but i didn't. At one point, i honestly thought about kissing her, but of course, i didn't. And when i was leaving the party and making my round of bye's i saw her talking to her BF and i said bye to both of them, while the BF was saying bye to my sister, she gave me a hug bye, and in that hug she concealed a kiss on the neck... daym, she makes my heart flutter, she always does.

i went home that night, saying to myself that i did the right thing. and the quotes that came to mind were: "nice guys sure know how to finish last! lol and also that one quote that goes "if something is meant to be it will come back around" they do come back around right? lol i have no idea. I'd just like to think so. and then the other famour quote..."what if..." hahaha what if for HS and what if for last nite. ; P but seriously, i think the BF is a really chill guy, but it's always that questions of who'd be a better BF? lol jk jk. In any case, i think i've blabed enuf about this topic. hahah. sry if that was boring for you reader(s).

In any case, i think i used up my remainder of my summer pretty well, it was sooo effing short, but yeah. it was still fun for the days i had left without summerr school. anywayz thx for reading!

End time: 10:46

Liwanag Core 1-Day retreat

Current song of the moment: Lift Up Your Hands By God



Current Quote of the Day: "Being ruined for life, cuz im addicted to serving" ---Brentz and "What is your LOGstory?" ---Angie Amador

Just a real quick blog, the LOG core 1 day retreat was freaking bomb. I luved it sooo much. I really believe it gave me that push, it was just what i needed to feel more confident about the year. I really do feel spiritually recharged and more passionate about serving than ever. I feel like me and my LOG core can take on any obstacle thrown at us rite now and i am truly excited for this upcoming year.

Just real quick, if you are a LOG alumni reading this, Thanks You soooooo much. yesterday was just amazing. I know Angie worked really hard preparing and having everyone collaborate together to makes things go so great yesterday. and all the alums did an excellent job with all their parts with all their talks and advice and wisdom. Everything was top notch. I also felt like i really needed to go to confession yesterday too. it was well worth it. do i feel closer to God? Yes. i most definitely do. But of course, there is always more room for imporvement.

Just a few ending notes: Gerard Anacleto(the founder of Liwanag, his presence yesterday alone shows how supportive and dedicated he is to this youth ministry and also made me feel important the retreat was yesterday and very much affected the overall attitude of the retreat.) wrote a small prayer for me. And what he wrote down really made my day. He said "Somehow, i had no doubt that you would one day be one of the Liwanag core leaders. It was evident from the beginning the love and dedication you have for service..." the founder himself wrote that! for me. i was really overjoyed that he affirmed me and said that to me. i was also truly moved at what my other brothers and sisters in Christ wrote for me. There is also one other line that really sticks out to me. He wrote down "you have the heart of a champion and the soul of a child." I was also very moved by that affirmation. Just... Thank you so much Julian for that statement.

In short, to all the alumni, i hope i can one day, pay it forward to all you guys for what you have done of Liwanag, the precedence you have set for us, and the impact/mark you have left on me. I cannot thank you all enough. I'll most definitely keep you in my prayers always.

---end time : 11:45pm